1. AFTERALL (BLACKBIRD SESSION)

I must be doing this all wrong
Should be happy but I'm searching for the voice I lost
Guess I'm just human after all
I guess I'm just human after all

I woke up with the same dark feeling
Head on the ground and my thoughts on the ceiling
Another dream where the light is burning out
I don't know what to chase
My hope is erased
I look at myself and I don't know my own face
I just got fixed and I'm already breaking down

How do I feel when my wounds aren't healing?
Why do I stop when I start believing?

I must be doing this all wrong
Should be happy but I'm searching for the reasons why
Puts my head in overdrive
I thought I had this figured out
I should scream but I'm still searching for the voice I lost
I guess I'm just human after all
I guess I'm just human after all

You're no good so get up and change it
The way you feel is a little outdated
You'll never change if you'd rather hear the lie
I don't know what to say
I'm never okay
I try to dig deep and there's nothing but pain
I'm singing my songs but the words just don't relate
(I'm singing my songs but the words just don't relate)

It's time to live when my wounds aren't healing
Why do I stop when I start believing?

I must be doing this all wrong
Should be happy but I'm searching for the reasons why
Puts my head in overdrive
I thought I had this figured out
I should scream but I'm still searching for the voice I lost
I guess I'm just human after all

There's not an ounce of hope inside of me
I wanna die before I fade away

I must be doing this all wrong
Should be happy but I'm searching for the reasons why
Puts my head in overdrive
I thought I had this figured out
I should scream but I'm still searching for the voice I lost
I guess I'm just human after all
I guess I'm just human after all
I guess I'm just human after all


2. YOU NEVER KNOW (BLACKBIRD SESSION)

I can't breathe in
With hands on my neck
I scream back
The grip that holds on
The reason
I'm trapped in my head
Defeated

I never felt this
The voice in my face
Screams violence
The grip that holds on
The reason
I'm trapped in my head
Defeated

I never felt so close
To giving up on hope
Should I hide it
Should I fight it
Should I roll over and die
You never know
You never know until you know, know, know
(You never know until you know, know, know)
You never know until you know, know, know

I can't breathe in
With hands on my neck
I scream back
The grip that holds on
The reason
I'm trapped in my head
Defeated

I never felt so close
To giving up on hope
Should I hide it
Should I fight it
Should I roll over and die
You never know
You never know until you know, know, know

I never felt this
The voice in my face
Screams violence
The grip that holds on
The reason
I'm trapped in my head
Defeated

You never know until you know

I never felt so close
To giving up on hope
Should I hide it
Should I fight it
Should I roll over and die
You never know
You never know until you know, know, know
(You never know until you know, know, know)
You never know until you know, know, know


3. DISEASE (BLACKBIRD SESSION)

If I fall again, will it be the end?
I know it's wrong
You think I'm strong but I just pretend
Is it taking over?
Will it bury me?
Or will clarity become the cure for my disease?

Stuck at the surface
Not making progress
Falling apart
Well I'm trying my hardest
Looking for answers
Finding a woe
Is their noose getting tighter?
I'm losing control

Will the end make me whole again?

It's like holding on
When my grip is lost
I still feed my insecurity
When I know the cost
Is it taking over?
Will it bury me?
Or will clarity become the cure for my disease?

I'm getting older
Still lost as ever
Thinking a smile while I bury the pressure
Why does this happen?
I should be fine
But I can't shake the feeling I'm living a lie

Will the end make me whole again?

It's like holding on
When my grip is lost
I still feed my insecurity
When I know the cost
Is it taking over?
Will it bury me?
Or will clarity become the cure for my disease?

If I fall again, will it be the end?
I know it's wrong
You think I'm strong but I just pretend
Is it taking over?
Will it bury me?
Or will clarity become the cure for my disease?

It's like holding on
When my grip is lost
I still feed my insecurity
When I know the cost
Is it taking over?
Will it bury me?
Or will clarity become the cure for my disease?
(Become the cure for my disease)


4. CLEVER (BLACKBIRD SESSION)

I guess being clever's just my safety net

I hide behind my cadence
I hide behind the walls
I built so tall the weakness never spills

I hide all of my burdens
I twist my words so well
I'm breaking but the lie is what I sell

If I'm clever you might never understand
I feel like death and me are walking hand in hand
When my happiness is hanging by a thread I finally feel content
I guess being clever's just my safety net
I guess being clever's just my safety net

I tell you I feel better
I tell you I can sleep
I hope that it will bring a sense of peace

But all the nights are getting darker
The day becomes so bleak
Another day I'm conscious is another day I bleed

If I'm clever you might never understand
I feel like death and me are walking hand in hand
When my happiness is hanging by a thread I finally feel content

I'm so messed up and inconsistent in my head
I feel my passing only benefits my friends
When I know nothing I say matters in the end I finally feel content
I guess being clever's just my safety net

I'm out of ways to answer
I'm out of metaphors
I finally got so sick, there is no cure

I'm out of ways to answer
I'm out of metaphors
I finally got so sick, there is no cure

If I'm clever you might never understand
I feel like death and me are walking hand in hand
When my happiness is hanging by a thread I finally feel content

I'm so messed up and inconsistent in my head
I feel my passing only benefits my friends
When I know nothing I say matters in the end I finally feel content
I guess being clever's just my safety net
I guess being clever's just my safety net