1. THE STAIN OF LIFE

This pace of life is controlling me
I've severed ties with reality
Sitting out of life and feeling cold
Detached emotions, breaking from the fold
Will they leave me here, can't carry on I fear
Won't they pull me out from this life I doubt

Don't wanna fall but it's getting deeper
I can't climb out and I'm getting deeper
Won't colors touch me like in the past
The stain of life is fading fast

Can I be direct and to the point
Some friends have gone and I've wished to join
I wonder will they be here with me
Or risen bright and forgotten me
Will you return, won't you help me to learn
Please help me to return, won't you stop my burn

I've severed ties with reality
Sitting out of life and feeling cold
Won't they pull me out of this life I doubt

Don't wanna fall but it's getting deeper
I can't climb out and I'm getting deeper
Won't colors touch me like in the past
The stain of life is fading fast

Are these words becoming truths
The molding holds it all inside
Still I live in fear, though I see and hear
Falling off the chair, this static life I am aware

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2. THE SICKNESS

You are hiding inside of me
I feel you become a part of life's dreams
It speaks in words of pain
I'll hold you in and bear your flame

You'll feel this, you'll hear this
Your new soul, I am the sickness

I'll make your candle flicker
Take the air and turn off the lights
I'll still feed when you are dead and gone
I'll live beyond your winter

Opposing, evolving
In control, I am the sickness

Deep rooted fears come true
Turning your own defenses back at you
Your new soul, I am the sickness
In control, I am the sickness
It helps control my world
Calculating, I limit your every move
In effect, I am the sickness
Your new soul, I am the sickness

I am transforming your mortal skin
You have now become a callus shell
Of your former self and I'll keep you low
A yearning spirit in a shackled brain


Negating, erasing
In effect, I am the sickness

Why shouldn't I be longing for the end
When I can't recall a vibrant day
The sun didn't shine upon my face
Now eternal woe is my fate

You'll feel this, you'll hear this
Your new soul, I am the sickness

Deep rooted fears come true
I am the sickness

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3. A SILENT WAR

Ridiculed for honesty
A sober view of a one act play
Repeating it's self eternally
Absurdity continues
We be come accustomed
To situations simple yet volatile

An opportunity awaits
Outstretched hands
Grasping for a change
Will obstacles defeat the challenge for growth
Will obstacles defeat
Outstretched hands

So many opinions, so little dialog
Yours no more valid than the next view

Symbiosis or parasite
Leaching it's force unsuspecting hosts
Lack of respect, responsibility
Two words, null and void
Delusions of grandeur
A glory that never was
Inducing your blind euphoria
Inside your null and void

The rebel creates new methods for a silent, written war
A pack follows clichés, going through the motions

A legend in it's own mind
Breeding contempt for those outsiders who see through facades
A spotlight dim at best
Those outside will reveal your lies


Rebel creates new methods for a silent, written war
A pack follows clichés
Going through the motions

Symbiosis or parasite
Leaching it's force unsuspecting hosts
Lack of respect, responsibility
Two words, null and void
Delusions of grandeur
A glory that never was
Inducing your blind euphoria
Inside your null and void

A move of desperation
Suffer the consequences
This silent war

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4. GOODBYE

Goodbye, goodbye
The game is almost over
Is there anybody here
Do words fall on deaf ears
I can feel I'm moving on
And my regrets I'll take beyond
Keep your lives and don't you fear
When you blink I won't be here

Goodbye, goodbye
The shadows are coming
Don't wanna die with this hate inside
Can't be sent back if I've failed this time
I'm alone but I don't want
To cause you pain when I move on
But is there anybody here
Do words fall on deaf ears

Should feel free when I'm released
And fear lies in my destiny
There's no comfort within this dying light
My release doesn't make the pain subside

Didn't know my tears were made of fire
Will I realize I've gone forever
Will I continue to waste as I've lived
By my last breath, will I forgive

Shadows crowd by my side
Rip my soul out, leave my body behind
Blacken my eyes this is no demise
Beautiful demise