1. ENCOUNTER WITH HISSELF (INTRO)

He's in a place where life and death are shaking hands
His eyes open wide, but he can't see through them
A veil in his head captures his mind and imprisons him and his thoughts in his subconsciousness.
If he tries to run away from this madness brewing in his mind, he'll only run in the wrong direction.
He has to go through this agony. Something's gonna die. But every little death is manure for new living.


2. AGONY

Now at last I'm alone
Enemies are beaten or gone
In this world I am one
In the end I'm second to none

In vain I try to fight against this pain and distress
I'm fighting to win this agony
I never thought that anguish could destroy me like this
Is it too late to live?

I am tired – I am small
I will not make it at all
I see the light – I'll fade away
I won't see a dawn of a day

In vain I tried to fight against this pain and distress
Fighting to win this agony
I never thought that anguish could destroy me like this
Is it too late to live?


3. THE ADVERSARY

Another night is coming – confusion wakes me up
My blood begins to run and unconsciousness will never stop
What has become of me? I'm feeling abused
Please, take this pain off me! I'm battered and bruised

It'll be there when all life comes to its end
It is immortal! Will I ever see the sunrise again?

It's coming over me
Pulls me into my loss
There won't be clemency
It will let go its lust

(It) Gives everlasting sleep
with its amazing craft
And if I should wake up
My soul will be lost

Will I rise again out of damnation? Am I strong enough?
I feel its anadipsia - it wants to taste my blood to make it true
I will lose this fight, I am not strong enough, but I can't give up
But then I hear the voice of my deepest fears - it's making me numb

“The war begins
Speak your last words
I will suck your power
Till you can't fight no more
Your mind is weak
From all this strain
Your blood will leak
It's your last pain

The war begins
Speak your last words
I will suck your power
Till you can't fight no more
Your mind is weak
From all this strain
Your blood will leak
It's your last pain”

My body's abandoned, but a last will is still alive
A new night's coming and with it another fight

Another night is coming – confusion wakes me up
My blood begins to run and unconsciousness will never stop
What has become of me? I'm feeling abused
Please, take this pain off me! I'm battered and bruised

It's coming over me
Pulls me into my loss
There won't be clemency
It will let go my lust

(It) Gives everlasting sleep
with its amazing craft
And if I should wake up
My soul will be lost


4. THE LONER

Vrs. 1:
All my life I tried to analyse all circumstances
Which were guiding my way

Bridge:
And all the time I suffered that all these signs were changing my life
It's time to do it on my own
I don't wanna be a puppet anymore
I ever hated to be an instrument of joy

Chorus:
I will not be that kindly anymore
I lost my faith so long ago
I will stop to challenge superiority
I'll live my life among the gods

Vrs. 2:
As a child breeding chose (‘bout) my priorities
Like a believer of all speeches
Growing up these different thoughts of mine brought doubt of
Realising secret dreams

Speaker:
You can't handle the truth…

Voice:
Am I finally dead?

Speaker:
Far from it. But right now you have to learn to live.

Bridge:
I will not be a puppet of fate
It's time to do it on my own

Chorus:
I will not be that kindly anymore
I lost my faith so long ago
I will stop to challenge superiority
I'll live my life among the gods

Vrs. 3:
Now I'm older, but in all this time I followed my estimation
I was carrying out my plan
Everything had its border
Nothing happened by chance
Am I a lucky one?

Bridge:
I had never been an instrument of joy
I got my life among the gods

Chorus:
I will not be that kindly anymore
I lost my faith so long ago
I will stop to challenge superiority
I'll live my life among the gods


5. COMA VIGIL

The assuaging whiff of pain lets me revive
I open up my eyes and feel that I've lost the sense of time
Is this the future? Is this real? A conceited state of mind?
Oh, everything is inside-out – is the world still turning ´round?

My mind is passed away but I am more than alive – high sensitised
All my thoughts are inverted – my perception's oversized
My eyes are burning but my skin is pale with fright
Unsteady respiration although the air is too light

Trying to run quickly looking myself in the eyes
Trying to reach the window but it's locked up – closed tight
I am isolated – captured in my subconscious mind
Windows turn to mirrors-, reality to lies

My mind is passed away but I am more than alive – high sensitised
All my thoughts are inverted – my perception's oversized
My eyes are burning but my skin is pale with fright
Unsteady respiration although the air is too light

Trying to run quickly looking myself in the eyes
Trying to reach the window but it's locked up – closed tight
I am isolated – captured in my subconscious mind
Windows turn to mirrors-, reality to lies


6. VICIOUS CIRCLE

Voice:
I don't know where to go anymore. I don't even know if I can move at all. What the hell happened to me?

Speaker:
You have to go to your marrow to find a way out.
Move backwards to see your future

Voice:
I'm scared to see my own mirror-maze. Past is past and now is now. I don't want to go back. I want to live – NOW!

Speaker:
Remember: If you choose the way of ignorance you will never leave this vicious circle. Time will stop and you will be lost in an ocean of questions anguishes. You can't bear this kind of punishment. And all your apologies and confessions will be made too late.


7. AUTHOR OF LIES

Speaker:
Did you make your choice? It's time! Your appreciation of time isn't real anymore. Years were passing by while you're lying here. A second's like a month and an hour is like years. Stop wasting your time before it's too late!

Voice:
I made my choice. But I won't listen to you anymore! I will find a way out – all by myself!

Speaker:
You're a fool!

Voice:
I may be a fool. But I am strong enough to beat this insanity! My way is the choice of my experience. I will survive!

Verse 1:
I wanna fight, ‘cause I'm still alive
Though noises aching me
I'll pay my dues, I will not lose
I will apologise

Break:
If day is night and night is day
What am I and what is real?
If this isn't a bad dream
How shall I live?
Trying to run quickly looking myself in the eyes
Windows turned to mirrors

Chrous:
Reality's a lie but I am the deviser
An author of a perfect life
I got to write the last lines to surrender my repressed mind
And to get off these ties

Verse 2:
I have to learn. No time to mourn
A leap in the dark?
I'm scared to awake – scared of a fake
Could I betray myself?

Chrous:
Reality's a lie but I am the deviser
An author of a perfect life
I got to write the last lines to surrender my repressed mind
And to get off these ties


8. BREATHE

Speaker:
The time has come, my son! Right now you have to choose your direction. Your intention is good, but you are going to die if you don't mean it straight from your heart and your soul. You have to be honest to you and all the friends and enemies you may see in your new life. This is your last chance.
Make your choice!

Chrous:
“Breathe! Blow it out! Allow the shadows to fall!
Breathe! Let it out! Don't loose your way!
Breathe! Blow it out! But be ready for the pain!”

Speaker:
You must regret that you inflicted so much violence upon so much humans!
You have to think about those dreams they had?
Follow your conscience! Don't be an egoistic fool!

Speaker:
Will your mind change at the second you're awaking? Will you kill again?

Voice (singing):
I vowed myself never to go insane again

Speaker:
Will you drown in blood of this sudden death your fantasy will endure? Fight against it!

Voice (singing):
I am surrounded by thoughts of mystic sanctums

Break:
Space-time-continuum is turning round and round like galaxies
I am flying to see all my former lies and ancient memories
I see me dying and suddenly reborn again - once again

Coda:
Wake up – wake up – open your eyes!
Breathe!