1. EVERYTHING IN A.M. LIMBO

(Instrumental)


2. FEEL AGAIN

I see the sun go down on the river
I feel the wind blow out of state (to gray)
Feel the air around you its kinda closing in
Do you feel it fall? Or do you feel at all?
I can...

I see the world keep moving as I stumble
They seem to move much faster than me
And while I sit in my four cornered room
Dividing hearts for a little girl
When I can't be anything but who I am

I wish you'd stay
That was the beginning of the two of us
The start of our show
Stay…stay….stay…
I would never have let go

I see the sun go up as your image...
I feel the weight of your eyes as you stare...
I feel it all when you, when you first,
When you kissed my lips
You used to make me feel at home
You made me feel it whole
You made me feel again

That’s when you used to say
"Will you stay and not let go"
That was just the two of us to think about
The stars of our show
And you would say, "I wish you would stay”
And I’d never go
And I would never have let go

So take this heart of mine
You’ve taken it a hundred thousand times
This time, this time I’m gonna take it with me

See the door close down behind you
I watch your face turn from glow to straight gray
See the moon go up
And it shines this glory on my face
Who would’ve known? Who would know?
Who would've known?

We would stay
We should stay and never go
There was just the three of us to think about now
In our show
I think we'd stay
Would you stay
And then we'd know
That we should never have let go

Oh something to think about in our heart of hearts
Just look into those big brown eyes
And you just fall apart
Maybe we should stay
And at least you'd stay
At least she'd know
That we should never have let go…no…no…let…go…go…

I wished you've stayed…
I wished you've stayed…


3. MONEY TREE

I'm standing on an open world
I've gotta try so hard for myself
Not including the ones that I love,
I call my family

It's not hard when your focus is a beautiful girl
A brand new baby, she's a baby girl
And yes she is a cutie like her mommy
Ah yes, yea,
She looks like her mommy

We both know who we are
And I'm not changing a thing
I've never changed before
If loving me is work I'm not a job to take
I think we're heading for
The crazy making heart break

I'm wondering why I'm sitting here alone again
Why you always fuck me
Why it's never easy,
Easy, easy, easy
It's not easy

This is you,
This is me
You won't be a part of what we need to be
Not for me, for the future of us three
For our daughter, college, family
Sudden health emergencies
You think it's easy
Picking money off my money tree?

With two houses
Both cars
I paid off your fucking credit card debt
Did you already forget?
Huh?
You threaten threat and threaten threat and threat
Huh?
Just fucking leave and find a man
Who will put up with your shit

We both know who we are
And I'm not changing a thing
I've never changed before
If loving me is work I'm not a job to take
I think we're heading for
The crazy making heart break

I can't help but think of
How good you are with our baby daughter
Half the time a single mother
When I go away,
It's so that you can always stay home
And watch our baby grow
"Bring her up the right way "

(You never take it that way....)

We both know who we are....
And I'm not changing....

I need support, not a slap in the face
You have to trust me
Or I'm sure this will blow up in your face
I'm in love with such an angel
She doesn't even know
We've torn each other down
In ways we don't even know
We both know who we are
And I'm not changing a thing
I've never changed before
If loving me is work I'm not a job to take
I think we're heading for
The crazy making heart break

I can't help but think of
How good you are with our baby daughter
Half the time a single mother
When I go away,
It's so that you can always stay home
And watch our baby grow
"Bring her up the right way"

It’s me,
The one who has his family's future at heart
There's you,
The one who never wants her family apart
We both know that together we can only believe
That if we cut the shit
There'd be no reason to leave...
Leave leave leave.......


4. FOR THE LOVE

Communication…
I wait to see if we could ever get together
And talk like we used to
We get together and we'd talk…like we used to
But you don't want to
You want a separation
And now that's strike three
I tried everything, I work so hard for you
To constantly hear how I fail and abandon you

I put my heart in a dream
And now that dream it makes sure
The baby, she has food to eat
And your fancy house gets paid for, you hear me?
You never learned one thing
No, you never believed in me
So if you're gonna leave get out
Just remember this is what I'm all about…

I do it for the love
I do it for the rain
I do it for the passion
I do it for the pain
I do it for the rush
I do it for the doubt
I do it for my daughter, man
Cuz she's what I'm about
I do it for my mom
I do it for my dad
I do it for my sanity
Its hanging from a thread
I do it for the audience
Who understands the need
Standing on the stage cut the shit
And let it bleed

So pack it up, pack it in
Write it up, write it down
Just remember that I told you
It's what I'm all about

