1. THE NAIL IN OUR COFFIN (FT. DANA WILLAX OF KINGDOM OF GIANTS)

You should be ashamed of the trash you let between your legs
You are a snake in the grass who won't hesitate to stab me in the back
Don't mean to be too brash
I'll speak my peace, then you can get back
to fucking anything that shows the smallest shred of interest
Every word that leaves your tongue is another lie to break my trust
Keep my name from your thoughts and keep that mouth shut

When the hell did you get so damn caught up in the act of tearing out my heart?
Of all the people I've come across in my life, you are the bottom of the barrel

[Dana Willax:]
I know I've said this once, but I guess I'll have to be more clear
I'll say it over again and I'll be sure to speak up
Fuck you and your negativity and you can
take back all the things you ever said to me

I tried to fix your old ways,
but you still managed to fuck it all up
And I held you in the highest regard, but now we learn to sleep alone

The thought of it makes my stomach turn
envisioning him sliding off your shirt
and when he climbs on top
do you see my face and wish that it would stop?
Remember this face
This is the last time you'll see it
Now learn to live inside the hell you embrace
No longer blissful and ignorant
My eyes are open wide
I see right through your lies
It's the nail in our coffin
It's the burning of bridges
It's the immeasurable hell
Couldn't keep your hands to yourself


2. A CANCER UNCONTAINED

Once invincible, your head help up so high,
who knew this disease would change it all in the blink of an eye
Try to survive father of mine,
who knew this world would have given you such a cruel twist of fate

Your hands won't stop, your hands won't stop shaking

God wasn't so fair to you or me
Gave you a beating heart, then gave you atrophy
A body built to degenerate and you keep breathing all the same

Father, it kills me to see you so helpless when all you ever wanted was a way out
and you were only given nothing but a wife who packs and leaves,
and a crippling disease that eats away at your body but not your soul

That heart's still got a beat so don't you dare give up on me now
Try to survive father of mine,
you know it breaks my heart to watch those tremors take over

Infection spreads so quick with no cure in sight
A cancer uncontained but you still fight
It can't rip away everything about the man I knew,
the one who picked me up after all I've been through

I understand why you're terrified to close your eyes each night
It's the fear of never waking up, you have so much more to see,
so I'll do all I can to keep that fucking heart beating
Father, I know your hands won't stop shaking
but those lungs still breathe so don't give up on me


3. DEAD TO THE WORLD: ALIVE IN MY EYES

My love, you lie still in a coma and I'm to blame
I just want your eyes to open for me

How quickly we're at each other's throats
Completely meaningless with nowhere to go
The more I try to prove what's right
The more we seem to scream and fight
When you sped off in your car
I could feel a pulsing in my heart
Scared to death that I may never see you again
You couldn't see that oncoming car
and when you both collided
it drained the light from your eyes

But I can't give up on what we have
Even though we may never wake up from this nightmare
If I could rewind time, I'd keep you safe
And try to stop you from driving off that night

Too proud to admit when I'm wrong
Too afraid to let you know I am crippled without you here
It's eating away at me
I can't sleep
I can't eat til you're awake and resting right beside me
I swear I'd stop you

Hooked up to machines,
dependent for every breath you take
I'll be there when your eyes open
I'm just begging you to wake up
Dead to the world: alive in my eyes


4. THE EARTH WILL TURN

As the months move on, we hardly speak
Your hair turns to grey and that heart's growing tired and weak
I shoveled the dirt and made a grave for you to sleep in
Because you're dead to me so take your last breath

From the second I awoke to the earth, I was destined to grow without you and suffer
Selfish, reckless and a fiend, you chose that bastard over your family
How can we hope to pick up all the pieces when you're destroying the ground we stand on?
Those drugs that you crave burned holes in your brain and paved the path for the life you hate

God damn you for leaving when we needed you
Hell bent on saving only yourself but that crippling defeat
and the cancer you breathe, it finally caught up to you
Now it's plain to see I don't need you in the same old way
I don't need you to be here at all

