1. IN ECSTACY AND SORROW

When you’re high,
And you can fly
And they punish you.

And then you cry,
And you sigh,
What do you do?

The trembling inside,
The craving you can’t hide.

Pleasure and pain,
Inside your veins,
It’s all the same.

Then sight and sound,
Come crashing down,
What was your name?

No more feeling so sad,
The trade off is not so bad.

Forever in one moment,
Whenever you are on it,
You never could resist feeling
Endless.
For all the pain you suffered,
You cannot get enough and
You’ll never be the same again.

When you’re high,
And you can fly,
And they punish you.

And then you cry,
And you sigh,
What do you do?

You’re trapped inside,
Your mind,
You can’t look ahead
Or behind.


2. SOMEWHERE NOWHERE

Somewhere away from here,
But nowhere.
Anywhere but here.

Filth and decay,
Depression and dismay.
As the scum flood the streets,
On any given day.
And more than appalling,
Are the vermin that are crawling,
Amongst the mindless zombies,
Just making their way.
Just once more day
To count down until death.

Trail in the sky,
Flesh and blood until we die,
There’s no fire,
No desire,
There’s no light,
There’s no life.

There’s no more struggle,
There’s no thought,
No pain,
No joy,
And no resistance.
But can you change the way
The world revolves around
Meaningless distance?

Trails in the sky,
Flesh and blood until we die,
No questions asked,
Till at last,
We lie down,
In the ground.

With the illusion of a space,
A place,
And peace,
For every being.
How can a billion selfish creatures
Possibly find any meaning?

Somewhere away from here,
A place with life or love or fear.
Or maybe nowhere is better
Than here.

Mindless and numb,
Live for money
Live for fun.
Nauseating at the sight
Of each and every one.
An how many more will be born,
Just to have their souls
Cleanly torn away,
To be fed to the machine they call
Daily living?
It’s sick…

Trails in the sky,
Flesh and blood until we die,
There’s no fire,
No desire,
There’s light,
There’s no life.

Somewhere away from here,
Or maybe nowhere is better
Than here.
Nowhere,
Anywhere but here….
Nowhere….


3. THE ART OF DREAMING

You paid the price,
No one can tell.
But you lived your life,
You know it well.

What you see,
Inside your mind.
It comes alive
Before your eye’s,
And it breaks the mold
But want’s to hide.

What you see,
And what will be,
What you live,
And what you give.

Before the lies,
The clearer skies,
Redemption lies within.

There was time,
When once you were blind,
But awakening inside,
Every time you cry.

Somewhere in the well,
Where your heart does dwell,
The strength to live a dream.

You never realize,
What it is you hide,
But if you don’t compromise,
Your dream will surely die.

Die or try.

Hear me now,
Breath and let go,
Save your soul,
Hold on tight
Just let it go….


4. DANCE IN THE WOODS

Through the world
And through the ages.
Still,
Unbroken.

Do not fear,
For your riches.
Do not fear,
For your soul.
Lose yourself deep in the woods.
Do not fear,
What you should know.

Seasons change,
Sheddng skin.
Dance at night,
Let them in.

They will not be afraid,
They will not fall,
And there is nothing to taunt them,
They’ve seen it all.

Strong and ancient,
Still and patient.
Yet unspoken.

Do not fear,
Any changes,
Have no fear,
When your alone.
In the woods,
Your thought’s are heard,
And when you dance,
You are at home.

Season’s change,
Sheddng skin.
Dance at night,
Let them in.

They will not be afraid,
They will not fall,
And there is nothing to taunt them,
They’ve seen it all.

In the woods,
There is nothing to hide.
In the woods,
Open up and be alive.

Time unending,
And still unbending

If you leave the woods,
Your dance is forever changed.
Because what you see
Is forever.


5. NEVER

You never know,
Where you went wrong,
When all is said and done.

The treachery
Of knowing where you stand
And what you die for,
Is nothing less than painful.

My life has been
A mockery of everything
I’ve dared to dream of being.

Never be the same,
Once you dare to dream,
Never be the same,
With your heart ripped from the seam,
Never be the same.

You never think,
That you will fail,
Until they’re laughing in your face.

The things you lose,
Never seem significant,
Until they’re gone,
And there’s nothing you can do.

I fought at every turn,
My blood spilled,
My lesson learned,
And still I get nowhere,
And it drive me insane,
What do I get from a life of pain?

Never be the same,
Once you dare to dream,
Never be the same,
Never be….

You’ll never feel the same again
Once the veil is lifted.

The revelations
The passing time will bring
Are more a curse
Than any of your own self-loathing.

I’ve battled with my inner demons,
Defiled my sense of truth and reason,
Just to get where I am,
Which is nothing in the end,
Where I bend, where I’m broken.
In the end.

Never be the same…


6. WITHIN & BEYOND

It feels like the words
Are caught inside my chest.
There’s no way to describe it,
I’ve simply run out of breath.

