1. BEREAVEMENT

My guarded life, sliced with your knife
I can feel my blood so slowly run

Bless me and rape me and rip me apart
Flowing so greatly from long black hearts
Fleeing, bereaving we both can share
(Reaching out for hope and not really care)

Here we are, living scars
Fused by the pain – Separated for the same

(Repeat 2nd verse)

Behold falling pieces of my soul
I am losing all control and I
Cannot find my way

Why don’t I know how to cry
Yet I can tell you these many lies
Of my many past lives
I try to lash out yet I am so afraid

(Repeat 4th verse)

Every hurt is surfacing
A brand new angel with a familiar face
Familiar pain, it’s all the same
And to think I once called out your name

I can feel my loss, when I have done wrong
I am threefold deceived and I am on my knees
And when the night falls
I am afraid to sleep
And when the daylight comes
I am afraid to breathe
I only see with anger and vile pain
I will lay alone in a shallow grave


2. ABSENTINA

I’ve been here before
Sickened by the obscure
Obsessed with pain
Dancing ever so happily in the rain

I blame you left my life in haste

Now I am afraid to face
My life filled with disgrace

I have fallen soon forgotten
I love a life in mu dim hell
Never knowing where I’m going
This place where I fell
I am hollow, no tomorrow
Always waiting, always failing
Always searching, never learning
My yearning soul burning

I am lost in her abyss, writhing in filthiness

I waste away shuttering
Like a frightened child
My emotions crumbling
Please, let me die now
My heartless soul
Is fading to black
Cast out my spirit
Please, send her back

Beyond hurt, insanely absurd

Oh lord, take my life
I cannot stand to cry
Not for another day
Please, make it go away

A new breath of life
I’m more afraid to die
Where will my soul now dwell
An abyss far darker than hell


3. ANAGOGE

A life of hate, I’ve found my hate
My soul will burn deep down inside of me
Reach out, falling down
Redundant, I try to crawl
Away from the pain
It feels the same
I’ve known it since birth
Embracing it like a child
(Repeat)

To live in the unholy night
Find peace in the densest of fog
Black fate lives inside
And I’ll take it for what it’s for

Crying out for empathy
Knowing it shall never be felt for me

Holy rival, my survival
Pure hearts is ripped apart
I can feel myself dying

Perverse acts of sodomy
Upon a throne of iniquity
Angelic race is soon to be gone
Consider yourself forewarned

I am sickened, I have risen
I have fallen
I am chosen, I am frozen
I am the curse of your denial


4. LAST DAWN

I am shaking like an infant abandoned in the cold

Life here is miserable
I am invisible

I am the epitome of my self-pity
I’ve been strangled by my reality
I’ve been aborted throughout my life
I’ve been escorted by the twilight

Scorned from my birthright
Cast out by the daylight

Oh, hail the violence
That burns within
I am the silence
I am pure sin
I will show you hell
The sun will never rise
When the angel fell
I had no tears in my eyes

I abolish daylight
The usurper of hate
I cast a shadow in the night
Far darker than grey
All of your hopes are gone

Come with my child
Cast those eyes
Upon your last dawn

All of your hopes are gone