1. FOCUS SHIFT

I think I just forgot
To pick up the shells
From my recent discharge
And you took the blame
Explanations falter
To ears fallen deaf
Wherever I go I get lost

A reference to something
That both of us knew
Nothing that favors the few
In the darkness electric we see
That silence has spoken tonight

I think I have lost my language
Whatever I've said I deny
I think I have lost my way
Whatever was missing is gone
I let my focus shift

Your face is a map
I fail to discover
Drowned the sounds
Lost in the order
It's the look that stayed my words
The unblinking knowledge
Interlocked and holding
No stalemate to break
Take hold of the flame that unites
In the silence that speaks to me now

I think I have lost my language
Whatever I've said I deny
I think I have lost my way
Whatever was missing is gone
I let my focus shift

I struggle to find the words
That negate my meaning
I fail to comprehend
What message is given

I decline the steady hand
That leads to rejection
Tempted by the closure
With no sense of pride
Drown the fury and swallow the fire
Drown the fury, swallow the fire

I think I have lost my language
Whatever I've said I deny
I think I have lost my way
Whatever was missing is gone
I let my focus shift


2. TERMINUS (WHERE DEATH IS MOST ALIVE)

This is a ghost town
Alive with the echoes of failures fled
Lit up by shining faces,
That parade these streets
What used to be
Of humility is gone
You walk the mounds
Of skull and bones
Where living is denied
I see more movement in decomposition
Than in those hollow eyes

It is the only place I know
Where death is most alive
It is when truth is turned to lie
That death is most alive

Set flame to the ensnarers
And pierce that ornate shield
Branded by what claims you
You wear the mark of death
Tear from loss and agony
A character defined
Stripped of all but tragedy
What life is left to find
Go now, until there's nothing left
Go now, the dying has begun

It is the only place I know
Where death is most alive
It is when truth is turned to lie
That death is most alive

So I flee from all that is me
To hide behind this pale dead face
Whatever happened to desire, want and need
Whatever happened to integrity
Imagination is a curse in all of this
Whatever happened to the ones left behind

This is a ghost town
Bodies dragged through endless streets
Go now, to never return
I've seen more pitiful humiliation
Than you could never hide

It is the only place I know
Where death is most alive
It is when truth is turned to lie
That death is most alive


3. THE LESSER FAITH

Dreamt up a new word today
In my ignorance I gave it meaning
Who was I to know
To say it is to know it
To hear it is to believe, is to believe

I dreamt the world would end
I was not wrong
To doubt, to discredit
The words I've heard before
From inside a shell pretending

It's all you've shown your faith
And what you've always known
So lay your trust in the unthinkable
It's time to justify your lesser faith

It's all your faith has shown
And all you'll ever know
Why do you matter, you're insignificant
How can you justify your lesser faith?

To know it is to fear it
To fear it is to say no, is to say no
To the blazing highs and lows
I know I'll fail
To break, to cast it down
You take your lead
From a staff that must be broken in two

It's all your faith has shown
And all you'll ever know
Why do you matter, you're insignificant
How can you justify your lesser faith?


4. MISERY'S CROWN

All has now been broken
On streets I dare not walk
Freedom is an illusion
I build my fences high
If there was something out there
I've learned not to expect
There's a hundred million reasons
Not to care

Don't bring it
Don't bring it
Don't bring your misery down on me

Don't bring it
Don't bring it
Don't bring your misery down on me
Wear misery's crown

As always in these matters
You broke the deal of deals
And wasted what was given
To revel in your mess
I gave up all for nothing
I tried my best and failed
There's a thousand million reasons
Never to share again

This is how it all begins
This is how it all begins

Don't bring it
Don't bring it
Don't bring your misery down on me

Don't bring it
Don't bring it
Don't bring your misery down on me
Wear misery's crown

This is how it all begins

Come now
Come now
Come now

Don't bring it
Don't bring it
Don't bring your misery down on me

Don't bring it
Don't bring it
Don't bring your misery down on me
Wear misery's crown


5. THE NEW BUILD

A human force stronger than logic
Beyond the focus and the grander ideas
One microcosmos in this wretched piece of hell
Distant memories of what empathy we felt
No revolution in what they must overthrow
In on a secret we all know
The need that is our enemy

I don't even want to see you
Doing all the same things as me
Don't ever let this be you
Knowing what it is that drives me

It's all in the future
Said with one foot in the grave
All in the plan of what we never could achieve
No satisfaction
We excuse ourselves from progress by post-altering our Motives
Stories set to match whatever beat that drives the impulse

Whatever tune that carries through
What's in a soul that rattles empty
In this one reality, too few

