1. THE VOID REMAINS

Have I lost myself?
Have I forgotten who I am?
Four years later, I'm still a broken man
Part the sea that separates you from me
Limb by limb, rip me apart
Open up my chest, give me a change of heart
God, I've forgotten how to feel
God, change my life with passion
With passion, with passion, with passion
I've built a kingdom of none with sand and stone, the hands work and wither
I pray; let your will be done
I will rise above the ashes just let your will be done
I will rise above the ashes just let your will be done within me
Breathe in me
Lord, shape me and mold me with passion
With passion, with passion, with passion, ah!


2. HOUSE OF LIES

How can I become a man, a man of God when in my mind I'm a man of a million lovers?
All my secrets kept deep beneath the covers
My eyes twitch and twist
Oh, what a mess my portrait has become
What will I become?
What will I become?
My desire for love is tainted
How am I the picture you painted?
My canvas is nothing
My colors are disgusting

It's haunting me
I'm so terrified that I won't break free
It follows me, follows me
These earthly addictions are consuming me

Corruption corrodes my true reflections
What kind of gentleman possesses these intentions, to hide these filthy afflictions?
Will I ever look at a woman in pure thought again?
Or will I fulfill these slutty fantasies in my head?
Am I imprisoned in this never ending sin?
Free me from my lust; restore my innocence
Sex sells, I was born into a world of sin
Sex sells, predestined to let these voices in

It's haunting me
I'm so terrified that I won't break free
It follows me, follows me
These earthly addictions are consuming me

(Wo-oh-oh)
It's following me to the point of breaking
(Wo-oh-oh)
My rotting soul is yours for the taking

She was my home
The house of lust kept me warm at night, but
You pry open my eyes
The house of lust was a house of lies
She was my home
The house of lust kept me warm at night, but
You pry open my eyes
The house of lust was a house of lies

I lost myself walking to a home that was burnt down years ago
Don't let me wither away
Don't let me wither away

It's haunting me
I'm so terrified that I won't break free
It follows me, follows me
These earthly addictions are consuming me

(Wo-oh-oh)
It's following me to the point of breaking
(Wo-oh-oh)
My rotting soul is yours for the taking

What will I become?
(What will I become?)
What will I become?
(What will I become?)
What will I become?
(What will I become?)
What will I become?
(What will I become?)


3. BROTHERS BLOOD

Dear brother, it kills me to keep this inside
It kills me
It kills me to separate from you
Don't always assume the worst of me
If love is an extension of my own selfishness, then I viewed you like a personal golden crown
They say family comes first, yet, I've left you to the fields to perish
Perish

(I know I can't save you)
I can't do this any more
We are an endless war

Dear brother, I can't save you
Can't change your mind after all we've been through
All I ever wanted was to save your soul
Dear brother, what have we come to?
Forgive me now I just have to tell you
This love comes from the most sincere of places

Was it from mother's disconnection or the family's divorce?
I have no answers, do you think they feel remorse?
Something's gotta give
Something's gotta change your mind
God, save my brothers soul
Show me a way to make him whole
Don't leave him behind; this brother of mine
Don't leave him behind; this brother of mine

(I know I can't save you)
I can't do this any more
We are an endless war

Dear brother, I can't save you
Can't change your mind after all we've been through
All I ever wanted was to save your soul
Dear brother, what have we come to?
Forgive me now, I just have to tell you:
This love comes from the most sincere of places

Brother, how could there be a God who watches his children burn?
I tried to believe but my eyes can't see the one you follow so damn blindly
Forgive my wayward actions; these words come from concern
From dust we came and dust we return
I know there's more to life—won't you take a look around
Will we burn in hell or simply rot in the ground?
We are both one in the same, despite our belief
My soul is safer without these false beliefs
Time heals all wounds
Time heals all wounds
We are bound by blood

Brother, I'll carry your cross for you until my bones break
You said yourself, "It's never too late to change"


4. GLACIERS

This love is nothing but a nightmare. I can only feel the cold. There's nothing left here. You left me alone to die without remorse or even saying goodbye. You didn't even say goodbye. Why would God put me or anyone in this freezing cold with no one left to hold? When you left me, mother drank her life away. How could you expect me to live my life this way? Just take me back. Take me back to a time when I felt the warmth of your hand in mine. Just take me back. How do you think I felt when you walked out that door? You left me alone in this barren wasteland I call home. Show me the love that I'm unworthy of. Please show me. I am unworthy. This is me in my own mind. Life goes on but I keep falling behind. Please send me home. Don't let me die alone. The sun was so bright when you held me close. Frozen in time. Consumed by ice. Can any words bring you back into my life? A fire ignites within me. It's made me realize how cold my life must be. And even though you left me hopeless and broken, just know that I still forgive you.


5. CHARLATAN

Kick me when I'm down. Cast me out when I am lost. This isn't who you said you were. You said you were my teacher; my leader. I still believe in the words that you preach. You speak the word from a pulpit, yet point a finger like I am a culprit. Instead of pulling me up, you put me down. You always put me down. This isn't who you said you were. I won't be fooled any longer. Men like you give Christ a bad name. Only in it for the fame. I won't be naive. You are the reason many people don't believe. You chose to deceive. I won't be naive. We share the same beliefs but you should practice what you preach. You're pride runs as deep as the plank in your own eye. This isn't who you said you were. I won't be fooled any longer. Stand tall when others weep before your feet. "But don't forget to pay your offering before you leave." If God is for me, then you'll never stand against me! I'll pave my own road, build a house on stone, plant a seed in the ground where I buried your crown.


