1. ABOVE THAN BESIDE ME

You’re talking of emancipation
And sexism isn’t welcome in your world?
This is what you think of yourself?
But it’s not a bit of it!

Your activism isn’t hollow,
It appears to everyone this way
As long as they don’t know you.
I witnessed that so often in my life

We’ve known each other for a few months,
Rising problems.

You are by no means ready for the things you are saying.
You are by no means ready for the things you are saying.
So shut up.

Even you, who always preached the contrary,
Prefer to stand above me than beside me,
To stay above me than beside me,
Above me than beside me,
Above me than beside me,
Above me than beside.


2. DEEP INSIDE

It is fair the way it is.
The break of system will never arrive,
The endless stream of drowning system,
And that’s the way it is, it ever was, you say.
Don’t persuade yourself of the liberty,
The happiness in this system,
When your conscious mind whispers to you that you deceive yourself.
Don’t persuade yourself of the impossibility of change,
In the end you will believe this lie.
But I know, you perceive your harm
And deep inside your mind you hear your thoughts converse
“It might be possible, we have one last way out”.
So please breathe.


3. VAGUE UNREST

I draw the curtains and make myself absent.
I put the mask of reality on, my face turns grey.
You put your masks of sincerity on, the world turns grey.

My discontent refuses to turn its back on me.
My discontent refuses to turn its back on me.

Questions soak in my mind and then spread.
So what have I accomplished?
My goals are fulfilled.

My discontent refuses to turn its back on me.
My discontent refuses to turn its back on me.

Happiness languishes on its state of duration,
Prosperity is no ideal having it always.
Happiness languishes on its state of duration,
Prosperity is no ideal having it always.
Vague unrest.


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5. COLD CALL

You said: “how do you feel, everything is okay?
Sometimes I lay here, I missed you today.”
I said: “how do you feel, all these days long?
After breaking and leaving,
I see you were the one.”

You said: “I know you feel hate
But it was not my intent
To make you feel hurt
To benumb your sense”
You said: “I regret this decision,
I feel so sorry for all.”

But please, my love,
Don’t give me a call.


6. SOLUTIONS, DECISIONS

We said: Finding solutions is making decisions.
I came home from this long killing journey.
My glimpse through the window, landscape stole my tears but wasn’t tricky enough.

I was alone, nobody out there.
No one back in my mind who gives me vigor
And nobody says: You’re not forsaken.
Then I was alone, nobody out there.

My stomach absorbed itself and engulfs me in its vacuum.
I couldn’t handle reality when I forced my mind to say:
This loving is over, it never comes back to you again.
This loving is over, it never comes back to you again

Then I was alone, nobody out there.
No one back in my mind who gives me vigor
And nobody says: You’re not forsaken.
Then I was alone, nobody out there.

And I was hating myself for always searching for reasons that were not here.
My thinking didn’t stop: there will be no next.
And I travel through the past.
Banishing memories from my mind.
I perceive angry thoughts, calling you guilty, blaming myself.
Getting no message, no call in the night.
I won’t wake up from my destructive fettle.
Please give me hope for my next days.