Our reach is never wider than the depth of what we grasp
A vicious curse on all that we partake in/side the conflict
Where no one is the wiser
A space invaded
A face evaded
My space invaded
Selfish dosn't begin to cover the sense
In this utopia of one to escape the argument
To put another filter on


6. LOST TO APATHY

The unsaid tone of weak despair
Fail to resonate
Frayed ends of our binding
Threads will disintegrate

By laws our physiques state
Failure to communicate
None too sentient hear no,
See no works its magic against all function
Ongoing choices the trials will end
Filter the nonsense and laugh at what's left
Indecision / nonvision
What matters taken away

Look at the shell that is you
Empty, fragile, weak
Soon the battle is over
Lost to apathy

So overcome with pointless tears
To test pain receptors
Nothing matters ever here
Put up a nonreaction
These eyes will never see
Covered up from reality

The unknown world that you deny
No priority
Cannot fail if you never start
How predictable
I want to know where did it end
For madness to start
Always the skeptic and never be part
Introvertive/nondescriptive
It matters not
Not


7. MY NEGATION

It's all this reeking ego
Craves the sun to never set
Why do threads of anger never linger,
Why does the ember turn to stone?

To where the longing goes in
With the sins of old
A face of nothing,
To never see as blind
As free
Everything I want is in the end of this
Everything I need will be the end of me

My negation
Will you know my name?
And sense the danger coming
My negation
Can you see my face?
What's to become of me?

The art of reduction
Stripped down through what seems defendable
Scaled to bare revisions to stop making sense
Levelling pillars of towering fear
Rational instincts and insight to spare
End of falseness
End of grace
Everything I fear is in this failing
Nothing of what I am is in this end


8. FINAL RESISTANCE

Disaffected, left to internal struggle
Let ring with the cries of disaccord
They told of outposts firm as trees
Whispers laid no basis for
The plunge to the chasm depths
Seen none, nor felt the safety
Perimeter alarm

I see the bearings of disaster

What can you tell me of the inside
Is it as bright as all can see?

To make a chemical stand
A final front to the days ahead
In attempt to tame their mineral estrangement
Smothered by the numeral that
Haunts each waking day

Request for countertmeasures
To state claim of this my cavern
None to take and none be given
As the window breaks to black
A process left to solitude
Is the action left undone
Answers left to echo
In the silent halls of none

Cast down the hopes and aspirations
Shut the windows tight
Everybody said No
Reset your fears and good intentions
Barred up for life
Everybody said No

This is the final resistance


9. MONOCHROMATIC STAINS

There is this face in the still water
I can't remember ever wearing
Like fingerprints on your heart
Reading out the last lines of code
To the untrained eye a secret
I bled away the last of you

Sought trust in shapes of combined results
That trickles from a less than solid case
Fought off attacks of resurfaced lust
Burn the gracing grounds

What will give in first
The body or the lash
Monochromatic stains
Who will cave in first
The leader or the fake
Monochromatic stains

This pile of ashes of a soul
Informant pokes abound
These sickly little fingers
Get away from me

Tread not the path of least restraint
Each piece of evidence a lie, a lie
The body, the face all items in place
I don't remember a thing

A sacrifice made to the loss of mind
Folly a man's demise

Track now the stains that allow my fall
Sickening, the sight of it all
Never shall I claim my innocence
I just was not there


10. HOURS PASSED IN EXILE

What if:

A) some things are destined to failure
B) some things are never meant to be
C) someone never sees
D) someone never opens
E) somehow we are different

Though I never claimed to be right
Give to me the benefit of doubt

I brought you fires
That you put out
I brought you fires
For I cannot be without
I came with sadness
But this my shattered heart can't bear

What of the times in exile
What of the hours passed
What if touches seem too trivial

You can never tell me I'm wrong
A song I've heard so long

So what if healing takes forever
So what if time is meant for others
So what is left is but a shatter
And what is broken can't be whole


11. THE TREASON WALL

Let me tell you about the loss of all
The failing of all that we hold dear
Wrapped up nicely in ourselves

Chaos resolves
That which order defiles
Worthless lives
Are ordered blind

I don't believe
Taste and you will see
That all belongs to me
I don't believe
I won't believe

I raise my hand against it all
For those who don't recognize the call
Will the sense to overcome these nestled walls
Going to break it down

Let me nail you to the treason wall
Stab the night and the day from your sight
And set the thought to flame

Feeble devout
Nothing resides
Break it to pieces
That obstinate mind

I raise my fist to hold the line
Against those who set themselves on high
Going to break it down


