1. PROGRESSIONINE

Chance is seeking a place to hide
I must not accept its bribe
I have squandered so much anyway
Time to set the clock ahead

Casually dying for change
Scraping for feeling, feeling my age
Putting the light back where it belongs
Change from green to red

(Why must I ?)

Because I feel nothing I should feel something
My blood is pumping expecting something
'Cos I feel nothing absence of searching
My heart is jumping prelude the feeling

Longing for
Seeking out
Crawling through
This old doubt
Sitting up
Watching fast
Standing to
Run at last

Take up the burden child
Find yourself in hidden dreams
Move ahead with speed and light
See if it's as it seems

Forcing up (am I)
All of me (really)
Straight ahead (living)
I can be (breathing)
Now I feel something


2. SWALLOW

Forgiveness, a request, a touch, far beyond innocence
In a moment, detest, caressed, comforting songs to sing
Unaware of a stare, an approach, moved too close
And stood helpless and watched it spread its wings

Creature of the air, torn between flight and pleasure
Dragging out the effort, murdering the time
Confined to the sky, to a cage, love can't be measured
In due time, a true crime

Betrayal stains, darker than blood
While salvation finds its next victim
Once again, the swallow flies
To purify the unmendable system

(Choke...on it)

Even the swallow tires
Longing shelter to let its wings rest
Sensation, migration, onward to a fresh destination
Desiring a new place to nest

Flying, but not free, trapped in her own misery of the sky
Catching the wind, reaching the sun, but not free
Eyes open wide, cannot see, touch the ground once more before you die
Reaching out but it will never fly back to me

(It will never fly back to me)

Sweet songs drowned by violent screams
Escape denied because of severely broken wings
Ignore the lesson, another deception, an easy lie
This spring the swallow will not sing, it will never fly...again

Open your wings wide
Take me in, accept it
Come to me, swallow
Swallow...and choke on it


3. MOURNING

(It doesn't matter anymore)

Force fed and forced out
Blood red and dry-mouthed
Hate filled and death cold
Love killed and soul...sold

Fucked up on your lies
Can't think, why even try ?
Don't bother me anymore
Life numb and bones...sore

(I am nothing)
Treat me with disregard
The humanity spills from me so very fast
Just keep on kicking me
This chance to shit on me might be your last

Tripped up and pulled down
Care lost and escape found
Passed up and left behind
Lost my heart and my...mind

White light, white light...nowhere to be seen
Did I cross the threshold...what did this all mean ?

Break it leave it lose it love it
Try it hate it kill it fuck it

Fuck it

Scraped up, unidentified
No one pays attention anymore
When will I ever be satisfied ?
When will life stop being a chore ?


4. GONE

G-O-N-E

They took you away from me
Thrown away, they were wrong
And you never hurt me
When daddy was gone
Lay here with this fucking nightlight
Without you, I might as well be dead
The absence of you destroys me
And I'm afraid of what's under this bed

I never outgrew you, and all I have is this song
Rejected, but they never knew you, and I've been dead since you've been gone
True love is short-lived, so many times sewed your eyes back on
And patched you up to lay by me, but I can't sleep since you've been gone

Security was your gift to me
And I could tell you anything
Because you'd never hurt me, you were innocent
And I could never be betrayed
My building blocks spelled out your name
So carefully stitched, we could hideaway...from all this pain

But they threw you away

I was only loved once

But it helps me forget when I cut myself

That I lost you
Makes me wanna kill them
Fuck this life
Soon I'll be...G-O-N-E

Gone


5. LINE

At the edge of shape I perch
To keep it within bounds
Container of the form
When pencil is put down
I connect A to B
I am thick, I am fine
I am all points in between
I am line, I am line

3 is triangle, 4 is square
End meet beginning, circle appear

I am the thin one you now walk
At the end of me you will soon be
I am the one you dare not cross
Lest you want to be put into me

Reeling you in every time
With every verse, every line
Hook and sinker need not apply
I am line

You can't seem to read between us
Yet on the front of us you fight
And perhaps you think we're simple
But we're the ones that got you into bed last night

Line after line...time after time
You fall for line after line after line after line after line after line after line after line

Winding around the block
Waiting for government cash
Forming quickly on the mirror
The kind you suck up fast
Around your eyes and on your face
From a long and stressful life
I am the one you must find
I am the main, I'll end your fucking life
I AM LINE


6. 1/2

Fail us, wound...and remind me of fall
Trade the sky for ground, suck face
Hang head and slide down a wall
Worn thin enough to replace

Pacifier with her in my mouth
The same old smile brought me back into you
So close I and let you be, leave
You always have this to crawl back into

Commit meant everything
You eyes told me
So break frame, burn photograph
Sweet lies hold me

God, are you there ?
Whole to half, two to one
What have you done with her ?
Your eyes told me

(girl)

Pacifier with her in my mouth
Same old smile brought me back into you
Close eyes and let you be, leave
You always have this to crawl back...

