1. PALLOR

I'm holding on to a life I left, seems like trying to live is such a waste of death.
Please mother when will you come home ? I care more than you could ever know.


2. WITH LOVE

Do you dare me to finish my sentences ? I have no problem breaking your...
I'm barely awake but the dread is starving, beyond malnourished and it's still asking, "what am I doing here ? " And I can't stop thinking about you.
I avoid your eyes to hide I'm dying inside, I'm failed beyond belief, violence hides behind my teeth.
These can't be memories, this is cold agony.
And with love, your blessings become burdens, faith died in the family you nurtured.
And with love, you see I'm hurting, I built bridges, you built these walls.
Now I see everything as a tool to hur you with, doctors and restraints won't cure how worthless you have made me.
He was a crow bearing down the family tree, I'm a burdened branch, it's the bastard in me.
Bravery to go ? Or bravery to stay ?
Honestly, it's betrayal either way, just please don't go.
And with love, your blessing become burdens, faith died in the family you nurtured.
And with love, yo see I'm hurting, I built bridges, you built these walls.


3. A LIFE LESS LIVED

Here I am with nothing else to give, gone are the days I'd ever wait on you again.
You swam in my mothers eyes, those ocean blues, you drank her dry, what was she to you ?
What you did to me, took away my chance at life.
When death held me like a lover, you danced on her grave out of spite.
You see rapture in tablet form and every inch of my decomposes, it tastes like bitter gold, broken toys and overdoses.
I've got nothing but spit, there are no more days for me to ever be the same.
I'm the bed fed bastard son and I had a voice, I am the bed fed bastard son, you took that away from me.
All your words turn to worms, on me.
All on me.
God help me, as a gift to myself, I will never forgive you.
God help me, as a gift to myself, I will never forget you.
Here I am with nothing else to give, gone are the days I'd ever wait on you again.
You swam in my mothers tears, those ocean blues, you drank her dry, what was she to you ?


4. AMONGST CROWS

Please don't say it at all if you can't stay to say it sober.
I watched your fist break her nose in two, her face so pale as her blue eyes turned colder.
Dawn chokes the air, as the sun begins to break, please come and waste away with me, please come and rest your head.
Young boys never become old men, they sprout wings and turn to crows held down in hospital beds.
If I had the guts I'd do it to myself.
You fractured lines of sinews and sorrow, this wounded soul fell short of the mark.
Tired single parents never get closure, I reject life, it's as useless as the past.
Today I beg for life to give me any reason to stay.
Dawn chokes the air, as the sun begins to break, please come and waste away with me, please come and rest your head.
Young boys never become old men, they sprout wings and turn to crows held down in hospital beds, my sister, I feel you.
No longer do you hear me.