12. THE WONDERS AT YOUR FEET

Deeper shades of red descending
Smear our names, the stains unending
Turn forgiveness,
Break the lens distorted
Crush the infidel and turn about
Famine in our hearts, bring up the silence louder
Eradicate the lungs and take us higher

These are the wonders at your feet

Weighed upon a wider scale
Afraid to see what takes us down
Sing destruction, sing of unfullfillment
Search abandoned, let the blood be fevered
Ridden of the self provided things get easier
Ignite our minds and let's burn brighter

These are the wonders at your feet


13. NOT BUILT TO LAST

What came as no surprise
To a jaded mind no less
Insight comes to soothing grace
Left to waiting days
...Another chord unstrummed

Our secret's safe and sound
Solid now unless it breaks in two
Faithfully unbound
None of this was ever built to last

In the paleness of a less than life
From a corner watching old paint dry
Never once a break
Into the self again
An endeavour that will flat our fail
What maturity comes to end
Never one to face
...Another beat undone

Our secret's safe and sound
Solid now unless it breaks in two
Faithfully unbound
None of this was ever built to last

Once again
Another instant saved today
Left a print that leads nowhere
Never built to last
What makes it work
A part of life that makes the weak hearts grow
Take it in if you?re willing to say
Willing to do
Prepared to lay it down
Just know this
It was never built to last


14. INDIFFERENT SUNS

And although it can be argued
Whether time will ever come to end
There is an overcoming sense of failing
If you never can see the end
In the giving of our hope eternal
We stumble blindly and forget the way
Is there ever time for answers
When the world comes tumbling down

All along we keep staring at the sun
Closing our minds
Saying we're the ones
All along we keep staring at the sun
Blind to see it when the day will come

And even if in days of wonders
A glance that may stray from the fold
Cast aside in the spirit of ignorance
A mere nuisance when it's time to pay
Come undone now the strive and the passion
Giving under to the forces that be
Can you even think of questions
When the world comes tumbling down
We shut our eyes and turn away

All along we keep staring at the sun
Closing our minds
Saying we're the ones
All along we keep staring at the sun
Blind to see it when the day will come


15. HAVEN

Now as the lights go down
Deeper now it seems than long before
There are no noises here
Just a silence gone bad
Something I will never hide
This urging need to

Invite the darkside in
Into my haven

If there were words for this
Would I sing or should I scream?
I'd give my blood to stay
My blood just to stay right here
Something can never share
This urging need to

Invite the darkside in
Into my haven


16. THE SUN FIRED BLANKS

Upon our evening when the sun fired blanks
There rode the sickness out of our sight
Carried torches burned out long before it's time
Among these ruins where our love to be found

Ambition falters when no better is to be known
Cling to the unfounded pride

Death to our belonging
And our ministy of two
Set the higher standard
And to a greater fall descend

Slaves to one another
And to others be it not
Soothing be temptation
Force the conscience to a halt

Caused a high vibration
A tender light to be part of you
The two-way escape


17. THEREIN

Gentle storm / thundering silence
Inferior force / uncontrolled calm
Vital unlife / logic/chaos/logic

The tone of which his birth ascend
The beat that of a heart descend
Repeating in the infinite
An insight made it clear
Order stormed the surface
Where chaos set the norm
Had there always been balance?
...Surely not
Therein lies the beauty

It was solid
Yet everchanging
It was different
Yet the same
So I starve myself for energy

The song around his soul will bend
The notes that in this hole will melt
Crawl out of science
A dreamland if you dear
Disorder clawed the boundaries

We're ordered to stand clear
Was it always different
...Never the same?
Therein lies the beauty

As there were no witnesses
There was nothing to be told
As nothing could be grasped
The story could unfold
Superimposed on the elemtens of anger
/ fear / anxiety / hate / despair / remorse

So break from all that fear hold fast
Exposed now turn to all you lack
Let echoes be the answers
Return from all the screams
Wordless now the last attack
So silent it hurts to listen
Was it always solid
...To never change?
Therein lies the beauty


18. UNDO CONTROL

There were words of lust
In these arms of the stranger
And there in silence though were words of no milder
So in thinking of that madness
That ravage the thoughts
In the loneliest of hours

I resist without control

The demand I get from excellence
The void I felt from answering
Not only an addition
It generated need
In these endless nights of freezing
My weight on the other side

I resist without control
Feel the thorns of uncontrol

Claws that set in sleeps December
Let loose on the verge
Talked to me as strangers once did
The tone was set for winter

Sweet uncontrol
Beyond proportion
Into the night
So strike me deeper

I resist without control
Feel the thorns of uncontrol

The death that craved no life
Now ended
In return
Drifting uncontrolably
Within the night