1. METHODS OF SURVIVAL

At times I'm so preoccupied running
I forget paying attention to where I'm going
At times I'm so busy reaching ecstasy
I forget paying attention to all other needs

We've all got our methods of survival - These are mine

Shoo away the annoying dandelion seeds
Chase a katzenjammer violin up a tree
Startle the birds so they take off
With the entire lake in their feathers

At times I'm so busy avoiding trouble
I forget paying attention to what I miss out on

These ever-changing methods of survival

I may be too deep into the darkside but I know
We need to be a bit naive as well - One thing though
How to regain naivete when already cynical?

Have some bittersweets - They're good for you

Paper aeroplanes crash into bottles spilling wine
On flies hanging around washing their hands
Maudlin flies reel all over the table when suddenly
A tureen of soup tips over as the cloth woos
And stretches for the sheets on the clothes line

I need my escapism, I'll hold on to it till I've learned
New methods of survival
Somehow, somehere, sometime
It will all be good


2. FLESH CITY

We stay here where the dead
Mourn for the living

We eat cannibals before they attack
We eat cannibals and ask afterwards

We can't control our headless horses
As the mongrels snap at their feet

Masturbating teens round every corner
Euphoric with daze and violent with lust
The virgin rapes in clumsy manners
Claims innocence and yells at his scapecock

We constantly move graveward
But we ache too much with
Greed to actually die
We practice compulsory
Revival of the suicidal

Producing childsize armour and straitjackets for kids
Lobotomizing angels as leper eats their wings
Building drive-thru brothels of glass
Aborting alien fetuses with drill
Serving fillets of genitals in restaurants
Life is but a scream within a scream
Within a scream


3. HEARTQUAKE

How I long to experience a heartquake
But oh so afraid it will end up with a heartache

These untimely little deaths
Would leave me out of breath
Life would flash before my eyes

You might become a liability
And I a reliability
Still I'd know how it feels

The absence is highly present
It smothers me absorbs me
Like a black hole

Dense absence of longing
Fills up time and space
Pounds and pounds of emptiness
Weigh upon me

You're a bumpkin
Froping and falling
But you're my pumpkin
Precious adoring
Wish for you to say it first

Better to have failed
In true love
Than never knowing
What you long for

Better to feel pain
Than to feel nothing


4. BURNING BRIDGES

If you can't cope with the answers don't bother to ask
If you can't cope with the sights don't bother to look

Once you've heard it
You can't make it unheard
Once you've seen it
You can't make it unseen

You just stay ignorant
The easier it is to fool you
All you'll know is
That you just don't know

Relax, my intention
Is absolutely not to tell you that...

Lalalalalalala
I'm not listening

Don't worry, I can assure you
My intention is not to tell you about...

Lalalalalalalala
I can't hear you

Don't bother your pretty little head
Knowing too much can't be good for you

If you can't cope with the knowledge don't bother to learn
If you can't cope with the stench don't bother to smell

Once you've heard it
You can't make it unheard
Once you've seen it
You can't make it unseen


5. THIS VIGIL

We've been blind pretending we can see
Been as dazed as dazed can be

We'd turn up to the light to see
What the darkness looks like

Let's share this vigil

I would sing you a lullaby
If I wanted you to fall asleep
I would tell the truth
If I wanted you to fall from grace
I would make you murder me
If I wanted you to fall apart


6. TENTACLES

My tentacles ache, this phantom pain
Oh so confusing... I'm extraneous matter
To the world and so estranged

Look at me any way you want, my components
Are human and human and human and human
Strip me down to humanity and cut me up
Into human and human and human and human

Into atoms of the fragile... I'm human I'm human

See, I bleed red like you...
What was that?
Thought I heard you cuckoo...

It may be I speak moron fluently
But you might be - if possible - even lamer than me...
Yeah I think you could out-moron me anytime...
We'll both stay with the mooncalves cause we're both aliens
Equally expendable, equally valuable
So let's talk moron to moron
What's so great about being unique anyway???
We all are…

Look at me any way you want, my components
Are human and human and human and human
Strip me down to humanity and cut me up
Into human and human and human and human


7. SECONDHAND TRAUMAS

Got me some secondhand traumas
They transformed mind into flesh
And led to the untimely death of the child inside

Fall asunder now and bleed like me, see it's easy
Don't want to be the only one to feel this way

They say when a wound is deep it hurts the most
While it heals, growing inward in the quick

Don't want to build a womb around me
Don't want to drown in amniotic fluid
Don't want you to say what I want to hear

Can't you see or feel at all?
Must we turn to such drastic measures?
Is suicide attempt the only cry for help you can hear?

A hand on a shoulder that writhes away
The mnemonics of this play is way to strong
Don't want your help but I want to heal

Cross my heart
I hope you die as you go boohoohoo

No pain, no more
No bitterness, no more
Nothing matters anymore
I'm not in pain no more


8. PRE-SENSE

If my senses won't come to me
I better come to my senses
But I can't, I'm too scared of being scared

Like saving cancer-mice from labs
Or half-eaten flies from cobwebs
No sense of reality or of concequence

Come... Oh don't bother,
I'll just embrace myself
And while I'm at it
I'll just lift myself up by the hair...　　　

...I'm not here

So you've all gathered here
To knock some sense into me…
Well, go away,
Can't you see I'm busy dying of fear of dying

Imagine what the world would be like
If everyone were to think like you

Well they don't so shut up!!
Well I've got a candied heart
But I'm afraid to use it
So what more can I do but entertain my demons
In this comic tragedy called life