1. FEEL THE PRESSURE

I feel the pressure of a thousand eyes
Staring at me
They want to see me fall
They keep tabs and they don't know how to feel
They don't know me at all

Never took the chance to find out
But it never really mattered anyways
They want to look like a helping hand
But they're just snakes in the grass
And they're never gonna catch up to me

Because I'm not like you
I won't do what you want me to
I don't care what you think of me
You wouldn't say it to me anyways

I feel the pressure of a thousand eyes
Staring at me
They want to see me fall
HA-HA
Yeah right man! You won't see me at all


2. HYPER VIGILANCE

Hyper Vigilance
To this unforgiving world

I'm looking over my shoulder
I try to stay away
I can't let my guard down
I won't be disrespected today

I see fragments of my past
In every broken soul that passes me
Clueless to the fact that I'm the one they should be scared to see

I'm begging for a reason
I want to justify
The evil things I see
When I close my eyes

No stopping
No pity
I want to harvest pain
I want you to feel the consequence
I want you to feel the pain


3. SICK ONE

Hellbound on destruction
With seduction on my mind
I want to scream
I want to crush
I want to set your world on fire

No one's on this tip with me
Nobody understands that I'm having a good time
I feel like a loaded gun
And I'm on a fucking sick one

I'll show you how it feels
You don't want to know


4. ARMY OF ONE

Have you ever put your life on the line?
To follow the dream
To feel alive
No?
Then don't speak

I don't want advice, when you've never sacrificed
Never pushed yourself. Never took your chance.
I'd rather struggle by myself.
I've got too much pride to ask you for help.

Army of One

Don't need your help
Don't need for your to approve
I love that you don't understand
And you'll never comprehend all the things that we do
The reasons why we do it
And the people who we do it to

If you don’t walk the walk, then talk is cheap
I’m too blessed to stress about what you think

You weren’t broke with me
You weren’t naked with me
I had to wait for that sleazy man to give me my fucking money

So I could eat
So I could sleep
To be standing here
To be living free
You’ll never know


5. CHARACTER FRAUD

I can’t keep up
This character fraud
The rumors you’ve heard are wrong

I’m human like you
Imperfect like you
Morally skewed
No better than you

I’m human like you
Imperfect like you
I hold onto pain
I’m fragmented and cruel

I won’t keep up
No facade
The rumors you’ve heard are wrong

No one knows the pain I feel
It lies behind this smile and within my heart
Within my soul

Never wanted
A pedestal
I’ve just stayed true to myself
No ego trip

Someday you’ll know
These true colors show
Someday you’ll know
I want you to know


6. HOLLISTER DAYDREAMER

(Instrumental)


7. WHITE COAT SYNDROME

I see the bright lights
Strange faces
Strange feeling inside my skin
Cold steel
Pressed against me
Cold stare
From this old white man

Feel the walls
Closing in
Now my vision is tunneling
Feel my insides fall to the floor
This white knuckle mentality
Is going to lead me home

“Please sir, take your seat.
Take a deep breath too”
I can’t fucking breathe
With all these people here
Staring at me
They’ve got me pinned down
Latex hand around my mouth

Feel the rage
Rush through my veins

White coat syndrome
My heart beats through my chest

“Don’t worry, this will be over soon”

I can’t move
I can’t scream
I can’t kick them off of me


8. THE PROCESS OF WEEDING OUT

Actions speak louder than words
And I can’t hear you
I’ve got no time for half way fools
So get up out of my way

If you can’t handle my dialect
If you’re too scared to be direct
Go home. Get lost. Get bent.

The Process of Weeding Out

I won’t be lumped in with you
You couldn’t live the life that I do
No one will ever stop me
Or hold me back

I can’t let down
The ones I love
I can’t let the ones I hate
Be right
I’ve got the strength
I’ve got the light


9. BAD FAITH

Crippling freedom
Self-corruption
Forced beliefs
Sickening ecstasy
Bad Faith

What the fuck are you scared of?
Young hearts be free
Why don’t you stop lying to yourself
Find what you love and let it kill you slowly

Condemned to be free
Possibility imprisons me

Born with nothing
Die with it all
Find purpose
Feed your soul
Live in this moment
Stay in control
Die for something
Search alone


10. CALIFORNIA CURSED

“Leaves are brown”
“Sky is grey”
And I’m a thousand miles away

“I’d be safe”
“I’d be warm”
My head changes everyday

I’m not dreaming,
This is real to me
Take me back to Sunken City

Take me back to the sunshine state
Leaving town was a mistake

Always sick of home
Always home sick
Working paycheck to paycheck
Just to pay the rent
My soul is parched
The coast soothes this thirst
I’m a slave to the curse and it’s getting worse

California Cursed

I was born here
I’ll die here
Until that day, this is where I’ll be
This state has swallowed me whole
Suck me down and set me free