1. INTO DESPAIR

I never said I could walk on water
Stuck in my head; wish the path made sense
I never said I could make you better
What did you expect from me?

Under the weight I'm thrown into despair
No solace, no peace
I sit alone and stare

No one ever says what they really want, all we do is guess if they show us anything past the surface
Plagued, we don't get any rest. We are forced to play the game and never question it

Follow progress, but nothing ever works
Maybe we can never change, all we do is hurt
Can we put a price on what we left?
Can we ever change the ignorant?

Can we ever change the ignorant?
I didn't come here to just be a slave
Problems embedded in greed
(Lives wasted)
There's too much at stake now to let yourself
Be distracted
We hate, we waste, we spend
Trapped inside your head
Disdain we can't defend
No honor here

I never said I could walk on water
Stuck in my head; wish the path made sense
I never said I could make you better
What did you expect from me?

Under the weight I'm thrown into despair
No solace, no peace
I sit alone and stare

I sit alone and stare...

I fear this ringing in my head
My call to lose control of my actions and attack
It's not too far in the past
The shame I feel is nothing compared to the scars upon my skin in the wake of all my sin

I sat back and I let the devil in me
I sat back and I let it in

I never said I could walk on water
Stuck in my head; wish the path made sense
I never said I could make you better
What did you expect from me?

Under the weight I'm thrown into despair
No solace, no peace
I sit alone and stare

No solace, no peace


2. MY DISGUISE

There is nothing like the unfamiliar air it brings me back to when this all made sense
Bitter, depressed, staring back at death
I'm pushing myself to the edge over what happens next
The pain, the cost, destruction of the thought to take account for everything that I've lost
The change, we sought, compelling us to rot
I never said I'm the only one

Fight till there's nothing left
You have much more to give
You owe it to yourself
You owe it to yourself
There's nothing wrong with asking for help

In my head I rewind
Falling away from my disguise
Am I dead or lost in time?
I'm trying to read through the feelings that lead me to the light
We say we feel alright, while we starve to feel alive
In my head I rewind, falling away, away away from my disguise

There's nothing there to hold me back
I'm not defined by the things I lack
I often think of the nights I stared into your eyes
And you would tell me what it's like to want to die
I have the heart to forgive
But how could I forget the way you shut me out when I chose to let you in?

Fight till there's nothing left
You have much more to give
You owe it to yourself
You owe it to yourself
There is nothing wrong with asking for help

In my head I rewind
Falling away from my disguise
Am I dead or lost in time?
I'm trying to read through the feelings that lead me to the light
We say we feel alright, while we starve to feel alive
In my head I rewind, falling away, away away from my disguise

Though we struggle, I trust that this war is not the end
My curse is not my crutch
I often think of the nights I stared into your eyes
And you would tell me what it's like to want to die
But now I know how you felt when you recalled those days you almost left this place; I finally feel your pain
The pain, the cost, destruction of the thought to take account for everything that I've lost
The change. We sought, compelling us to rot
I never said I'm the only one

We say we feel alright while we starve to feel alive
In my head I rewind, falling away, away away from my disguise


3. FEEL THE SAME

I feel myself return to what I know
Not for my health but for a bid to keep control
You bleed on the page
An honest search for any other way to feel empty

Fear dwells as I fell for nothing
My sorrow swallows everything
I know that I was blind to the truth
My sorrow swallows everything

Walk too close, dissolve the way, I'm gone and I'm not coming back
You don't get to decide my fate for me or tell me what I lack

We fall, we fail, we hate!
We bend, we burn, we break!
But I still feel the same!
But I still feel the same!

I can't escape, fate starts to choke
I see your face and think of everything I went through on my own
Broken, abstain from what I know
I see your face and think of everything I went through on my own

Fear dwells as I fell for nothing
My sorrow swallows everything
I know that I was blind to the truth
My sorrow swallows everything

We fall, we fail, we hate!
We bend, we burn, we break!
But I still feel the same!
But I still feel the same!


4. THE ROPE

Sink slowly down
Replay the thoughts in your head
They're poisoning me from within
In my own personal hell
I can't save myself

Is this the calling of an empty voice or just another lie I believe
It's a little bit more than something I can explain, that feeling, that thought of failure in me
Do you ever look back and think on every choice while I'm dying silently
Do you think that everything is meant to be, no take backs, no mistakes, just the design of things

All these paths to take and you still can't decide your fate

Indifferent, I guess, I'll just bear the mark on my chest
When I'm thrown away, I'll have somewhere new to be
I'm broken at best, I'll still bear the mark on my chest
When I'm thrown away, I'll have somewhere new to be

Born and raised, tied to an early grave
Disloyal to the end, I'm just the martyr you made
Memorizing our descent
I see the way it changes, I see the way the lie extends

Why won't you answer me
I'm screaming at the walls until something talks back to me
Is it too much to see
The way I deal with the pain, the way I bleed

All these paths to take and you still can't decide your fate

Indifferent, I guess, I'll just bear the mark on my chest
When I'm thrown away, I'll have somewhere new to be
I'm broken at best, I'll still bear the mark on my chest
When I'm thrown away, I'll have somewhere new to be

When I'm thrown away, I'll have somewhere new to be

I let you take control, I let you be my home
I always thought we'd be fucking indestructible

I'd bury this, I'd seal away the darkest part of me
I'd push it deep inside of me before it consumes everything

I turn and walk away
Cause I can't look you in the face
Without reaching for the rope
If it were wrapped around my neck
You'd just sit back and watch me choke

You'd just sit back and watch me choke!


5. FOREVER MARKED

Cast into the flame
Dark horizons bridge the gap between Life and Loss
Through the windowpane
We behold the death of the gods

Pray for forgiveness, we have put the needs of the few on top again
Preying endlessly on the abyss of pride we've lost

We were the disadvantaged, yet we saw the signs
(Of demise)
The truth still denied
Buried deep behind the lies
As we try to hide; our tragedy disguised
As we all stand petrified, we die alone; betrayed in time

We're lost
Falling apart again
In dust
Is this the way it ends?

Their backs are turned; their eyes avert
Washed away with all but a whisper
The lies we share, the blood we spread

As the knife burned deeper in my sunken skin, I think "how innocent we used to be"
I only hope when they destroy our lives that they look us in the eyes

We're lost
Falling apart again
In dust
Is this the way it ends?

Their backs are turned; their eyes avert
Washed away with all but a whisper
The lies we share, the blood we spread
Ushering us to the end

Our fate is sealed; our time has come
The vultures circle over us
Forever marked
How could you turn your backs as it all falls apart?

Forever marked!

With the knife to the neck of change, we stood there staring
A lie
All but a whisper; a back step toward progress

We're lost
Falling apart again
In dust
Is this the way it ends?

Their backs are turned; their eyes avert
Washed away with all but a whisper
The lies we share, the blood we spread
Ushering us to the end

Cast into the flame
Dark horizons bridge the gap between Life and Loss
Through the windowpane
We behold the death of the gods

We're lost
Falling apart again
In dust
Is this the way it ends?

We're lost
Falling apart again
In dust
Is this the way it ends?