A thousand miles away from home but you wouldn't even fucking know
Mother, tell me where you've been, I refuse to hear anymore of this deafening silence
Consider this bridge burned and I'll consider you gone forever
You don't have the backbone to face the one's you left for your dead
This is the last time we'll speak so listen closely

I tried to save you but you slipped away
I was once your son, now you have no part in what I've become
Stranger, you threw it all away for that lesser man
Now you must sleep in the bed you've made
No forgiveness for the things you say or the choices that took you away
No fighting for a second chance, the earth will turn and you'll be dead


5. THE DARKNESS WON'T DIVIDE

Instrumental


6. ORIGIN

This is the death of my origin
No rest for the sick and weary, just a rope growing tighter around my neck
For twenty-five years, I've tried so hard but now it feels like twenty-five too long
Just for a moment, I wish that I could breathe without the weight of the world crushing down on me

Better off dead, no burden to my friends
No more days of wishing I won't have to wake up the next

Does it matter if I am dead or alive?
The future seems so dark but I'm trying to keep my head above the water

I am so sick and fed up with the burden of my consciousness
The voices in my head, I only hear them say that I'll be dead before the dawn
Wave goodbye to your sanity and just remember you'll never truly be at peace
No one knows how it feels to hate the one that lies in your own skin

I'm trying to keep my head above the water but the tide keeps rising and rising
So safe, so small with the rope tight around my neck
One last goodbye to remind you that although I'm sick,
I love you still and I hope you won't forget me when I'm gone
The proper way to die was not a choice for me to make
I held on as long as I could but I lost my grip
The anxiety that plagued me is but a bitter memory
I'll reap what I have sown and take that step to bring me peace
God help me if you exist, this is not a world I'm meant to live in


7. THE BURNING OF BRIDGES

Nothing said could defend how awful I've been
I'm not a man who's worth your trust
I'm a cheat giving into lust
Say it out loud, of all the faces in the crowd
Why'd you have to mess around?
You've done your damage
Now's the time to back out

I'm a fool to believe that we could stay the same
That you could see past the darkest parts of me
When I've brought on our suffering
My words trembling when I speak
I'm scared to death of how much you will resent me, but I can't blame you now

I'm a fool to believe that we could stay the same
That you could see past the darkest parts of me
When I've brought on our suffering
Can't you see we won't make it through the storm that I've started?
It's better if you save your breath and leave me here now

Now watch our world burn
I hate myself for what I've done
I awake in the morning and know
I'm so far in the dark that I'll never see the dawn.

It's the nail in our coffin
It's the burning of bridges
Its the immeasurable hell
Couldn't keep my hands to myself


8. SPOTLESS MIND

I want the procedure done right away
Erase her from my thoughts, eradicate each memory
I used to believe that you would save me but as I'm drifting off to sleep,
I know that you'll be gone by morning

We laid out on the ice and I'm just exactly where I want to be, I've never felt that
Your impulse to throw me out has caused both our minds to drown in a sea of dying memories

We trace our footsteps back and put our time here to rest
but I can't remember anything without you, so when I wake, there will be nothing left

How could I have suppressed the memory of the day we first met?
Please let me keep this one
I want to call it off, can somebody wake me up?
I don't want this anymore

We laid out on the ice and I'm just exactly where I want to be, I've never felt that

We trace our footsteps back and put our time here to rest
but I can't remember anything without you, so when I wake, there will be nothing left
I'm holding on to your love but they won't stop 'til it's dead
You and I both know soon it will be over, so we cherish all that we have left

Clementine, I tried to rip you from my mind
Each prayer accepted, each wish resigned
(How happy is the blameless vestal's lot
The world forgetting by the world forgot
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
Each prayer accepted, each wish resigned)

We trace our footsteps back and put our time here to rest
but I can't remember anything without you, so when I wake, there will be nothing left
I'm holding on to your love but they won't stop 'til it's dead
You and I both know soon it will be over, so we cherish all that we have left

