1. INSOMNIA

Silent horror of lost mind:
Void is gazing. I gaze back.

Nights tormented by expectation of dawn
Spirit suffocated by obscurity
Hours merging in a vague, distant sound,
Drawn in memories.
Scenarios of failures breed indefinite fears
Hear echoes of guilt

Breathing heavy air feels like drinking spit water,
choked out of a black larynx.
Again, one in, and one out!

Come, grab my throat when I toss in sweat
Stand by, pierce my heart! In death’s serenity,
Dig a grave in own head and bury all that worries
Repeat in despair: I will create a new world for my soul,
I will bear its new sun

A world of primal colours, full of contrasts, without shades
With new pleasures and impressions
With strong feelings, and fresh pain

I want a new dawn!
Daze! Light, and lust, and wind!
Clean, loud sounds!
And change - incessant, eternal!


2. DELUSION

“Move on, do not look, do not pierce the gloom!
Freeze with horror, in nightmare, you poor, orphaned soul.”

Following unknown sinister paths,
Wander through unseen places
Behold unreal wasteland, where
Steps vanish without traces.

...How loudly pulses the blood in veins

Hence the terror that broke in the eyes
With animal fear that has squeezed the throat
In the swamps of longing, in old mold of lies

Stagger on weak legs. An unknown voice cries.
Conscience is drowning in a venomous mist
In the swamps of longing, in old mold of lies

...How loudly pulses the blood in veins

“Sun, is it possible that you won't rise someday?
Sun, is it possible that you would ever forget?”

The brightness of day hurts,
Night makes me remorse
An empty laughter covers dry tears
Ripping flesh without force

In this outright stillness
Words rang as loud as knell
How to believe in paradise
If every dawn wakes Hell