1. GHOST

I don't know if I'm losing my grip
Or if I know too much
Numbing fingers feeling for a surface
Maybe I'm just losing my touch
Laugh it off when I'm searching for help
Nothing so priceless
Should feel this worthless
Nothing I do feels any less pointless

I never stopped to help
But I did begin to resent you
You never taught me anything about myself
But when you gave up trying
You taught me how to cope
With losing my whole life
I know you were scared-
Imagine the fear in a child having to watch
as its mother loses everything
I could do nothing as mother cried her eyes out
I could not use death as an excuse

Goodbye to the ghost of shallow company
Goodbye to the ghost that taught me how to quit
I wish you were here to see how happy I am
I miss you
Now I breathe these words in solitude
These words that I wish that I didn't know
I miss you
I miss you