6. SEROTONIN

(Instrumental)


7. CLOUDED MIND

Fear consumes me. Tired eyes and sweaty palms. The clamor fills the room but apprehension fills my mind. Anxiety strikes. It defines me. It rewinds me. It reminds me. Anxiety strikes. Tunnel vision. I panic. Save me from this place. Save me. "What the hell is wrong with me?" Save me. All these thoughts won't let me breathe. This is the antidote to everything I know. When my nerves are failing me and my pulse starts to slow. This is the key that keeps my emotions from me. I take a pill each day to keep my demons away. Oh, it strikes again. Fight or flight, I can't make up my own mind. So tell me where is God in this? I need a substance to sooth my soul. Lord, have you neglected me? I can't keep my thoughts under control. Save me before it's all too late. Rain on me. Let your grace rain down on me. Hold me close before I let go. I have never felt this low. Let your grace rain down on me. Let you alone be enough for me. I'm praying for a place where You take my pain away. I can't think clearly. Lord, did you hear me because my head is in the clouds? All I see is darkness but You are the light. My anxiety won't define me. I will become who I'm meant to be. I cast these burdens upon you Lord. You will sustain me. I will not be shaken.


8. THE MOURNING YOU CHANGED

Life was so perfect when we were in the garden. We flourished. We grew together. Like a rib taken from Adam, you were my Eve. You taught me how to believe. You were so beautiful to me. You were my best friend, the one who I could confide in. Your laugh, your smile, made everything worthwhile. Everything that I've ever known is crumbling beneath my feet. You broke these promises you swore you'd keep. I tried to make you remember me but you've already picked from another tree. Dressed in disguise but now I see straight through you're lies. Serpent! Queen of deceit. You manipulated my mind and hid your infidelity. You took my innocence from me. Our love wasn't enough and lust overcame. No remorse, no apologies, and no shame. Every morning I wake up wishing this was a just a dream. Our garden withered and the weeds didn't rest. There's a piece of you missing from my chest. Not only a rib but a piece of me deep down. Oh Bone of my bone lost in the garden never to be found. Although we said "Forever," you couldn't follow through. God will heal these wounds and I'll move on without you.


9. HEALING HANDS

Sincerely, from a sinful broken hearted man. Will I ever discover a gift to escape these burdens? I am surrounded by this consuming sickness. I am surrounded. I am consumed. Watching you suffer, I'm forever in a waiting room. I know this cancer lies deep within your veins, but they always told me that God will take away your pain. In a hospital bed, why hasn't He healed you yet? I can see your hope slipping day by day as your whole life withers away. It ruins me. This ruins me. Just hold on my friend. I wish I could end your sorrow. You'll see tomorrow. Hooked up to wires. Chronic disease. I hear your cries, "Someone save me please!" Hour by hour, vital signs. I hear the doctors say, "You don't have much time." Just hold on my friend. I wish I could end your sorrow. You'll see tomorrow. Just hold on tonight. You'll make it through this fight. Although the flesh may never mend, prepare the body for the soul to ascend. I pray You mend their soul. Fate is in Your hands. I know my heart and where my faith stands, so I'm calling You out. Bring forth Your healing hands. This is the end-stage. Resurrect the body. Turn the page. Restore the flesh. In Jesus name, this cancer is dead. I'm calling you out, vermin of sickness. You are no more.


10. DARK ROOTS

I just need a moment to myself. I've been writing open letters in a life of writer's block. Make me see. Make me feel. A cage or a coma, the pen and ink is therapy. I counted every single sign You revealed to me. His presence is near but it's myself I fear. It's myself I fear. Page after page, line after line, I'm running out of things to say. I'm running out of time. My hands keep on writing but nothing makes any sense. These words on paper, they've all been said before. Speak through me. I'll trust You like a torch. Now watch me burn. As patience and the pendulum fought through the night, my frustration buries me. The words keep on coming but everything seems to blend. I've tried so hard to write about being real, that I think I've forgotten how to feel. Prisoner. Prisoner. Captive by words I can't write. Prisoner. Prisoner. Shepard me with Your light. If I'm being honest, it's hard to be honest with You. I'll be transparent, but it's so hard to follow through. If I write down my darkest desires, If I reveal the things my mind conspires, Would You still love me? I'll open up like a worn out old book. I'll open up with feelings I overlook. Would You still love me?


11. I WILL BECOME

This is the end of the road
The sins I carried have left me cold
The world has left me completely alone
So I've built this house on stone
I have everything
I contain every earthly release
Yet, why can't my soul find an ounce of peace?
It was all never enough, never enough to make me whole
Free my soul
Free my soul
Make me whole
I was a broken man, with a bottle in hand
Four years later, you don't even walk or stand
Who is this man?
Dependent on pills and cheap thrills
Who is this man?
Who is this man I have become?
Every time, I take advantage of your everlasting grace
I stumble again, then I spit in your face
Most of the time, I long for comfort in my own mind
Most of the time, I tend to regret the things I hide inside

Take me
Change me
I will become a man of God
I will become a man of God
This is how I was meant to live
I'll give you everything left to give
This is all I have left to give, so I'll give you everything, god

You gave me purpose and now with your spirit, I will stand
And now I know, and now I know
Oh, before you, oh, I was nothing but a broken man and now I know
Now I know
Through all the love that's cast me aside
You were always with me, you were always standing by my side
(Oh) Jesus, awake my soul; I will become, will become whole
Lord (Oh), awake my soul; I will become
Whole!