I’ll miss the tour where you told me
“Not to come home again”
An ex-boyfriend was taking my place
At our first Lamaze
How hard that was because
Your voice so crooked and wrong
You were proud of your intentions like a motherfuckin'
Nuclear bomb

So I lived in a hotel room
Till the day she was born
And i never knew what words to say
That could get us through our first chance
At divorce
You promised change and i believed,
I walked right back into the same
So if you're gonna leave…
Go away

I do it for the love
I do it for the rain
I do it for the passion
I do it for the pain
I do it for the rush
I do it for the doubt
I do it for my daughter, man
Cuz she's what I'm about
I do it for my mom
I do it for my dad
I do it for my sanity
Its hanging from a thread
I do it for the audience
Who understands the need
Standing on the stage cut the shit
And let it bleed
I do it for my brother
I do it for his wife
I do it for my manager
Cuz God he saved my life
I do it for the confidence
I do it for release
I do it cuz i'm sick of being sad
It's for the peace
I do it for the sunshine
For my friends
I did it for you…for you
Over and over and over again
But you'll never understand
(So fuck it)

So pack it up, pack it in
Write it up, write it down
Just remember that i told you
It's what I'm all about

Get out... get outta my life...

I do it for the love... for the love...
For my daughter... for my daughter
For the love... for my daughter...


5. DRAMA EVERYTHING

Let me start with I’ve let you go
But you don't get it though
Politely i've asked you to leave
But still you follow
(Why are you following me?)

Its hard when you're full of heart
When the house you built just falls apart
Keep the paint fresh keep the outside clean
Make sure the neighbors see you wear that ring
Don't tell em a thing, they don't know you like me

You're the girl that cries water in the basement!
“Everybody stop wait look see!"
You're the girl that could lie to a face and
Fabricate a flood to get through to me
I went away, you found a replacement
So call him don't call me
To the girl that cries water in the basement
“You drama everything.”

I heard a good friend once say
You got one life, live it, cuz they'll take it away
From all of us…one day…you know they will

So color it up! color it up!
Say your last goodbye
I don't give a fuck
Bottom's up
Just watch me walk away

Im here to say
That I don't need your sorry dream at all
What makes you think you can tell me
How to feel or how hard I should fall?
(Bo, now you listen)
Oh my, you're not anything I need in my life
No you're not anything I even want
Cuz they don't know you like me

You're the girl that cries water in the basement
”Everybody stop wait look see!"
You're the girl that could lie to a face and
Fabricate a flood to get through to me
I went away and you found a replacement
So call him don't call me
To the girl that cries water in the basement
“You drama everything”

(Here's what you gotta do)
Hold your head high
Shoot first, man, don't ask why
Yeah, you won't feel the pain at all
Well I guess I grew this mind
I think for myself and I'm fine
No i don't need anything from you at all
They don't know you like me

You're the girl that cries water in the basement
”Everybody stop wait look see!"
You're the girl that could lie to a face and
Fabricate a flood to get through to me
I went away and you found your replacement
So call him don't call me
To the girl that cries water in the basement
“You drama everything”


6. THE CHILLS

Take my hand
Maybe we should run away
Maybe we should disappear
Leave everything behind

Like the useless things
Boxes labeled memories
With sudden health emergencies
We can leave those things behind

Show me,
Show me arms that reach for all we can be
Through understanding, try forgiveness
I face the past,
It's what I witness

Why do I only feel the chills when I'm with you?
I only hear your words that you say are true
But you keep thinking it over, thinking it over
You could catch me if you wanted to

Why are you gotta say good bye
When you know you coulda come with me...
“No!” Can't afford to leave and stay
(I cant' afford it)
We're gonna have to just build one way
(Look , i cant afford it)

So tell me, tell me all the things
You told me we could be
Through understanding, tried forgiveness
I faced the facts,
I it's what I witnessed

Why do I only feel the chills when I'm with you
I only hear your words that you say are true
But you keep thinking it over, thinking it over
catch me if you want

I only feel the chills when I'm with you
I feel the sun,
I feel the sun
Catch me, catch me

“Why does a heart always have to break?”
(When you're trying way too hard)
“Have to break?”
(Yeah she'll see right through you)
‘have to break”
(All Communication, and the conversation, it breaks down)
“Now there'll be nothing to talk about"
Absolutely nothing...

Why do I only feel the chills when I'm with you?
I only hear the words that you say are true
But you keep thinking it over, thinking it over
You could catch me if you wanted to.

Catch me,
You could catch me.


