DISC1 - SUFFERING HOUR REVISITED


1. PRESENT TENSE

Twisting the images
Watching them grow
Into what they are not
Forget we forgot as they fed on what's real

The path I fell onto
Of tears wades through
Await the demise
In sorry disguise from the things that I feel

Time does not exist
The days as thin as mist
Deep within my eyes
There is a heart that died long ago

What is it going to take to get through to you?
To open your fear-blinded eyes?
Because there was this fear that would tear at me
That by our own hands we would fall

These clouds can pass no light
Just silhouettes of tired life
Sorrow begging, why?, for answers miles and miles from the truth

Endurance and patience lost
From fighting this holocaust
Destroying within and eating its way from the core

Time does not exist
These days are meaningless
Deep within my eyes
There is a heart that died long ago

What is it going to take to get through to you?
To open your fear-blinded eyes?
Because there was this fear that would tear at me
That by our own hands we would fall

*Forgive this heart
Long stagnant with its blood
For it is here, within my suffering
That these, the altars of the soul have creaked
Suffering Hour...
Suffering Hour...
Suffering Hour...
My darkest hour is now

What is it going to take to get through to you?
To open your fear-blinded eyes?
Because there was this fear that would tear at me
That by our own hands we would fall

[* Taken from 'THE SUFFERING HOUR', a poem by TOM D. LISKEY]


2. IMPRISONED

A hell is upon us now this day
Silence whispering unspoken rage
To lend a hand but not in force
To speak our minds in free discourse

Keep closed our eyes
Blind us from the fools unseen
Keep closed our hearts
Drain emotion to plant the seed
Keep closed our minds
Turn innocence to ignorance
Keep closed the mouths
Mute the verbal dissonance...Always

Use not, o'youth, the spoken word
Here to be seen and not to be heard
Thinking red-handed we are caught
Arrest the growth of human thought

Keep closed our eyes
Blind us from the fools unseen
Keep closed our hearts
Drain emotion to plant the seed
Keep closed our minds
Turn innocence to ignorance
Keep closed the mouths
Mute the verbal dissonance...Always

A hell is upon us now this day
Silence whispering unspoken rage
How can we grow with bars about?
Imprisoned in a cell of doubt

Keep closed our eyes
Blind us from the fools unseen
Keep closed our hearts
Drain emotion to plant the seed
Keep closed our minds
Turn innocence to ignorance
Keep closed the mouths
Mute the verbal dissonance...Always

How can we grow with bars about?
Imprisoned in a cell of doubt

Keep closed our eyes
Blind us from the fools unseen
Keep closed our hearts
Drain emotion to plant the seed
Keep closed our minds
Turn innocence to ignorance
Keep closed the mouths
Mute the verbal dissonance...Always

...Always
...Always


3. R.O.T. (REIGN OF TERROR)

Pools of blood of deepest red
Waves that soak the world in dead
Watch the bloodbath as it grows
Drowning all hope as it flows
Fear, gripping
We're, slipping

Watch as the angry masses persecute the weak
As helpless people die...
From death, the air will reek
...Reign of terror

The world's unrest can't be dismissed
A guillotine of hate exists
Ignore and it will have our heads
As anger bathes on our bloodshed
Fear, gripping
We're, slipping

Watch as the innocent
Fall prey to sickened minds
We turn our backs
But we can't leave the fear behind
...Reign of terror

Shadow grows nearer
Blackening fear descends
Darkness speaks clearer
Freedom's light will end

Pools of blood of deepest red
Waves that soak the world in dead
Watch the bloodbath as it grows
Drowning all hope as it flows

Watch as the angry masses persecute the weak
As helpless people die...
From death, the air will reek
...Reign of terror


4. BUTCHER'S BLOCK

Look around, it's all going black
Tons upon tons and it's breaking our backs
We're setting our course
Leading ourselves, one by one
To the butcher's block

We're sharpening the axe ourselves
Grinding it sharper to cut through the world
Touching the blade to the grinding stone
Hold ourselves down awaiting the cut

