1. SPITTING NAILS

I close my eyes; trying to suppress
The hate that festers within myself

Everyday is another war in my mind
My flesh seeks death, my spirit wants life

Oh Father God, please don't forsake me to myself
I'd rather rot in the dirt as worms devour me
A husk of hatred from the pain that I've felt
Undeserving of Your mercy, deserving of Hell
The face of death; knocking at my door
Anger, hatred; brought forth from misery
Violent thoughts, vile speech from my mouth
Torment from the anguish felt within my soul

Anger, hatred, violent thoughts, vile speech
Curses under my breath, animosity within
Hate in my eyes, the unsettling display
Of a man who preaches love, but inside he feels hate

Father, please forgive me
I have sinned against Your children
Hateful acts committed in hypocrisy
The selfish acts of a heretic

Spitting nails

Malicious indignation
A mere act of violence
Committed in the name of heresy
Forgive my blatant sin
Against Your holy name

Inside this coffin made of flesh
Is a heart that beats for You, Lord