7. THE FLIGHT

No joke took a breath and then awoke
I was standing in an airport looking like a joke
Saying "sir can you help me?
Ma'am could you please?
So they led me to the pay phone
Flaggin' down the police
"Mr. officer I know who I am. but the rest of me,
My memory, I just don't understand
I do know that i'm unsafe, man with a plan,
Of gettin' on a plane
Fly away to kill a man

Like a freight train threat to myself
I gotta history of blackouts, bad mental health so…
Both cops each arm alarm
No harm disarm pat down do the body check
Next thing i was walking on the airfield
Back seat i was headed to the hospital
I’m sorry for the drama that i bring
Through the screen he said
"Son you did the right thing"

Please help me understand
Why you can't talk man to man
But you can stand with your dick in your hand
Why you acting like a pussy, man?
Please help me understand
Why you can't talk man to man
But you can stand with your dick in your hand
You acting like a pussy, man

I was faithful to the wifey now we separated
Used to try to win her back i underestimated
Like a stone sinks down into the complicated fact
That you gave that ass up and never fucking dated

See you're better than that
You're a diamond he’s a rough real tough, man
Call a brother back
Just a pussy with a dick
Stand up and be a fucking man
Hiding from the husband
Scared to make a peep and

Livin’ up in Lincoln
Now i'm in the deep end
Think I’m gonna break in smash your fucking face in

Cut you up with lemon juice
And watch you try to fuck then

Please help me understand
Why you can't talk man to man
But you stand with your dick in your hand
Why you acting like a pussy, man?
Please help me understand
Why you can't talk man to man
But you stand with your dick in your hand
Acting like a pussy, man

Is that beat up…is that beat up yet?
(Please help me understand)
(Why can’t talk man to man)
Is that beat up... is that beat up yet?

I wish that i were man enough
To turn my back and leave
To forget all the tricks you pull,
And hide them in my sleeve
I know what's best for table play,
I know what's best for me
I know this life is way too short, to let you kill a dream.
I know you're capable to only love me when I’m there
I know its hell to keep the peace
Inside your heart and head
But I'm always gone and what you're left with is my song
You're sick of listening to anything turn me off instead.

You used to call me cool, believed in what I'd say
Never seen me as a failure or a mother fucking fake
But over time we changed into this little ball of hate
We shared a bedroom,
But the bedroom had a bed we never made so
Im done with holding this in
Im done with being a friend
I'd like it all to just end like brand new ink on a pen
Noone can stop me... try to stop me...
Just try to stop me...

Please help me understand
Why you can't talk man to man
But you stand with your dick in your hand
You’re acting like a pussy, man

Please help me understand
Why you can't talk man to man
But you can stand limp dick in your hand
You’re acting like a pussy, man


8. ANY MAN IN AMERICA

(I lost my head and my cool)
(I lost my head)
(My head)

I only know spending time away
I only know the truth is spoken best when brutally
So honestly, Ill let you know
you set the standards lyrically for me

One single middle finger, saying raise it up
My speech will always be free
Like Martin Luther King you had meaning to me
Single-handedly
Saving music's starving industry
A hip-hop legend with skin like invisible ink
Like, even though he was whiter than me
he was the first to be colorless
Speaking for all of us
And then you let us into your family
Mother
Father
Brother
Sister
Wife
Daughter
Damn right in front of me.

"Thats when I missed my daughter desperately"
Your 'Mockingbird' put dents in me
While touring, press, and reliving my song 'Hate Me'
I was losing custody...
I never even saw that shit
How she played me and planned and sought it fit
To turn the trick
and financially she would benefit
My first and probably only billboard hit
Was gonna pay for my two year old's college
I should have hid that shit
So she couldn't spend that shit
It took twenty years of working just to earn that shit
Now word for word
I've listened, heard and I'm done
Done...

You don't know
You act like you believe it
That you're in control
It's just your legal system though
They don't think about you
They don't care about you
Now every man in America take back your control
You don't know
You act like you believe it
That you're in control
It's just your legal system though
They don't think about you
No they don't care about you
Now every man in America take back your control

So I kept business quiet
Just like my lawyer said
And I tried to focus all of my anger in my work instead
I was succeeding and self reliant
But inside my soul is dead
I had to be the sole provider
But not allowed to be the Dad.

Literally they took her from me
Legally they did, they did
But I'm not a fuckin book
"So fuck your book in Lincoln" I said
"Fuck that judge,
Fuck that county,
Fuck your family too,
Fuck everybody that took away my baby girl, Blue."

I'm way too strong
I work my ass off all day long
And I'm gone for months at a time
When you keep sittin' there lying
Bitching, "Come back home!"
I hate you, hate you,
When i’d come back home
You’d file for another fucking divorce
I'm sick of all the trying
I'm sick of you instead
But I'm not sick up in my head...

