1. BLACK COFFEE

Just this once, are you going to run
From here? I'm dying to know and i'm
Dying to know if she died to me as
Well. She really isn't that strange...but she will say good-
Bye someday. That old black coffee
Fantasy i used to never seemd to
Bother me, but in my mind i was always hoping to betray, do the sinner's dance
And fade away. ("because i need the fade away")
This is all too much. And the blood taste was red.
You're the devil. Hey daddy, breathe in all the culture.
It means i'm gonna take what's mine, while
Seeming mundane. But only this once...so don't
Get used to it.


2. THE SNOW VEIL

Dark steals for the chance to kill. Dark
Kills for the chance to kill. Dark steals for the
Chance to steal another mind. Dark steals for
The chance to darken. That's how it feels when
No one loves you. I'm with lust (i'm with stupid). They go
Counting red gold. They go counting lies. They look up,
Bat their beady eyes and point. (sneer-sneer, snicker-snicker)
If things are said one way, you can bet they'll change


3. STAR ABOVE MY BED (CALL OF THE TIGER WOMAN)

So, i'm kneeling on my pillow god.
I'll see there, damn it i'll even be there. But only if
It's you and me, "the glowing team". Gee, why
The hell can't i glow? Must've ran out
Of batteries. Isee the manger. On her desk she
Left a warning and it read: "will i ever
See what i got coming? And will i ever break through
The mountains on the bridge?"
So, i'm kneeling on my pillow god


4. PINK ROSES AND THE GRAVEYARD

Don't you remember that only yesterday you threw
A spear right through my heart? And you think you're
Getting it back toll free...nope. I'm a little crazy like that. I'm wiping
You from the rose petals in my head. I'm shining our tombstones. I'm
Trying to raise the dead...but it's the everyday rituals that declare
Martyrs our of the simple man. (didn't you ever try to shave with
One hand?). You can't avoid permission if your mom has
Signed the slip. Besides, "i need it this way." "i wanted it this way."
I sleep evernight with a tiger under my arm and a ring on my finger
And you think i might wake up.
-mercy hospital, october 1996.
I would die if you'd be my savior.
Actually, i would die if you could
Be my kind. I have nothing bad in
Mind...i promise. (sneer-sneer, snicker-snicker)


5. VERMONT CONNECTION/CHAPTER 7 TEST OR THE EPHESIANS

I wonder if the next time you think of "mine"
And "my kind," will you think of the lives
That your counterparts have stricken? I'm also curious
If the nest time you'll say "it's the
Same". What would you do if i was scythe myself too?
Lumber jacks: logs, lillypads:
Frogs...do you get the parallel? I broke one
String, looks like there's three more to go.
"how could you rape me!?!" (me
And marshall said that one morning. I believe
During rrrikki lake). People say, "i don't know"
Everyday. Everynight they say, "yes".
"...take her fucking with you."