We're killing ourselves by running away
We've got to stop before it's too late
Six feet under is where we will be
Deeper and deeper
We're digging our own graves

We're sharpening the axe ourselves
Grinding it sharper to cut through the world
Touching the blade to the grinding stone
Hold ourselves down awaiting the cut

If we take the seeds of time
And throw them to the wind
To fall upon the infertile soil
The weeds of carelessness shall overtake the land
Until there is nothing left to destroy
And if we fail we can't go back
We can't go back
It's in our hands
The fate of man

Our heads on the block, is this the end?
The decision is ours, our necks will not mend
We're setting our course
Leading ourselves
To the butcher's block


5. APOCALYPSE

All around men, women and children cry
As they watch the flames
Spewed forth from the sky
Some fall to their knees and
They shield their eyes
They repent of their sins,
None of them wanting to die

Their sins spelled out
In the clouds of smoke
The Earth quakes
With the evils they spoke

No one is safe from this apocalypse...

You'll pray for the end, but it's just begun
The Earth burns as bright as the Sun
The bodies drop as they try to run
The seering flames lending mercy to none

The Earth's engulfed
In the fire and ash
Space echoes
With the cries of the mass

No one is safe from this apocalypse

You stand alone and look about
All are dead, the fire is out
New rivers aflow
And new valleys dug deep
With your face in your hands,
Alone, you weep
With a breath of fresh new air
Comes the land's rebirth
And you smile as you walk onto
The new innocent Earth

No one is safe from this apocalypse


6. A WORLD TO GAIN

Searching to find an easy way out
People afraid to speak up, afraid to doubt
Afraid to open their eyes for fear they might find
What the problem's about...is us

As long as we keep running away
There is no hope, nothing will change
The problems at hand are the ones we must face
We've got nothing to lose
And a world to gain

Starving inside the hunger of one
Willing to help do, this, what must be done
We're wasting our time
Searching for ways to escape
There will be nowhere to run
From ourselves, now

As long as we keep running away
There is no hope, nothing will change
The problems at hand are the ones we must face
We've got nothing to lose
And a world to gain

Far too real, worse than a lie
You couldn't face, the truth inside

One heart lonely and small
To carry the weight of the world
If you and I could take it upon ourselves
To open our eyes to what it could be
We'd be free

As long as we keep running away
There is no hope, nothing will change
The problems at hand are the ones we must face
We've got nothing to lose
And a world to gain

A dangerous faith, it's silence that kills
It's eating at me, I'm haunted still


7. FRIGID BITCH

Lying there on satin sheets
Her body cold her heart still beats
A frozen love is your defeat
Sitting on her icy throne
What she sees she makes her own
Her passion dead as still as stone
Your balls are in her frozen grip
you know you're on a sinking ship
Its passage is a one way trip

Trying hard you can't get through
You've done all that you can do
Hoping that she wants it too
Crawling to her on your knees
All you want to do is please
Fuck up once your mind she'll freeze
Back to her you'll come again
She'll decide just where and when
This pain and torture will it end

You scream and cry
Your dying plea
You try so hard
You can't break free
It's love you want
It makes you itch
You know she is
A frigid fucking bitch

She'll make you cry she'll make you bleed
Infect you with her demon seed
On your soul she does feed
Temptress harlot fucking whore
Knocks you down you're back for more
Leaves you lying on the floor
Leave her side you'd sooner die
You've tempted fate you scream and cry
Shattered dreams all empty lies

You're in her hold you'll do her will
By crushing you she gets her thrill
With twisted words she does kill
In the dark she's always there
Through your flesh she does tear
Smash your hopes she doesn't care
Pain she'll bring to your soul
She's got you now she has control
Your demise her wretched goal


8. FIGHTING EVIL

I know it's true that you're feeling oppressed
I know that some hold you down
But fighting evil with still more evil
Is not the way it's done

We run in circles inside our minds
With no way out or in
If we're not careful they'll get our souls
We musn't let them win

We're fighting evil...