"Any other man in America can get get screwed just like me"

You don't know
You act like you believe it
That you're in control
It's just your legal system though
They don't think about you
They don't care
Now every man in America take back your control
Well you don't know
You act like you’re believing
That you're in control
It’s your legal system though
They don't think about you
No they don't care about you
Now every man in America take back your control


9. YOU WAITED TOO LONG

Did he really get to take you home?
I'm surprised that you chose... ( him )
Surprised that I'm not in a halfway home
I'm not surprised I never saw you around...

When they brought me home

So who does this separation work for?
So which one of us will wage war more?
It's not about, the feelings that we shared before... no...
Cause your words don't calm anymore... god…no more

What did you want me for?

How, do you call
What we had love when you don't even notice
That look upon my face
Yeah I've done this before
You'll be sorry when I'm gone...
You waited too long

Did she really think I'd take it?
With information fabricated
Look, I give you credit for pathetically thinking
that you could make this up...
"Watch this!"
She turns about-face.
You say he's in our house invading your space!
I'm helpless, you know that I'm away,
A mac truck sitting in a hotel crazy
Red Light on the phone,
Blinking like it's telling me
"There's something wrong or right"
It down... I need to know

How do you call
What we have love when you don't even notice
That look upon my face
Yeah I've done this before
You'll be sorry when I'm gone…yeah
You waited too long

How do you call
What we have love when you don't even notice
The look upon my face
Yeah I've done this before

You'll be sorry when I'm gone...
You waited too
Yeah you waited too long

This is urgent...
Calling emergencies, I don't know how to stop 'em
More cap gun than a pistol
You fill your clip with lies
Then load each one and fire right over my head

I need a finish line, this pressure's too hard
I should have seen the end was coming sooner than I ever did
Reach down in the pit of my soul
I found things that I didn't wanna know were there
I guess "the waiting" is over

Oh how do you call
What we have love when you don't even notice
That look upon my face
Yeah I've done this before
You'll be sorry when I'm gone...
Yeah... You waited too long

Oh how do you call
What we had love when you don't even notice
That look upon my face... "I know ur sorry"
Yeah I've done this before "I know ur sorry"
You'll be sorry when I'm gone...
Yeah...You waited too long


10. THE HONESTY

Let's get it straight
Let's get it straight from the top
You're beginning with the usual main ingredient
You're good at when you're talking when you say it
Are you meaning it?
Don't wanna give you my heart if you're not completing it

I'm blown away at how your family, your friends,
Just accept it though
No one's ever told you no
Can't expect you to know how to love
When it was something
You were never taught

But honesty
Is the one true way to start again
Just be good to yourself
And love those unspoken
Instead of always broken
But honestly
When you're heart decides to let someone in
Just be cautious of the next one

You win
I never wanted to play what was meant to screw me up
But I see you're in to playing it
Makes me feel sorry for the way you like displaying it
And how the truth has really told you are betraying it

I gotta say
I don't think I ever felt you hold us up
Were you embarrassed by me?
Its something i’m gonna have to pay for

But honesty
Shoulda been the one true way to start again
Just be straight with yourself
And love goes unspoken
Instead of always broken
But honestly
If your heart decides to feel again
Just be careful of the next one

How completely let down
How completely let down i felt
How completely in awe
How I can't see at all

Now I can see it all…

But honesty
Could been the one true way to love again
Just be straight with yourself
And love goes unspoken
Instead of always broken
But honestly
If your heart decides to love again
Just be thankful for the next one

Gonna see it all...?gonna see it all...
Can't wait... can't wait...
Gonna keep it up... gonna keep it up...
Can't wait... can't wait...
Gonna see it all... gonna see it all...
Can’t wait... can’t wait...
Gonna keep it up


11. THE GETTING OVER IT PART

I tried and tried
I tried so many things that wouldn't take
Like stop the leak prevent the flood some say
But nothing helped at all
And you're not listening

To what I say
You waste the time for memories made
Communication has not made its way
To your agenda for today
Or any other day
Cuz this is the last time I'm gonna say it

If you come 'round here you know
We're gonna have some problems though
Yeah we're over... get over it though...
I've seen that look before
Leave that shit at your door
Yeah we're over... get over it though...

Now I'm shouted out
You gotta hear me
Can you end this now
I’m tired of waiting
You don't get the point
And you don't get control
And we both have a chance
If you just let go

You can't have me tonight, tomorrow night
The next day, for anyone, or anything
And anyway I'm not asking you to stay
You're not my fucking problem
One you’d just throw away
Let's burn this house we built up down
And simply walk away

If you come 'round here you know
We're gonna have some problems though
Yeah we're over... get over it though...
I've seen that look before
Leave that shit at your door
Yeah we're over... get over it though...