I'll find you when I wake and we'll try again
I'll meet you in Montauk my dear old friend


9. THE WORLD WAS QUIET

It's been a long time coming, the consequence of why my pride got the best of me,
now it's been 2 years and we still don't speak

When we first met, I knew even then that you were different
I felt the earth stand still any time you were here
But the cheating, the lying, the act of denying it doesn't always end up here
Here with nothing and you're so far from me

I held that burden on top of my shoulders
With every day, not a single word and all I said seemed to fall on deaf ears
If our bodies are still so cold, then why do you beg and plead for me to never let go?

We sleep on a bed of broken glass
A place to rest but it still cuts through your skin
Tell me where we stand when you're standing beside him
Goodbye again for the last time

I used to see that flicker of light off in the distance but it always burns out
Do your eyes see that flicker of light? Because all I see is pitch black
You and I, we sleep on a bed of broken glass
Every photograph to depict how perfect your life is
That should be me in those captured fragments of your memory

Our love was a sinking ship bound to fail from the day we met
You accept the love that you think you deserve so you'll be miserable with him
and I'll still be waiting here
We watched that city burn bright, the sky filled with embers and your hand in mine
How I wish you would suddenly appear
The world was so quiet when you were here


10. LUCID DREAMER

God won't speak to me, made my plea's but he's not listening
I lie sleepless in bed reflecting on every lie I've been fed
What a world to be chained and bound to,
I feel sorry for each saved soul who truly thinks they've found you

We kill off the weak and stay on course towards hell
It's not some place you go after life, it's to keep you in line before you die
This world's not a vessel for what you think lies ahead
It's more like a prison, God must be dead


11. A GOD WITHOUT A FACE

God won't speak to me, I'm not sure he was ever listening
All those years asking for help but I was simply talking to myself
Not worthy of your grace, I'm done seeking out a god who won't show his face

Hell awaits all those who won't follow blindly
Lead astray, abandoned, no promise of salvation
Every person put to death in the name of your god,
Is it actually worth all of the blood spilled?

Where was god when my heart was split into separate pieces?
He's too busy to pay me any of his attention
He must be dead to stay quiet when I needed guidance for so long
I will carry your cross no longer

This has to end when I know you don't exist here
No words, no signs to instill in me what is right
I ripped these pages up and mourned the death of god
Nothing to contemplate, your savior's not awake

I don't want heaven or hell when my life ends
You call it unconditional love, I call it nothing but unwavering deceit
I'm terrified to admit this but I swear that I'm finished with you
I've lost my faith, not lost my way
You parted the red sea, but you couldn't show yourself to me
Will we burn in hell or will we simply rot in the ground here


12. NEVER SEE THE SUN RISE

Not meant to be a father on this day
I'm not a bad man, yet cruel fate has ripped my daughter away
Not much for praying but I'm on my knees pleading for answers to this senseless passing
Why would someone think the best time to die is before they have the chance to open their eyes?
Don't say another word to comfort me, I'm not okay and I don't need blind faith

The more I'm trying to let go, the more that it's killing me
Why am I burying my child when I'm wishing it was me in that grave
I should not be burdened with this pain, it's not fair to us, I'm giving up
Oh I died inside when I knew she'll never see the sun rise

My daughter will never see the sun rise
Taken away before she had the chance to open her eyes
This is not god working in mysterious ways,
This is the work of a coward who's either dead or won't show his face

I let that cold wave cover me
What's the point in gasping for air when I don't even want to breathe?
Time will not heal these wounds, I'll grow old and she'll still be fast asleep
What am I supposed to do now?
How am I expected to understand when I'm still reaching for those little hands to let me know
That this is just a bad dream and she'll be there when I wake up

She'll never see the sun rise, no she won't
I know that you're at peace but I won't look for you in the clouds
I'll keep you in my heart 'til the sun burns out