The beauty I’ve seen,
The places I’ve been,
The people I’ve known,
The things I’ve been shown.
Are so amazing to me,
When I look back,
I wonder what’s next.

It feels like the words
Are caught inside my chest.
There’s no way to describe it,
I’ve simply run out of breath.

The feelings I’ve had,
The times I’ve gone mad.
I’d do it all again,
I wouldn’t change a thing.

Life holds so many things,
And we are such strange beings.
There is no way for me to know
What change will bring,
And where I’ll go.
So I’ll trust the hand of fate
Within and beyond the now.

It feels like the world,
Is laid out before my feet.
To move with the winds of change,
And see just what I meet.

Within and Beyond (cont’d)

Life holds so many things,
And we are such strange beings.
There is no way for me to know
What change will bring,
And where I’ll go.
So I’ll trust the hand of fate
Within and beyond the now.

Within and beyond.
I Say goodnight
And go within and beyond.


7. QUESTIONING LIES

I resent what you’ve done to me,
The lies that you told
And what I’ve seen.
And you think that
It’s all right
To fuck with another persons mind.

I gave you questions,
You gave me answers,
But something still just
Doesn’t sit right with me.

Do you care what you did
When you told me those things?
Do you know all the hate
And confusion it brings?

What these things have done
To me.
Your lies and your deceptions
Are ingrained in everything
That I say and do.
No matter how I try
I will not be free.

I gave you questions,
You gave me answers,
Now they distort me,
Into someone I hate.

How can I undo
All the damage you’ve done?
A twisted, backwards mind
That relates to no one.

To no one,
All alone.

I gave you questions,
You gave me answers,
But I am still just,
So hopelessly lost.

I still don’t understand,
Why you told me those things.
And it all tastes so bitter
And wretched to me.

I resent what you’ve done to me,
The lies that you told
And what I’ve seen.
And you thing that
It’s all right.
To fuck with another persons mind.
But I tell you this,
You're fucking blind….


8. ECHOES

Time laughed at where we stood,
And we wished for something good,
And I hoped for all I could.
So long ago, just once upon a time.

So long ago,
When fantasies came to life,
And the world was alive.
Where we knew no boundaries,
And no real sadness,
And the world was in our grasp.
When we knew nothing less,
Nothingness.

You must forgive me,
I sometimes drift away.
You must forgive me,
I often wish for another day.
You must forgive me,
For lurking in my shadow,
But sometimes I get lost
In the echo’s.

We smiled under the sun,
And ran forever just for fun,
And I could take on anyone.
So long ago, just once upon a time…

You must forgive me,
I sometimes drift away.
You must forgive me,
I often wish for another day.
You must forgive me,
For lurking in my shadow,
But sometimes I get lost
In the echo’s.


9. ASHES TO DUST

Tell me darling,
What do you see?
Every time that
You look at me?
Do you see
Something good for us?
Or like this world,
Do we turn to dust?

What kind of chance
Do we stand?
(There is nothing left inside.)
In this world of man?
(There’s nothing to do but hide.)

If the door of happiness
Opened up.
How long do you think
Before it’s shut?
And if love grew for
The two of us.
How long before
One of us is cut?

What kind of chance
Do we stand?
(There is nothing left inside.)
In this world of man?
(There’s nothing to do but hide.)

There is no cure
For broken hearts,
So why should we
Risk everything again?
I know what comes
From love that’s shunned,
It burns my eyes
Just thinking of the pain.

You seen unsure
And so do I,
So why should we
Even try?
I don’t understand
Why it’s so hard
To walk away from you.

What kind of chance
Do we stand?
(There is nothing left inside.)
In this world of man?
(There’s nothing to do but hide.)

Tell me darling,
What do you see?
Every time that
You look at me?
Do you see
Something good for us?
Or like this world,
Do we turn to dust?


10. WHALE'S CRY

It’s been a thousand years,
And the toxins in my veins,
Are bringing on the end.

I’ve come a thousand miles,
I’ve seen this world around,
Don’t push me off this sand.

The poison and disease,
I no longer see,
No longer feel,
And alone again I bleed.

There’s something in the waves,
There’s something in the air,
That drains my life away.

For all the worth you feel,
Do you grasp what is real?
Your price is one I pay.

Pain in motion,
And tears of oceans.
We cease to function
In you mass destruction.
Your beginning
Is our ending.
Into the deep I fall.

Though on and on,
Through the ages.
Were fading fast
As you turn your pages.
And what was meant
To last forever,
Extinguished with the tide.

My end is your denial,
The killer and a liar,
You wicked son of man.

Under a godless sky,
Say my prayer this last time,
I close my eyes forever.

Under a blood red sky,
The end is finally near,
Why did they all have to
Die for you?

Pain in motion,
And tears of oceans.
We cease to function
In you mass destruction.
It’s so unreal,
Where life stands still,
While waiting on the brink.

Though on and on,
Through the ages.
Were fading fast
As you turn your pages.
And what was meant
To last forever,
Extinguished with the tide.