I'm gonna win this conversation
Look who's got the microphone, huh?
I can't believe you're stuck on always
Trying to fuck me up
I think you ruined us all
I truly believe
You fuckin' ruined us all... Yeah!

If you come 'round here you know
We're gonna have some problems though
Yeah we're over... get over it though...
I've seen that look before
Leave that shit at your door
Yeah we're over... yes we're over...

(I was wondering why i wasn’t sad like usual)
(I’m not sad no more)
(You’re just a mindfuck)
(But hey you got your facebook)
(So join the real world)

...Just get her paid


12. THE WORRY LIST

'M tired and twisted
Barely breathing buried in the dark... I could been
Don't be concerned that's just the power
Of a breaking heart
How good am I hiding it?

Look I got some bad intentions
Guilty as fuckin' charged
Still standing stable more than able
Cuz I know who you are
I know the birthdays, anniversaries,
All the first days I missed
I regret them all
But now I know this

"I know that god exists
I held her in my arms
I never knew I was able
To ever feel this strong
Take me off your worry list
It'll be better that way
I'm really fine and Mar’
There’s nothing we haven't talked about
So take me off your worry list
I said throw it away"

"Yeah, this is what my life is about
I might've been gone but I never walked out"

I've taken a thousand red eyes
To change your point of view
What kind of man would take the trust you break
And still follow through

Cuz I'm standing right here
And you may not show up
The same gate 14
Where honestly I'm just sick of calling your bluff

And its just embarrassing
That I nearly threw up
While I'm trying hard to change
The things I always screw up

And at the top of my list
This visitation's no relationship
But I gotta make the best of it
Cuz I know

"I know that god exists
I held her in my arms
I never knew I was able
To ever feel this strong.
Take me off your worry list
It'll be better that way
And i'm doing fine and I got plenty
Of friends of friends around
Take me off your worry list
Just throw it away
Well its time to stand up on my own for her
Cuz I'm packing it up
And I'm coming through"

I couldn't wait to finally pick my family up
Everything is quiet and covered in snow
There's something wrong here

Nobody's at home

I'm back in the drivers seat
Heading back home
Yeah, back to Texas
On my own

"Take me off your worry list
It'll be better that way
Im doing fine and I got plenty of friends around
So take me off your worry list
I said throw it away
Its time to stand up on my own for her
I'm packing it up and I'm coming today”

"This is what my story's about
I might've been gone but I never walked out"

I'm packing it up and I'm coming today

"This is what your story's about
My pretty little girl can you figure it out
If it helps to know so there is no doubt
Just listen to the stories, not everything is glorious
Some hurt, some love, some shout

I fought the world and I lost that bout
And you are what my album's about
I might've been gone but I never walked out"


13. THE FOLLOW THROUGH

Pride
It leaves you hollow
Another attempt
Just to settle the score
A war, you know the one you built it up

It’s real defining
Humiliation
Knocks at your door

Usually I blow up
Icy, you cave in
We never found the line between
The real and pretend
You know you should accept it
This is really the end
I know for sure, what I have to do
Is follow through

In everything I ever want to be
The only thing I ever needed no
I'd wait for you till time lay down to sleep
And I'd sneak across the world to let her know

Yeah that's what I do
I follow through
Oh I follow through

Here I stand
I'm too close but still you're far away
You never tried but I did
We still remain divided

Oh I can't believe that your heart's still beating
Its beating for me at all
How sad of you
But I'm not sad at all

You say I blow up
I say you cave in
We never found the line between
The real and pretend
You know you should accept it
This is really the end
I know for sure, what I have to do
Is follow through

And you were everything I ever want to be
The only one i ever need to know
I'd wait for you till time lay down to sleep
And I'd sneak across the world to let her know

And as it falls down into night we run away
Once again divided
But each one knows just what we have to do
We do
We have to... follow through

I will lay down my heart
I will let you go
That's what's best for us all

(And now we stand beneath the clouds and God above)
(Like we did before)
(But this time for her)
(I’ll follow through)

And you were everything I ever want to be
The only one I ever need to know
I'd wait for you till time lay down to sleep
And I'd sneak across the world to let her know

Hold my heart
Patiently
Take my hand
Walk with me
Cuz when the evening comes
We'll set the world on fire
I was wrong
Let me help you live on
(Can I stand)
(Enough to follow through)
(Its what I do for you)
(I’ll follow through)

...Let me help you live on...