1. (WE ARE)

This is the soundtrack
To saying goodbye
We are making out
With desperate days
So turn the volume up high
(You love it)
God bless repeat, play nights
Heartbreaks and fights
And all the pretty kids
With the tired tired eyes
Sitting out parties
To be with your headphones
Reciting your last words
And writing your last notes
This is the soundtrack
To saying goodbye
For feeling cold like December
In the middle of July (so fuck it)
We are dead flowers
And pocket change, me
Forcing smiles, so tragic baby
We are the depressed
Future heartbreakers
And this is how we sound
Sometimes I just want to fade away
With no goodbyes, or anything
I slept right through the yesterdays
'Cause everybody was in my way
This is the soundtrack
To saying goodbye
We are dropping coins
Into dead payphones
To hear the sound of our voice
Just to know we're alone
And it's beyond me
Why people couldn't see
We were the true meaning of beauty
Hhumming "love"
With stiches in our hands
So young, I broke a wall with my hand
That broke a heart with a pen
So young, I was singing
"Love" in my head
And if you know what I know
Then you know that love is dead
We were born just to fade away
With no goodbyes, or anything
We slept right through the yesterdays
'Cause everybody was in our way
Goodbye my loves
You can have my heart
This is volume three of our tragedy


2. THERE'S A BLACK HOLE IN THE SHADOW OF THE PRU

Everyone I ever loved
Went down in history...
The blue eyes came
The brown eyes left...
And the rest is misery
Dreams are trash
On the side of the road
All starry eyed, tongue all tied
There's something you should know
I could have died with you
And Boston is the reason
I'm feeling so blue, damn you
City lights and colder nights
I'm innocent (minus the fights)
Praying out loud for a winter of quiet
Friday nights are killing me
I fall asleep, pen in hand
There's something you should know
I could have died with you
And Boston is the reason
I'm feeling so blue
Cities aren't a way to cure a disease
And I don't even know
Why you listen to me
A razor wristed kid
Looking forward to ends
If love was a bridge
You'd be the one in the fens
"All the kids are fucking dead"
I write "with love and a gun to my head"
These days aren't going to last too long
(I know, I know, I know)
I'm drawing words from a tired heart
I'm drawing blood from a tired heart


3. AM/PM

I was counting
The good things about this city
The only good thing is you are not here
When you're around it
Makes it hard to be what I need to be
I was trying to breathe
I was dying to breathe
I was hoping I'd never
Have to write this song again
The kind of song that makes
You want to hang
Your headached, head
And I was hoping
That I would never fall in love again
'Cause that would be the end
Of everything (you're everything)
My parents fell in love
And all I got was life
And all I ever wanted
Was to not be alone
I've been wearing this new outfit called
"Quit while you're ahead"
Your smiles are the end
Your eyes are the end
I was hoping I'd never
Have to write this song again
The kind of song that makes
You want to hang
Your headached, head
And I was hoping
That I would never fall in love again
'Cause that would be the end
Of everything (you're everything)
Just hang your head
Just close you eyes
Just hide your heart
Hide your heart
I believe that when I'm gone
My love will live in song
This is not where I wanted to be
I wanted to be
I believe that when I'm gone
My love will live in song
This is not where I wanted to live
I wanted to live


4. SHOPLIFTING IN A GHOST TOWN

I've never seen to many stars
(And I'm never gonna see them again)
I've never known such perfection
(And I'm never gonna know it again)
I've never felt so at home
(And I'm never gonna feel it again)
I want to open these veins
And never breathe again
Because the beauty is dead...
Since February 79'
I've O.D.'ed on "lonesome" 22 times
(But who's counting?)
You'd think by now, you would've died
I'm sorry girls, I tried
(Scream these words to me)
If imperfections are illegal
Then you should call the cops
And they should lock me up
You're such a slave to the crying game
(Scream these words to me)
We'll die alone
Picture me in brighter days
With smiles on my innocent face
(Did you forget me?)
I only wanted to be loved
I only wanted to be in love
(Scream these words to me)
If imperfections are illegal
Then you should call the cops
And they should lock me up
You're such a slave to the crying game
(Scream these words to me)
We'll die alone
Could you love a face
Full of tears soaked in song?
I can't decide...
I don't know if its worse to live or die
I am stuck on "never enough"
And the corner of "never again"
Here is a hint, don't call someone
Who just sits by the phone
Leave them alone
I loved the first few days
But its not fun playing a game
You always lose
I couldn't talk to save my life
I couldn't talk to save my life


5. I SAVED LATIN

I took a shot at the world
And I missed (amo te')
Traded my bow for a new year's kiss
Broken arrows and loveless wrists
Tell "J.C." I'm dying in mass
And if it wasn't so cold
I'd swear this was hell


