1. ALL FOR NOTHING

Fucked up beyond all recognition
When black and white have become a blurry shade of gray
How could i let it all come down to this
Where the only thing i know that's real in this world has gone away

No...i can't wipe the blood off

No...i can't cleanse myself

I didn't ever think that the world could be so small
That it could slip right through my grasp
I clutched so hard, i didn't want to watch it drift away
I just held on to tight to a dream that couldn't last

No...i can't wipe the blood off

No...i can't cleanse myself

Now the life i believed
Is a lie that was pulled over my eyes
From the truth, now i see
And i find my hope was all for nothing

What always is, what shouldn't be
I've exhausted my brain to find a way to kill the memories
The only thing i trust, the one thing i fear
It's by my side throughout my life
And then it stalks me till i disppear

I tried to pull a bullet from a shattered mind
I tried to set a clock with a hole in time
I tried to save a life with my hands tied
I tried...


2. HERE IS...

I'm suffocating when there's endless air to breathe
I feel confined in this world that's neverending
My faith is whole, but my hopes are just to few
I will destroy myself to create a new

I will break through to the other side
The truth won't be kept from me
I've crossed over the edge in my mind
And i will not be coming back

I wish i could be like the sun
I'd burn my shadow and i'd be the only one
Stuck in this fetal position, afraid to leave the womb
In a key of discord that i've played my whole life to
And i won't be defeated, i won't break
This damaged hole will never cave
No matter how much ground i gain
I can never win
And the more things change the more they stay the same

I'm caught up in the endless cycle
No exits on a clock face
Infinity's only just a mile
If you're stuck in one place

Here is a world's objection
Here is an end in sight
Here is a lost direction
Here is...

It's only when i've reached the end that i realize how far i've fell
It's only when i think the world is far from sight that i tell myself
It'll be alright

So tear my skin from my sides
And you'll find me empty inside
A heart once beat from this hole
But now i'm broke and unwhole

Here is my tired will
Here is my broken seam
Here is my life's direction
Here is...


3. ONESIDED

On this side it's lonely
And the odds all seem so stacked
It's hard to take a step in life when the world is on your back

I'd be able to find my way
If i somehow lost my place
But how can i live when you've broken the vein, distilled the water and soured the taste

I've drawn a line in the sand to give me a side and a place to stand
I struggle to stay on my feet, but in the end i always fall back to my knees

After i've lost all feeling
I don't think i've ever felt more free
I don't care, i'd rather be dead than be part of a world that doesn't believe

I gave up a long time ago

I've thrown it all away
No regret, no pain, no hope
You've eaten the last part of me
And i hope you fucking choke

I've drawn a line in the sand to give me a side and a place to stand
I struggle to climb to my feet when an entire world pushes me on my knees

I want to see the sun grow cold as our compassion
I want the hands on the face of existence void of any action
I want to witness the plight of humankind succeed
And i want to rip out the heart of the world just to see if it still bleeds

My gift, my burden
A choice you could not understand
To you this pain is discomfort
To me it tells me who i am

In this world of binding ties, black and white, truth and lies
I am on no one's side because no one is on mine

I've drawn a line in the sand to give me a side and a place to stand
I struggle to stay on my feet, but in the end i always fall back to my knees
I've drawn a line in the sand to separate the kind from the man
I want to destroy all that's left and watch the world devour itself

When will you realize that there are no sides to cling to
When the world finally decides to crack
My last breath will be a laugh


4. A MEANS TO AN END

Afraid i'll believe in wrong i've sown my eyes
The beating of the heart should be a crime
Do what you do to make ends meet
While blind to those crushed under your feet
Your mind is a muscle, don't let it atrophy

Your tongues will dig your trenches and your graves
To conform to standards is the way
There's no vaccine for our disease
You've got to kill the infant to preserve the fetus
Does belief in god make him believe in us?

I think it's time you broke your bread
Drink the wine and rest your head
Chew the lie and spit the truth
Because, my friend, the end will be here soon

With the skin we're judged
Without the skin we're cold
I refuse to play the pawn
In this chess game anymore

Sucked into the winds of change
They leave a path of torn remains
Why is hope so hard to find
An eye for an eye, is this why everyone is blind?

