1. CROSSROADS

Lost in the labyrinth of live
It’s pushing, It’s pushing
It’s pushing me down, where am I?!
What is this place? It brings memories
of the pain recived
How did I get here - someone please remind me
I found myself with crossroads ahead!


Forsaken, abused
Shadow consumed by solitude
Damnations curse, paracide
Paralized by the pain inside I cried
Had enough, time to choose
False or true it’s up to you
Constant fight – last or die
SUICIDE EXISTENCE DENIED

Rambling, wondering, breathing this caustic air

Possessed by despair
Broken and scared
Completely unprepared
Please, oh please end this nightmare!

Forsaken, abused
Shadow consumed by solitude
Damnations curse, paracide
Paralized by the pain inside I cried
Had enough, time to choose
False or true it’s up to you
Constant fight – last or die
SUICIDE EXISTENCE DENIED

Rambling, wondering, breathing this caustic air

Possessed by despair
Broken and scared
Completely unprepared
Please, oh please end this nightmare!

Which road is my destiny
Should I pick my way blindly
Path of sorrow through the swamps of loss
Or crawl with worms in the mud
End it now or take a chance
Run or ask my faith for a dance
Should I go back, turn left or right
Or where I stand, turn into a statue of
DESPISE!?


2. AN EMANATION OF GRIEF

So this is the way...
Numb pain bursting through my veins
Grey days obscure, joyless and blurred
Endless circle of failure

Hollow shape
Fallen leaf
An emanation of grief

I crucified my dreams
Lost myself in these empty streets
As a spectre I dwell in solitude
Among the tombs of people I thought I knew

Hollow shape
Fallen leaf
An emanation of grief

Hopeless
Joyless
Misfit
Violated
Afflicted, bleeding piece of meat
Not perceived as a human being

Soulless
Lifeless
Broken
Desecrated
Ghosting each day, sorrow and pain
This world is a grave, oblivion’s my fate

Choking on life, drunken with lies
Empty eyes long dead inside
Miserable struggle, shattered beliefs
Isolated like I had some sort of a disease!

Ice cold blade, marks on the skin
Wound upon wound, cigarette burns
Worthless scum, pitiful worm
Crossing the point of no return!


3. EMERGENCY EXIT

Ethereal phantom
Possessed by pain
So long I’ve been a living dead
Sleepless nights
Allergic to light
This craving’s tearing me apart

Don’t be afraid
Just take my hand
Descent to the land of lost innocence
I did my time
Lost the game
Human waste driven insane

No way out
There is no cure
Only known treatment is to wipe the blur
Hollow, shallow
Lifeless corpse
Looking back at the life that’s lost


4. 2 MILLION SOULS

Drowning in the sea of modern society
Surrounded by thousands of yellow glimmers
Like a rock swollen by dead cold depths
And the concrete, glass giants tower above
Motionless guardians watching me with scorn

Drone of the day
Choking on dust, gasping for air
Shoulder to shoulder pushing upstream
Again lost, like a single grain roaming in the void
With the concrete, glass giants towering above
Silent watchers of the pestilent soil

Black subway tunnels with no light at the end
Shadow filled wagons of mask-wearing slaves
Silent funeral procession, faceless masquerade
Obscure ghosts walking the path of sorrow and pain

2 million souls
Dwelling in an urban corpse
2 million souls
Empty walls draining all dreams and hopes