6. POSTMARK MY COMPASS

I am bleeding through
Writing songs for you
If I could say what I felt
Then I would draw for you
I'm just a boy letting go of his heart
Because the days are like knives
And the knives are so sharp
One more kiss, so I don't forget
And then I'll open my arms
To embrace the regret
Fragile dreams, fistfight kings
Slowdance queens...
Oh pick me please
Sending "get well" cards to former stars
'Cause I know how it feels
To have fallen so far
Talentless yet nothingless
Than hopelessly in awe of you
I want nostalgia forever
If we throw this life away
Will we ever have to live again?
Say "no" and I'm all yours
Say "yes" and I'll still pull
Tell the boys I'll see them soon
Your lips were the softest yet
North, east, south and west...
I gave you my very best
I left my heart in yesterday
(Remember how it used to be)
I shot myself full of memory
(Before the world turned on me?)
Forget what you know
Forget that it hurts
The "new days" are coming...
They're getting worse
I am bleeding through
Writing songs for you
They're all for you


7. I.C. YOU ARE FEELING DRAKE

When your "golden days"
Are "that was just a phase..."
Lose yourself to reminisce
Pictures and innocence
Try to remember when you felt free and
The smiles
Just came so naturally...
You can't control your age
But you can control how you feel
Breathing dead air into broke lungs that
Once filled your heart
With the will to live
So when are you
Gonna cash in your raincheck?
(And on and on and on...)
Every second that goes by
Is one that's gone for good
Are you throwing away
Possible memories to a fevered life
Of "woulds" and "coulds?"
We may have missed our chance and
We may never be young again but fuck
Living a sick day life
Fuck dead beat kids
And fuck your falsehoods
So when are you
Gonna cash in your raincheck?
(And on and on and on...)
I'm not dead yet
Ambitions... sorry, but I have none...
I'm just a confused kid
With the masses telling me
To join tradition...
But I just can't...
I'd rather die than live like you
Do you get it?
I'd rather die than live like you
You don't get it
Fuck your falsehoods


8. HEARTS

Dear eastern prom
I know what's wrong...
But it's suicide eyes
That wrote this song
For all I'm worth
Writer's block is a bitch
Words falling like bricks
For a New England wish...
I was an easy male fuck
In the town of "naive-fly"
All I wanted was a shot in the dark
But like a knife through the heart
I choke on spit covered words...
Oh my god, it happened again
What's wrong with me?
Screaming gets you nothing
One more night in this town
And I swear that I'm dead...
I drew a heart
Around the name of your city..


9. GOD SAVE THE QUEEN

I ran through
Storm stained city streets
Paved with pain
To bring these roses to you
And with sore throat insecurity
You pulled the thorns
From my bleeding side
There were winter days
Spent in, sulking, side
Try to heat cold sheets
Hide allergy eyes...
I'm now hanging out with destiny
And begging it to get the best of me
What else can I do?
Why do you read me
Like no one else?
Used to live headaches
Now they're somewhere else...
We are handguns, angel,
Waiting to explode...
We've lived cold lives
But now we know
The sun may hide
But the night is always there
So don't anticipate
It's not worth the wait...
What did you expect?
Status report: I've called it a day...
There's a world of people
Different than me...
Status report: I've lost my voice...
Trying to be heard over this noise
Die young, or live forever?
I'm just trying to get through the night
See there's this voice
Dragging me down
Die young, or live forever?
I'm just trying to refind my heart
It was always there
Just hard to see in the dark...
You weren't even looking
Sleeping like there's no tomorrow
Sleeping like there's no tomorrow


10. YOUR ARSONIST

Addicted to monotonous crush
I even dropped out of school
To catch up on sleep
Take the train for hours
And then try to forget
Where you left your heart
Read the free form poem
To your locked door
Then I swept those fucks
Under the cement floor
If you find them
They were never mine
If you don't, well, nevermind
Porcelain hope...
Why do you always break on me?
(It all makes no sense to me)
Porcelain hope...
Why do you always break on me?
I set the alarm to remind myself
That I spent the day by myself
This is my story, love...
Day one to now...
Background music to a silent film
You see, the curtains falling down...
I helped this city burn to the ground
They said it tried to make amends
But I never heard a sound
Porcelain hope...
You're not much, but you're all I got
Porcelain hope...
You're not much, but you're all I got


11. FAREWELL

Whatever this becomes
Whatever words I say
We are the fortunate ones...
And when the days are done
I won't forget
All I see in you and me
Is a light in the dark of humanity
And when the days are done
I won't forget
Timid steps, come walk with me
And with your useless words
Come talk to me
There are broken hearts
Now on your stereo
But the broken beats are just too slow
You'll cry, it doesn't change a thing
Kill the lights, and let the rain fall
Recall, the memories
Of yesterdays and better ways
And know, the innocence is gone...
Move on, from this day on
We'll never be the same...
The saddest songs
Make sense to me...
So with your sunken eyes
Come look for me
Two hour drives
Are two hours alone
But two hour drives
Are better than home
You'll die, it doesn't change a thing
You will, kill the lights
And let the rain fall, recall
The memories of yesterdays
And better ways
And know, the innocence is gone...
Move on, from this day on
We'll never be the same...
Faster words, and faster kids
Faster songs, and faster ends
The one thing that's stayed the same...
I've lived through days
I've lived through nights
I've had my loves
I've had my fights
You gotta know - you have my heart