I think it's time you broke your bread
Drink the wine and rest your head
Chew the lie and spit the truth
Because, my friend, the end will be here soon

So settle your own score
And miss the obviousness once more
It seems we're all just passing through
So what does your life mean to you?

We created a light that overshadowed the darkness
It spills onto the sky and drips the color of the sun
The endless fields have end and the tree of life is dead
A cloud of dust rolls in to bind the night and day as one
Life rises to the surface and comes crashing to the earth
Created flesh and blood, now we're ash among the dirt
The few are left to rest and wonder what it all was worth

I think it's time you broke your bread
Drink the wine and rest your head
Chew the lie and spit the truth
Because, my friend, the end will be here soon

So settle your own score
And miss the obviousness once more
It seems we're all just passing through
So what does your life mean to you?

When everything is lost
We'll try to pump some life
Out from a dry, dead world
And look to a burned up sky

It's our means to an end

We're our means to an end


5. DEAD DREAM

It's been a downward spiral
Ever since the fall
Our self delusion of control

We're all guilty
And no one's free
If i was god i'd make you see

You can't take me

I've seen it come
Hysteria

Buildings crumble
Our hearts displace
Hope and life just brush away

Fear and sorrow
An altered state
You can almost breathe the hate

And i will not tolerate

I've seen it come
Hysteria

A third of all life
A third of what's left
Have you found any proof of a soul?

I will not judge you
Why don't you judge yourself
We're all free to reap what we sow

What you follow isn't always right
When your truth's evolving from a lie
And what your living is not a life

Shove harmony down your throat
Throw peace and love out the window
Embrace progress instead
Because the dream is dead

I've seen it come
Hysteria


6. GODGIVEN

It breaks right through the vein to find a pathway to the bloodstream
An accepting heart rejects compassion, an open mind embraces fear
Just loosten up your grip, i know control can be addictive
Are you afraid of what you'd see if you looked into a mirror?

Bow down now or cease to be
This gift that god gave to me
Live face down until you see
That sacrifice will set you free

Feeding them trust so that they swallow
Abusing their faith so that they follow
You've reached out to fill with hope, but instead you've made them hollow
You think i'm mad for all i've seen, you'd better pray, 'cause god gets angry like me

Bow down now, trapped underneath
This gift that god gave to me
Live face down until you see
That ours is the only way to be

I hold more contempt for your breed of sheep
Than all the goats in the world, or what they believe

You think you're chosen
You think he put you in charge of me
That's not his voice speaking through you
So stop trying to make me dance with loose strings

This hole was once the world i knew
Take a step back or sink in through
Swallowed up, made to believe
To trust in what i cannot see
Let the tangled web of lies expand
While you place your head under the sand
Cough it up or breathe it in
The end is where we all begin
Now take this weary hand of mine
Close your eyes, become inclined
I'll walk you down the path of life
And i'll show you the holiest way to die

My eyes are open

My eyelids are peeled apart
New currents stir my mind
Born with this gift of thought so that we'd not believe the lie


7. STRUCK DOWN

All i can give is what you'd never appreciate
And always for granted is everything i take

Can things be like they were before?
Where's the point a word becomes a war?

I must seek shelter to escape the light that blinds
I've got to undo and slip away from the ties that bind

Strike me down where i stand
Because it's wrong i'm who i am
Burn it down and smoke me out
Don't spare the rod, just strike me down

Caught between damnnation and salvation
Could i turn my back on all i've ever come to know?

Why should i be a pawn or a slave?
What if i choose i will not be saved?

Is there a debt over my head, the price of my life?
If i follow in your footsteps then what's the point of mine?
I cannot tell where you end or where i start
Because the one thing that binds us together is the one thing that tears us apart

Strike me down where i stand
Because it's wrong i'm who i am
Burn it down and smoke me out
Don't spare the rod, just strike me down

I've sinned but i don't want them forgotten or erased
What i call a precious reminder you call a mistake
I live but as long as you're here i'm never free
No one wins, it's neverending and it doesn't stop with me

I will fear you as long as my heart beats
I will feel you as long as my wounds bleed
I need something more to tear and pry
I've got to seperate these ties

All i can give is what you'd never appreciate
And always for granted is everything i take

...because the one thing that binds us together is the one thing that tears us apart