1. CLOSE TO ME

I'm sick, I'm pale
You are the name I yell
Through the silence of eternity

You are the voice I call
The fear behind the walls
Behind the walls you have built around me

[Chorus]
I bear the sign of desolation
Wanton lust cannot be contained
Nothing's the same with my prostation
(I was so) close to Heaven

With warm caresses instead
The only things that stayed
Were a million of scars on me

I cannot bear no more
The flesh you've loved and torn
You've torn apart and thrown away from me

From your eyes and your ears, I have heard what you take
For my past and my tears, I forgot to forget
In my hands, blood of mine, close to you, washing us
In your arms, where I dwell, forcing back all my lust
I'll be the one to believe in your lies
While between your legs my poison suddenly lies
For my heart and my soul, in your arms where I dwell
Nothing is the same now... how I am blessed


2. LOST MIND

I'm dying...
With all the things she'd done for me
I know she'll be the one I'll yearn to see
To bring what's wrong on my skin, on my tongue
I know she'll sing our song

[Pre-Chorus]
You were the mother, the friend
The one who has tought me your own rules of shame
I am the coward, the prey, the lost mind
And I must face what I am

[Chorus]
I can't be faced, do face me
I can't be drowned, so drown me
I can't be saved, so save me
But come right now, I burn to be
(Come closer)

I'm dying...
She'd been the cause of my dishonour
So when I'm gone I know she'd scream
And anywhere I'll hear her sing
My fate belongs to her

And I needed to hear the words / And I needed to leave my world
And I needed to lick the stain / And I needed to hurt myself
And I curse all the men, all the women, all the gods,
All the things that have destroyed my will to live,
And have turned my heartinto a desert place where they live
Because all the love and the sympathy I gave,
Were only the means for them to lead me to the grave
I needed to live. Oh, how I needed to leave...

To live, to leave...
To live, to leave... and to live

I curse you !!!


3. SEARING ECSTASY

AK-TAR-TES-PE-NI-DO-TEM-PRE

A long time ago, appeared the man in the mirror you see
Drawing the spells to look inside my mind,
He came and told me :
"Vicious, vicious are the things you live
In fake plenitude, easy to achieve
With crippled pleasures, a crippled life
Sick in a sickening state of mind"

[Chorus #1]
I live in chains
This scar remains
Refinding life under sedation
Sickening salvation

In the arms of ecstasy I found myself
But it means I lost belief
Even with love to live in grief
My "I" lives alone in my cell
A treacherous game was consuming me
I've had the vision of what he saw in me
With shallow enjoyments, I prayed demise
Confined in shallow paradise

Suck me, suck me up, suck me down
You got to suck me in now
Take my real person out
My real "I", out of bounds
Reveal to me, the one you see in me
To make me hope, until I choke,
That's what I told, so now, behold

[Chorus #2]
I break the chains
This scar remains
Forsaking life under sedation
Sickening salvation


4. ...OF LOVING DISEASE

Enchained to a past illusion
I can't remember anything about my life
Enslaved by a last contradiction
I forsake all the dreams of strife
Cancerous breath, icy gaze
How things look different in me
I beg you please, my loving disease,
Carry this away...

[Chorus]
And I believe in that,
In the end of endless circles
And this treacherous affection
I have had enough, I have had enough,
I have had enough with this inflection,
This infection, lack of affection,
Building my destruction, exorcising the demon,
This daimon in me

It has strangled me so tight, you can see once more
As the fingers cannot point right at me anymore
The last reverence, to the remembrance,
Of another chance, I have wasted forever more
My loving disease, carry this away
For me to live through this, so I can leave in peace...

I fall and rise, become undone
Only to realize, that you'll never come...

That you'll never come...


5. MY KINGDOM

Life ! Always breathing
Taking the weight of my mistakes
On my back ! Now I'm back
An it has been a hard turning back to life

[Pre-Chorus]
Among the remains
My true life begins

Tired ! I'm tired of them
Minute after minute, hour after hour
I'm building a true world I want for us
Free from that taste of fear that's gone sour

[Pre-Chorus]
You'll slip away
Your slow decay

[Chorus]
They can't ruin the kingdom I've built
They can't ruin the kingdom I've built

Now ! They will pay
The price and heed to the rules I've broken
Truth ! To understand what's kept hidden
Behind the words unspoken

Noone would save the wreck of my wave
The fear has taken me right back to my grave
No fear within me, to fear what I see
I would have had a thing to waste in me

To find / Waves of the mind / Circles of time / Into the dark side
Welcome me again...


6. SO BE IT

Afraid, afraid,
Among the shadows, won't you come ?
To sav me, drink my passion on this altar
Because it comes to me like it never did before
So cold, cold, cold on me
So be it, I'm a sinner
Waiting, waiting for you again
To take my hand and crawl through the mire

[Pre-Chorus]
Will I begin to fall like he said ?
Suffocating alone in my head ?
Am I laying alive in my bed ?
Living lies I deny 'til I'm dead ?

[Chorus]
What have they done to my mind ?
What have they done to my mind ?

Ashamed, ashamed,
In my darkness, won't you come ?
I cannot see the light, won't you lead me anymore ?
As it comes to me like it never did before
Call, call, call me
Through your silence I can hear now
I can hear so loud from this far
And drink my passion on this altar

So be it !!!


7. EMPTINESS BELOW

"Without its spiritual sight, the body is empty"

Anywhere you look, the old habits reappear
Look inside yourself, and you will suffer like noone did
You can't expect to see it, and then survive
When you are lying like him, with no will to rise

[Chorus]
Don't you think he'd cry, right now
don't you think he'd cry, in this dark circle
They call your life
Thrown away, torn apart, in the bottom of your mind
Don't you think he'd cry

You'll reach your end to open the sky
And to accede to the realm of light
And to try to repair the links he cut
For the world to see you shining, but...