You always have this to crawl back torn in two

God, are you there ?
Whole to half, two to one
What have you done with her ?
Your eyes told me

(girl)


7. ERR APPARENT

Seeing is believing and believing is unreal
Senses are still reeling from the shock that I feel
'Cos everything is so fucked and so wrong
I just can't continue to play along
You see in this mentality that we are harboring
Ignorance is the 'in' thing
But I just can't accept this disrespect of intellect
Because it has such deadly side effects

We just close our eyes
To shut out the lies
We try to fantasize
While we sleep through the world demise

Impossible to perceive
Dysfunctional society
Yet reality still penetrates
And so does all this fucking hate

I'm not a fake healer
Or a pain dealer
I'm not an enemy in disguise

I'm just a reject
A social defect
A little hoarse now from these desperate cries

I don't claim to know anything
Except what I am sold
And I am only beginning
To question what I'm told
As should you

Something is wrong
Everything is wrong

What is this ?
Nonsense...bullshit


8. POINT OF VIEW

Try not to speak or let it show
They'll try to see how much you know
You can't deny, once you decide
That there's no place here left to hide

All that you know, just let it go
They teach you fast, while they move slow
They make the form, so you can see
But it's all just the same to me

I hear the knock outside my door
Seeps through the cracks, into the floor
What could it be ? Who could they be ?
It seems as though they've come for me

But I'm not safe 'cos I'm inside
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
And through the hole, I see them there
They're not just here, they're everywhere

You'll follow soon, where I go now
Thought that you might believe somehow
But you can't see my point of view
You'll see one day, they'll come for you

I hear the knock outside my door
Seeps through the cracks, into the floor
What could it be ? Who could they be ?
It seems as though they've come for me

(Someday)


9. THEORHETORIC

Words and words and brilliant lies
The magician's voice has mesmerized
Swaying to that hypnotic drum
Under the spell, under the thumb
Of theorhetoric

(Can't you hear the rhetoric ?)

Just read the script and play along
Just say the words and sing the song
Just close your eyes and make-believe
And soon enough you will believe
The theorhetoric

(You're caught in the thick of it)

So easy to take a bite from the fruit of certainty
So simple to buy into a guaranteed seat at eternity

(So easy...so simple)

I just don't know...give me some answers
I just don't know

Energy manifest
The source we seek sets in the west
Knowledge, the shining light
When the devil fell he gave us sight
Alien intercession
Planting their seed, it's not entirely out of the question
And of course there is The Lord
Who has always prompted us to take up the sword...

And kill the disbelievers
And burn the would-be deceivers
And shun everyone who has just begun to realize
The answers are lies...lies

Figure eight minus eight...plus it out for yourself

It's all or nothing...so who's bluffing?
It's some or none or perhaps just one
It's hard to tell who knows the truth
My best guess is that none of them do
None of them do

Jesus Christ...why ?
Jesus Christ...why was I ever born ?


10. WALTZ

Moonlight shines down on the riverside
Casting shadows overhead on familiar trees
Driven back to the place I cannot forget
I've come to call you back to me
Midnight air surrounds me
Forcing me to see the memory of you
Wandering back to the night my life was destroyed
The night I lost you

Waiting for you, here by the riverside
Waiting for you, to dance with me again

Waiting for you, here by the riverside
I see you emerge from the murky depths below
Just as beautiful as the night I lost you here
So many years ago

Waiting for you, here by the riverside
Waiting for you, to dance with me again


11. LOSING

(Instrumental)


12. BY CYCLE

(giving in)

Sewing circle draws my skin tight
Flowing wind in my hair
Everyone around loves to ride
But they're not going anywhere

Set your course, hope for solid ground
Straight ahead, the only way
Travel with the wind, my friend
But that's what they all say

So many clones never knowing (how)
They don't notice where they're going (now)
So many lies never showing (now)
They always stop you from growing

Trying to become against the wind
Cycle after cycle, seems like I am giving in

Life in a cycle, round and round
The spinning never ends
Sit back and watch it repeat
Again and again and again and again...