1. GANG OF ONE

This elixir’s deadly poison to me now.
Just one sip could send me crashing judgement bound.
You have tasted more than you can be allowed.
Spilling from your lips and smashing to the ground.

Strap yourself inside my black metallic hearse.
I’m your chauffeur kicking up great walls of dirt.
You must witness these events can’t be reversed.
In the grip of fear you never felt so alert.

Liberation has begun.
Self-sufficient
Gang of One

All the world is aching to self medicate.
Sickened by the sight of lives and work they hate.
Eyes pinned open so I never miss a beat.
Soon my transformation will become complete.

In my gang of one thy will be undone.

Though I know I can live without release,
I still want it.
I still need it.
Overcome by harsh reality,
I can’t take more clarity.
Though at first I stumbled now I’ve gathered speed.
I know myself for the first time.
Though I know I can live without release,
I still want it
I still crave it.
Overcome by harsh reality,
I know myself for the first time.


2. TEST CONFESSIONAL

Never one to shy away from making sure you get your say,
When did you stop trusting me ?
Lying uncontrollably.
Lying to convince yourself you don’t need to ask for help.
Jumping to your own defence.
Covering up the evidence.
Standing firm in your denial
Resolute and volatile.
Obviously terrified
Tearing yourself up inside
But we were born with such desire
Nothing ever satisfies
I just have to know the truth
I don’t want to punish you.

Step up to the test confessional.
It bends to your needs.
Flexible hex.
You made the rules.
Unspeakable deeds
Sprung from your lips
Vanish at speed.

Death before you’d ever share
The burden that you choose to bear.
If you had the trust you lack
We’d rip that monster from your back
But we were born with such desire
Nothing ever satisfies
I just have to know the truth
I don’t want to punish you

Step up to the test confessional
It bends to your needs.


3. EXISTENTIAL BABY

I can’t stand the question written on your face
I don’t have the answer but I feel your pain.
You could have everything, have it all your way.
How much loss does it take to make you pray ?

Existential baby- you kill me.
Sensorial, don’t think, just feel.

I could build a fortress around your heart,
But you’d look for hair cracks; pull it all apart.
You would destroy it before the work was done
Cos you search for pitfalls where there were none.

This is a voice from beyond the grave.
Look to the light and you will be saved.
Cast out your ghosts from tortures past,
Tricking you out of every chance.
This is a voice from beyond the grave.
Look to the light and you will be saved.
Please hear these words I have to say:
Let your chains fall away.

Existential baby- you kill me.
Sensorial, don’t think, just feel.
I’m Promethea, your sweet avenger.
Face your fears, embrace, surrender.


4. THE KISS AND THEN THE KICK

And so I stop to reminisce,
How did it come to this ?

Call the mourners, pallbearers too.
It makes no sense, how you behaved,
Your character is split.
All the ideals you contradict,
The kiss and then the kick.

The fall from grace,
The aftertaste
when it rears its ugly face.
You pushed too hard to see me break
And just to find out how much I could take.
With this ring and with this frown
I weigh thee down.
I wave and let you drown.
You let me down,
My hands were bound
But you let your hounds drag me to the ground.

Is evil really who you are or something that you do?
Well maybe I am fragile too, as insecure as you?
And if I ask too much of you, well what’s a girl to do
With such a heart that needs to pour until there is no more ?

My hands were bound
But you let your hounds drag me to the ground.
With this ring and with this frown
I weigh thee down.
I wave and let you drown.
You let me down,
And how I hate the aftertaste,
The fall from grace when it rears its ugly face.
You pushed too hard to see me break
And just to find out how much I could take.

Those evil things you do
Show me the worst in you.
The side you can’t suppress,
Suspicious and obsessed.
I kneel in my red dress
Oh lord I must confess
I am not virgin flesh.
Can I still take you test ?

So if you’ve finished
I’ll say my piece.
Don’t preach to the deceased.
I was defenceless, I have no shame.
I know I’m not to blame.
Had your tricks hidden up you sleeves.
You couldn’t let me leave.
We couldn’t steer to common ground,
The questions wore me down.


5. HAPPY HALLOWE’EN

Tied in knots of blood stained ribbon,
It’s the saddest gift I’ve given.
Don’t ever look inside.
I can’t promise what you’ll find.

Happy Hallowe’en.
On your life swear
You won’t scream.

By your urge do not be driven.
For inside this box are hidden
Horrors best kept concealed.
Blood will flow when they’re revealed.

