1. NOSTALGIA

As in a dream I traveled back,
To times lost, places remembered.
And with me I took all that is "I".
And once there, I held still in the moment,
Aware that again it would be gone.
Gone are the days, echoes in memory.
Sweet befallings of my mindless flaw
Lived on.

Together we ran away,
Abandoned reason for hope,
And left behind our essence.
Lost it all, and for what?

Alas, on wings of hope,
were we to meet at the end of roads?
To what the facade dressed
In strokes of mocking void
Left me dreaming for?

The past comes alive and clear with awarness.
Trees bare green around the senile court.
Awaken to the kind of dandelion youth
Others have only dreamt about.

To hold it still!
The countless times I've reached and failed,
For what - you cannot see.
Seductive cult of yearning
Blindly leads me still - away!

Blessed with the notion of past no more,
We blundered on without cause.
The mist, once everfallen - forever
Exiled the most cherished thoughts...


2. EGRESS

I have always claimed my right to have
Caring not for fate nor loss
The choice was made a hundred times and more
To begin my search again and anew to be born


3. NEW SETTING

With solemn gaze towards the far
Gathering remnants of vibrant unease
The sun inert, behind a sullen fog
And still towards eastern shore
The time begone became my northern star
Like so many times before

Into primeval
With disquiet at hand
The sole ward laden by avowal
And this eve's contrieriety manifest

There alive by midnight wild
The weary guard watches
Gathering around
As winds dance upon the nest again

See me in the summer night
Among the ones who knew my tale
Know me still
For i am returned to where i dwell

Brought upon the summit of hope
Where tracks blend with echoes of the past
The blooming flora I've come to cherish
Extends its fearful hand

How weak my voice among the winds of time
How small my stance, against collosal trends
How feeble my hope in the hands of the maker
(And) How misguided my reason to beg for this
A new setting

And there at the solstice of this animation
To disperse back into the void...


4. STORMCALLING

Having first entered the void
I turned to night's blooming fields
All shining in violet, reddish livid
Assumptions were of nothing less
Than spring's courtly welcome
Begging my will to stay

Left alone I tried a path
Destined to fail from the very outset
Cast aside, barred from joining
In your glorious essence

One by one the droplets fell
From the heavy sky
Touches of a calming cold
Against a fevered skin

I found more worry than peace
In the light of this

On the ridge of sight
To whence I've run, defying given fate
Untouched by passing time
Storm of earth - I call your name

Having first entered the void
I turned to night's blooming fields
Among them my own steps I found
Fading sea of leaves...


5. ADRIFT

(Instrumental)


6. THAWING INNOCENCE

Cast my whispers into wind...
Let them fall wherever words
Find receptive soil

Cast my thoughts of winters gone
Together with their fading memory
May they rest in cold silence
Under blanket of white snow

...Until it's time to wake
And cast my whispers into wind

Set my dreams among the living spring
Scent of pine and wings towards the call
Torn a thousand, forceful, feverish ways

Cast my whispers into wind...
Let them fall wherever words
Find receptive soil
Torn a thousand feverish ways

And once the day of end arrives
Drown my urge in soil's warmth

Take me back, hold my arm
In the summer of life
When the breeze reached for our faces
And I could bear your heart


7. STARE INTO THE SUN

My own youth
Was a boundless canvas of a checkered land
With golden crops
Where an endless summer reigned
The colors fed my very soul
Bathing in the warmest rain
Giving cover with a forest bloom

Bestir - I thought - from this summer daze
Just as the honey veil of lies
Binds my eyes...

The glaring days of carefree life
Transcending lucid dreams of flight
Why doubt - when you can
Stare into the sun

To lose yourself in blissfull world
Guided by a burning light that leads astray
Lock your eyes and brave the pain
Until the worold in darkness finds itself
It's blackened drape - my likeness

Illusion of triumph faded
Scorch of lids turned to dust
Rub away the wreck of my shield
Expose my obvious
Self imposed delusion

Among the scars that marked me now
There once was, torn by a fall
A night sweet lie
A promise made in neglect
Betrayal forebode

Black world of thoughts where bedrock came bare
Tainted intent roots carcass of our symbiose
Brooding in the dusk the dread apparent
Touched by a Judas kiss, devoid of...


8. CANVAS FOR DEPARTURE

Stain the canvas black...

And so my endless dreams contrived
Marked by peering face of childhood years
Forever scaling turn of downward steps

For still unknowingly
From this guest I've laid
Upon my faith and pride
The long forgotten dread I won

And ever since that moment
And every night
In shapeless helpless mist I've drowned
Seeking forever...