1. EVERYTIME

Woke up this night, sun didn't shine
I don't know wether I breathe or not
No tear I cried
Was I falling?
My feet didn't hit the ground
Every breath I took brought pain

Everytime I hurt myself
You hurt me too
All the time i hate myself
You hate me too
I pretend to sleep
I start to cry
Who am I?
What have you become?
I don't know you anymore

Sometimes my wounds just bleed
Sometimes they go deeper than
Blood and flesh and bones
This morning I broke the mirror
Just to kill the one I hate

Every breath I take
Every second I pretend
I feel like wasting air
When I was closing up my mind
I did scream just to hear a voice
Calling out my name
Killed myself
Sorry for the bed is ruined
Sorry that you'll have to clean up

Tonight I did spread my wings
I flew so high, I did touch the sky
I've seen the moon out of cheese
For a moment I dreamed again my childish dreams
My bones broke as I did fall down again


2. SHAME

Do you call me a liar?
Because I pretend loving you
Or do you hate me because you love me?
I know it was never easy
To wake up next to me
I think it is not easy
To love somebody like me

Call me a fool
I once thought we could get on forever
Call me a liar
I told you the truth about what I am
Call me insane
I once did belive in this world
Tell me I hurt, I bleed of shame

Still I feel the touch of your hand
I try to keep in my mind
When I dream I scream your name
I can't wish away
The picture burned into my dreams
And your face god, your face
I will never forget

I won't scream your name anymore
I am not your fool


3. LONDON

I lay beside you
I listen to your breath
Why do you take my hand again?
My sweet black princess
You hurt again my feelings
While you are giving me your drunken love
Telling me you will feel the same tomorrow

Again I loose myself inside your eyes
Did I ever tell you how beautiful they are?
Please talk to me
Tell me the same as you said tonight

Don't you see I suffer just because of you
I did hold you in my arms while you were crying
Is it therefore, tell me is it therefore?
I've been always on your side
Now you watch me dying

Don't talk to me
I need to be alone
My heart beats in anger, bleeds in anger
Blocking off my veins
I already lost the feeling in my arms

Squeeze my veins
And drink my blood
Watch my eyes
As they turn inside


4. MY GOD MY FOE

Pull me deeper into black water
Push me far into desperation
Kill everything, I ever believed in
I don't fear you, I just love you
Come swimming with the tide
Deep into my misery

Freedom of choice to choose my words
Freedom to end, sweet blade in the night
I don't belive you, you never called back
My god my foe, I wait for answers

The sky turns purple
In front of my swollen eyes
I beg you

Please be my black undertaker
Your appearance makes me lonely
Burn the fire to wash my soul
All this senseless wasted live
Blood on my hands rest in piece my innocence
Close my eyes. Never open them again.

The clouds stood above me
And my veins stared to open again
The pouring rain of my blood mixed up with my tears
My son hear your father's last words
They cried out your name