1. BODY GAMES

Now that we’re not quite so young and dumb
I’m disgusted by what you’ve become
I know my purpose unlike you
Out with the old, in with the new

My skin crawls when I hear of your life
It took so long for me to see
That you stand for nothing
You’re a god damn waste of space

I won’t relive, I won’t regret
Never forgive, never forget
And just like you I’ve learned to cope
So fuck you, I’ll never give up hope

My skin crawls when I hear of your life
It took so long for me to see
That you stand for nothing
You’re a god damn waste of space


2. THE FLYING MACHINE

In place of numbing indifference
We felt a vast sense of restlessness
We spent our nights making sense of our dreams

My thought experiments said
We’ll leave this place behind

We won’t be found with our heads in the clouds

We were taking a stand
They couldn’t keep us under their thumb
When you were grabbing my hand
To warn me of what was to come

I lost sight of everything
And it was just you and me

I mistook the squeeze of your fingers
How much of this was a lie?
You were tapping your foot while I lingered
And ran the circles you rolled with your eyes

I’m so god damn sore
From this climb towards the sky
You know it’s you I did this for
But it was all fucking fiction
So we’ll make for the sun and never look back
Because the truth is inside of us
And they can never take that


3. THE CLOCKMAKER

I watched you go, I couldn’t tell
If you’d come back to me or come back at all
I couldn’t see, what could be done
To make you believe that you shouldn’t run

It’s like a breakdown of everything we are
I have shattered reflections like soldiers in war
I can’t remember how to forget
So I’ll just keep dreaming
I’ll just keep dreaming

So here I am, I’m all alone
It’s Saturday night and I’m calling your phone
And if I could, I’d change the past
With just one more chance I know we would last

It’s like a breakdown of everything we are
I have shattered reflections like soldiers in war
I can’t remember how to forget
So I’ll just keep dreaming
I’ll just keep dreaming

So here’s your surrender story
A memory of broken glory
And I’d be lying if I said I’m over this
Now in time we’ve faded
Every second shows on our faces
Stop the clock!


4. FATALISM

Father, you told me not to tell lies
I remember that day because
I saw that light in your eyes
You looked at me, I looked back at you
You spoke simple words I knew to be true

But something threw me off course
Distracted by change I forgot those words
Now I’m using a lens to look at the world
I know that I’m sick and I can’t find the cure

Father, you told me not to tell lies
So why do I act like I’m so fucking normal?
Why do I say what they want me to say?
These temporal fears have eroded my heart
For far too long, for far too long
Now with trembling lips I’ll cast them away
I’d rather die on my feet than live on my knees


5. ABOVE THE CLOUDS

(Instrumental)


6. WHITE TOWERS

The honesty of lonesomeness
This glow of green gleams in my head
No pictures framed, no memories
Can bring me to the state I once had lived
They’re just second hand thoughts now

I get a shiver in my bones
When I think of this as home
A static voice inside my mind
Tells me up ‘til now,
I’ve been wasting time

A lapse of faith in absolutes
The farewell search for concrete truth
My trembling steps toward rising suns
The ocean breeze is now my Rubicon
The die is cast, now onward I go

I get a shiver in my bones
When I think of this as home
A static voice inside my mind
Tells me up ‘til now,
I’ve been wasting time


7. DOPPELGANGER

In the depths of winter I found in myself
Something I can’t describe
When I calm my mind, it always calls to me
This December, I’ll be free

Take a picture so you can remember me
If memory fails you, you can look back and see
The man who I was, who I used to be
I was searching for something so desperately
Now that it’s gone I almost want to go back
Sometimes the truth isn’t what you expect

Now that I’m alone I must face myself
Their shielded eyes could never see
What I see now with this one-track mind
I’m on the other side

Take a picture so you can remember me
If memory fails you, you can look back and see
The man who I was, who I used to be
I was searching for something so desperately
Now that it’s gone I almost want to go back
Sometimes the truth isn’t what you expect


8. PATIENCE II

Someone once told me that I could be anything
Solemn and bashful I grew
Deep in the back of my mind you remind me
I’m not quite as charming as you

So I’ll go to the sea or somewhere green
Somewhere I know will distract
And I’ll wait there and see if you’ll fight for me
Wait there until it’s too late

Wouldn’t you know it I’m feeling regretful
My memory’s been fading lately
I can’t seem to remember
The sound of your laughter
Your ribs were my piano keys

So I’ll go to the sea or somewhere green
Somewhere I know will distract
And I’ll wait there and see if you’ll fight for me
Wait there until it’s too late


9. STILL ALIVE

Mankind was not designed
To follow all these rules
Yeah you and me, we should be free
I know someday I’ll find you
Walking through the grass
I’ll take your hand, just take my hand
And don’t look back
There’s not much time left for me

But still they deny me!
They won’t set me loose!
But I don’t
I don’t act so surprised
And as they dig my grave I start to fade away
So I scream “Oh god I’m still alive!”

That’s when they lower me deep into the ground
I need someone to say good-bye to
And then I see you watching
You’re sitting on a cloud
Just tell me it’s okay
Won’t you tell me it’s okay?
There’s not much time left for me

But still they deny me!
They won’t set me loose!
But I don’t
I don’t act so surprised
And even from the grave I won’t accept this fate
So I scream “Oh god, I’m still alive!”

Remember me
Remember me as a free man


10. THE STRANGER

You won't reach out to me
No, not this time
When I need you the most
This helplessness is a stranger to me
So I'll just hold on and retreat into my core

And I am across the world today
And there was a time when
I would kill to come back
But it's been a while and I feel it's safe to say
That nothing is permanent but your memory

Now nothing's real to me
I've found the time to work through all of my wrongs
I was becoming a stranger to myself
But now I can see what really counts

And I am across the world today
And there was a time when
I would kill to come back
But it's been a while and I feel it's safe to say
That nothing is permanent but your memory

Dried blood on my hands
Here's to the boy who used up every chance
On nights that I miss you I'll keep to myself
And mingle with dreams ‘til they spit me back out