1. ONLY IN MY MIND

One day you will understand.
Where I've gone to and why I left.
These words will die and you cry.

My voice is fading,
My time is gone.
Only think of me,
When your time has come.

When I die... Who will be with ?
Only in my mind, friends care...
In truth, there not there.

My voice is fading, my time is gone,
Only think of me,
When your time has come...


2. UNDER THE HANGING VINES

As I sit here with you under the hanging vines,
I gaze into your eyes,
As they twinkle and water.
You know that the time has come,
That my love for you has died.
Even as you grasp your arms around me,
Pleading and crying to me...
I look at your face for the last time.
I don't feel anything for you,
It was a mistake to take your hand,
And place your heart with mine.
This will be a vivid memory,
That will distance you from me.
My hold on you will fade one day,
As you continue life pretending like
I damaged you, you will forget
And think of me as a false reality.
Even with all we have been through,
And all the feelings you killed...
No one will ever take you out of my thoughts.


3. SOMEWHERE IN MY HEART

Laying in the sand, watching the
Waves crash, looking into the sky,
You're my shooting star...
That never fades away, even in
Dark you're there, always
Watching me. Helping me through life,
Walking upon my shadow, I wish you
Had never left. WHy did you take your
Life you were only 18, when you left
Home and I have never been,
The same without you in my life.
So I live and pretend, that you're still
With me. Somewhere in my heart
Yours still beats.
You broke my heart over and over again.
Its funny to seem e here, bleeding on
The floor, crying to myself.
Never knowing how you could do this to me.
I thought I meant something to you,
But I was wrong and I still,
Will always love you.
I felt your breathing even after,
I heard your voice, before I followed.
You hurt me so much...
I have lost so much in life,
And I have cried and cried,
For some one to help me,
And you all walked past.
What would happen if you
Were in my place? I cant say
I'd help you, and I
Don't blame you for anything.
You just didn't care and left...
It's the cold shoulder of life.


4. WILL I END UP LOOSING YOU SOME DAY

I've never felt this empty before.
Even on tranquil days I held your hand
For so long, I want to protect you
And your fading smile.
Your soft whispers crying that,
Nobody knows who I really am.
The flower field we had loved so much,
Died during the fall and never woke,
Like the love that had withered away.
Your hands always resist me,
This pain is nothing compared to what
I have given up. As we walked on the
Path among flowers, I will never
Forget those spoken words, that
Some memories aren't meant to leave
Traces, as you turned your back to me.
During spring I returned, and saw
The fields in all there beauty,
You were there with another.
Will I end up loosing you someday ?
Where have you gone ?


5. AN URGE TO WITHDRAW

Remember the urge to withdraw ?
How the emptiness inside grew as I kept,
Distancing myself from you. I can still
Remember watching your eyes tear,
Hearing your voice cry, feeling
Your hands grasp, tasting your breath.
The last kiss you tried to give.
I can see you at your worst.
These urges to withdraw, showed
Your weekness. You cling to everyone,
And everything you have said to me,
Has been said to others before by those lips.
None of our times meant anything. I wish
I would have known, so the last look
Upon your face wouldn't last in my mind.
The emptiness inside grew, as I kept
Distancing myself from you, these
Urges to withdraw never seemd to stop.


6. PAST MISTAKES IN LIFE

When you laugh at me, my eyes tear
Up and I can't see, the gaze staring
Through me. Your could heart makes you
Seem to not care for me...
I have given my heart to you,
And you took everything from me...
These past mistakes in life, these
Shared times in pain, what as the
Point to hurt me? Remember what
I told you? That if you were to be mine,
I would do everything for you, and
Now that it is over, I am in disbelief.
All I think of is what could be,
I'll never love again. These are my
Final words and my following actions,
Will be my last moments.
Please don't say you love me,
Or anything but your own self...


7. TEARS OF A SILENT RAIN

I want to say I'm sorry for things
I haven't done yet. Though I'm bleak
And tomorrow is distant, I'll never
Leave from this silence. Soft tears
Are my only comfort. I need to
Find myself. Through nightmares
Of the mind. A psychotic urge of mental
Progression before all the years have
Gone and all the halls darkened.
I have passed the time, when the mourners
Mourn. The dead end bleakness of
Adulthood was a tale of two.
wasting away in a lonely mind,
The words of a silenced man speak
To the past. The tears of a silent rain.
Sad natures sadness. Mistakes that take
Us apart, I have left this life before.
Changes that were never meant to be.
You will never be alone, not within my
Memory. Run away, but I will remain
I want to be alone.


8. A BEAUTIFUL SONG OF NEVER REACHED DREAMS

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