Sick of rejection, lack of protection
Don't you want to follow him in the pit
The pit that's your life since he quit, the game of life

Lack of protection, sick of rejection
And all these rips that appear on and on
Only mean that, forever, you have lost him
From now on... forever more...

Widow... it's what you'll be from now on
Widow... you'll cry from now on


8. DREAMLIKE SYMPATHY

Breed fear... breed fear... breed fear !!!

I live my life where there is no pride
I find my answers where the sense has died
I save my prayers for the truth unsaid
And no sympathy where no harm is meant

[Chorus]
I've always been driven to tears
By the ones who were driven by fears
Now their world of emptiness fills me all
But noone's there to catch me when I fall...

The land of tension where the love is fake
There's no coming back for the things they take
Fear and pretention in the words you hide
To show no sympathy to those who have never cried

They tear us down with their sunken smiles,
Their swallowed lies, their bloodlight eyes,
Weak and wicked like me,
Show no sympathy to them,
And if ours brains cannot control them :
Kill'em...

I live my life where there is no pride
Fear and pretention in the words you hide
This cross, a burden for the love escaped
To show no sympathy to those who have never wept


9. SECRET PLACE

(Hiding darker behind shades of shame
Descending down to the source of guilt
Hiding darker behind shades of shame...)

A feeling of frost on the cold streets
Of mourning passion
Hot and wet, at last, these feels are gone
Caressing, endlessly, the souvenirs of your own

[Chorus]
The floods of Chaos run in my veins
I struggle, I struggle, I struggle in vain
The floods of Chaos run in my veins
I striuggle in vain

An old and cold man
Staring back at me... at me !
An old and cold hand
Caressing, endlessly, the approach of the end

Sinking into the oblivions of time
At last breath
To the secret place so down
Where I hope never to be found

noone by you will ever find
An answer to the questions of mine
A blind and corrupting eye
Staring back at me, as I judge myself
On the way down... down...

As the rain comes down / By the light of dawn
The descending down / To the secret place I found


10. FALLEN BLOODLIGHT

I cannot live without your taste / You, second part of me
Face all the faces that I can't face / To see what you will be
Lay yourself down to rest / Erase your fallacy
(Inside of me... inside of me...)

[Chorus #1]
Sit down, beside me
Yourself so wet can save me

Sit down for your soul's relief / Where hope lies dying
And lay up trouble for yourself / Listen to what I'm breeding
Can't you hear my brightness whispering
(I hold on... I hold on...)

[Chorus #2]
Lay down, onto me
Yourself so wet can save me

"Le destin de l'Homme n'est pas de devenir Dieu comme Dieu,
Est devenu Homme, lumière écarlate, ensorcelante de souffrance
Et de mépris ! Réponds-moi ! Je t'en supplie... réponds-moi ! Réponds-moi !!!"
Fallen bloodlight... falling from the bloodlight

I'll punish the heretic ones / For their weakness, they'll pay the price
I'll come to ravish the light / Pure and brave like the Christ

The Christ The Christ
The Christ The Christ

Come and touch me ! With your clear snow-white pain
Come and hurt me ! Cast your spell again
Come and curse me ! Innocence slips again (away...away)

[Chorus #3]
Melt down, within me / Yourself so wet won't save me
Face all the faces that I can't face / To see what you will be

"Without its carnal sight, the soul is dead"


11. WASTE OF TIME

Where is your sun ?
Nocturnal light has blinded me
I've been lost in my mind
Tell me it's not a waste of time

[Pre-Chorus]
And I can feel, I can hear
There's something breathing here in the river

[Chorus]
There is a stranger inside my own
There is a stranger inside my own

Where is your sun ?
I'm sitting here in the corner
Your heartbeat I can hear
Is leading me overthere
I feel the strain, I feel the flame
Serene demise... demise
I've been lost and wounded
Oh ! So many times, in my own mind

[Pre-Chorus]
And I can feel, I can hear
There's something dying here in the river

There is a light, there is a shelter in your hand
My sorry plight will end, so touch me again,
Touch me again,
Touch me again...

Psychotic pain
Starving my brain
Won't you dive with me again
And fill this waste of time with pain...


12. LAST REMEMBRANCE

Alone... it's all the same somehow
But don't do it now
Please NO, don't let them take me now
Sick... it's all that I am
So, face my frown
Now, it's time, candles are all around

[Pre-Chorus]
God bless you all
God bless you all

Eternal... the beating of your heart
Sighing for me
Infernal... the bleeding of my heart, despairingly
Take me, to feel one more time,
Your whispers and your breath
Hold me, to feel one more time
Your whisking hips and breast

[Chorus]
I was breathing the air of a deadly sin
Now the remembrances of life are shredding my skin
Living my last remembrance in a coffin
Living alive, like the dead I'm becoming

I pray... to see you one more time in a holy place
Where... I will find a way to express the regrets I confess
Why... did you fill my bowels with your emptiness ?
Why... can't I ask now that I'm gone for forgiveness ?

(Nothing is the same, now !!!)

I know that I will die alone...


Did you think you had the right
To open my wounds with a sunken smile ?
Because all the caresses that we shared on my skin
Are now all the scars that make me pay for my skin
Oh ! How I hoped you'd be easy to refind
Because in my solitude your presence still shines
Like an erotic vision in the sweat of the night
But when I awoke, all I had was a delusion a light
Did you have the right
To let me touch you ?
Destroying all that I was
In the name of Love...