1. INDIGENOUS

I've worked so hard
To fill this space in my heart
My days are dark and drawn out
And tear me apart
I guess that it's all worth it in the end
Cause when you pretend
To be something that you're not
It gets worse

So bite my tongue til it bleeds
I'll hopefully drown these lungs I barely need
Well it's all clear to me
I am far too weak

I need to move on
Cause her face still haunts me
And it's been so long
Stuck feeling the weight of your world on my spine
I've been rotting in hell
One day at a time

My life is rock bottom
I've sunken too deep
My only friend is depravity
Teaching me it's better to give in than to regret my sins
I've paid my dues to the fullest extent

I just keep wishing
That these scars will fade away
And become nothing more
Than haunting memories
But still my broken bones
No longer have a home
A place to call my own
I'm still so alone

Vicious thoughts keep pushing their way in
Driving me to the point
To let it all end
Remember my name as you pass me by
So as you are now
So once was I

Vicious thoughts keep pushing their way in
Driving me to the point
To let it all end
Remember my face
Remember my name
So long as you remember
That you're the one to blame

It should've been you
Dragged to the bottom
If you want the truth
I'm disgusted that I ever
Let it get this far
When you never deserved me
From the fucking start

I hope you bleed yourself dry
Until you end up like me
A hollow shell of who I thought you to be
It's getting weak when every single road I've chosen
Has led me to the same end