Happy Hallowe’en.
On your life swear
You won’t scream.

Happy Hallowe’en.
Are you ready ?
Watch with me,
while the freaks and perverts come clean.
Kill your image.
Kill with me.
Kill your image.

Never take presents from strangers or enemies.
Cos they come with defects and pretexts.
Now you owe me.
Cos I know what you want.
And I know what you need.
And I’ll give it to you
So you owe me.
Now you owe me.


6. VORVOLAKA

All the abuse I’ve seen has crept into my dreams.
Petrol on broken wings, sheets torn for making slings.

Is this my heritage, I can’t begin to live.
With these dark memories holding me back for years.

A demon seed lives in me.
Vorvolaka.
Exorcise what’s driving me
Vorvolaka.

In every thought and habit,
Til now I barely controlled it.
Seeping from every pore,
Always demanding more.

I can feel the ashes falling down like autumn leaves.
Tunnelling towards the shafts of light above me.
She would have me rest in shadows deep.

Wolves come run with me all through the forest branches.
Scratch and tears your skin but we are all in trances.
Vorvolaka, vorvolaka, she flickers and she dances,
See how she pulls your puppet strings but I must take my chances.


7. PIGSY

I might try but I can never let you go.
You’re like a tear suspended in my soul.
Don’t say this is the greatest love you’ve ever known
Unless you’ll be here when we both are bones.
Show me how you won’t fail me now.
Show me how. Don’t fail me now.

How brutal passion feels,
Demanding me to follow.
A sacrificial meal
It’s so good, so hard to swallow.
All faults must be revealed,
Facades that leave us hollow.
Feelings reach such extremes,
Such ecstasy, such sorrow.

Is my devotion deep enough for you ?
Indifference is a sword that runs me through.
If you could find a way to calm my pain
I’d never need another soul again.
Show me how you won’t fail me now.

Nobody knows you like I do.
Nobody knows what I go through.
Nobody knows you like I do.

From ecstasy to sorrow.


8. SOMETHING TO SAY

One set of rules and another for me.
Sick of control and authority,
But that’s exactly what you’re doing to me.

You got something to say ?
I’m not listening.

You gotta speak to me before you die,
To make me listen not to say goodbye.
I knew what you would say before you spoke,
The most boring and the oldest joke.

You got something to say ?
I’m not listening.

Wish I could climb inside your brain,
Pull out the wires that make you insane.
Where is the boy that I once knew?
Or was he ever really you ?
Wish I could strip away your pain,
Dig out the cancer in your brain.
Where is the world that you once knew ?
Why did it choose to punish you?

I still think you’re hiding somewhere deep inside.

You got something to say ?
I’m not listening.


9. THROW YOU AWAY

Child of convention,
Have you been let down ?
Been dragging your cross all over this town.
Your crucifixion has been so drawn out,
But you accept it by drowning out the doubt.

They’ll throw you away.
Pick the meat from the car wreck,
Leave the dregs to their fate.
They’ll throw you away.
A dispensable reject,
Kings and queens of F. A.

Your young apprentice has worn through your shoes.
Don’t shoot the lame horse for bearing bad news.
Have you lost patience though you were her muse?
Did you teach her too well how to take the worlds abuse ?

They’ll throw you away.
Pick the meat from the car wreck.
Leave the dregs to their fate.
They’ll throw you away.
A dispensable reject.
Kings and queens of F. A.

They don’t see the worth in you that I do.

They’ll throw you away.


10. SWAM BENEATH ME

I sailed across seven vast seas,
But you swam beneath me….
Swam beneath…. me.


11. NOT EVERYBODY GETS A HAPPY ENDING.

The voice on the tape tells us to listen.
We cannot live on hope alone.
Promises solace through repetition.
We cannot live on hope alone.

Not everybody gets a happy ending.
Not everybody leaves with a smile.

Have I not become who I thought I would ?
We cannot live on hope alone.
This world is teeming with ‘I wish I coulds’
We cannot live on hope alone.

Not everybody gets a happy ending.
Not everybody leaves with a smile.
We cannot live on hope alone.
Not everybody gets a happy ending
And not everybody gets to leave with a smile.
Not everybody gets the girl at the end of the movie.
Not everybody takes rejection with that certain style.
Not everybody knows how to learn the hard way
And not everybody wants to see what lies at the end of an extra mile.

Not everybody gets the Riviera when the gutter’s so much nearer.
Not everybody gets the belt but we’re all entered in the fight...