The hands of darkness, they reach out for you
It's not a game we play
Madmen telling, but you don't listen
To a single word they say

We run in circles inside our minds
With no way out or in
If we're not careful they'll get our souls
We musn't let them win

We're fighting evil...

They're blinding your eyes, telling you lies
To bring disorder to the world
But don't you give in
We've got to show them together we can be strong

We run in circles inside our minds
With no way out or in
If we're not careful they'll get our souls
We musn't let them win

We're fighting evil...


9. THE TWISTED CROSS

At night the fires burn, cutting like a flaming knife
Looking down you see rotting carrions of life
Smell the putrid stench, sewage of society
Vultures circling, picking flesh off you and me

Giving genocide its birth
By waging war on the earth
The father-land, the master race
Annihilating all the rest
And serving the Twisted Cross
The Twisted Cross...
The Twisted Cross...

Extinguishing the damned
Letting them rot in the camps
Conquer by death, sadistic rule
Twisting the minds of those deceived
Who worship the Twisted Cross
The Twisted Cross...
The Twisted Cross...

The war machine has set its course
Slaughterhouse in full force
Thousands will fall to this savage lunatic
Before this madman can be stopped
Before we crush the Twisted Cross
The Twisted Cross...
The Twisted Cross...
The Twisted Cross...
The Twisted Cross...


10. ANNIHILATION COMPLETE

More than they need to put us all in chains
Genocidal misfits killing us in vain
Lusting for power, they play a losing game
Turn earth into hell
Stupidity is to blame

Die helplessly
In torment and agony
Falling in defeat
Crying as death we meet
Annihilation is complete

Absolute destruction killing you and me
Power hungry eyes, blind, they'll never see
Devastation takes us all, atomic holocaust
Fuck 'em all Fuck 'em up, everything is lost

We're sitting on death row waiting 'til it's done
Present and past are twisted into one
Pushing it too far
Now the time is late
Destiny will fall
It seems that we've sealed our own fate

Man playing God
Deciding what is right
Upon is a veil
The deadly black of night
The end has come
And taken it away
A fight without a victor
Sanity has gone astray

Absolute destruction killing you and me
Power hungry eyes, blind, they'll never see
Devastation takes us all, atomic holocaust
Fuck 'em all Fuck 'em up, everything is lost


11. INJUSTICE

They manipulate and they mould
The rules they should uphold
His ignorance of the law
The victim's only flaw
His rights in violation
Through sharp intimidation
He's soon to realize that
Their words are full of lies

A scapegoat he now is
Because of the way he lives
He hasn't got a chance
To prove his innocence
People cry for injustice,
But the law will not take heed
Innocent victims get the shaft
But what happened to truth?
...Injustice for all

Coerced to pleading guilt
Their judgements all are built
On bullshit and hearsay
They'll keep him locked away
He rots inside his cage,
His oppression and his rage
Now apathy and disgust
Not a soul now he can trust

A scapegoat he now is
Because of the way he lives
He hasn't got a chance
To prove his innocence
People cry for injustice,
But the law will not take heed
Innocent victims get the shaft
But what happened to truth?
...Injustice for all

Injustice has subdued him
Deceived, repressed, unglued him
No one he can turn to
To wait is all he can do
Persecution obvious
Life becomes oblivious
Fate's found him unwary
He's trapped, he cannot flee...


DISC 2 - REASON REVISITED


1. STOP ME

I remember the lost confusion of innocence
With feelings worn so clean
I wish I could look on this with different eyes
And ignore the blinders reminding me

Older...
Wiser...
Sadder...
Trust has abandoned me long ago
Stolen by careful dishonesty
I have forgotten how...
I have forgotten how...
I have forgotten how... How to believe
Stop me from loving to destroy
Stop me from destroying all I love
Stop me from loving to destroy
Stop me...

The pain has stripped away all rationale
And left suspicion in its place
I wish I could cling to this with different arms
And never know the feeling of loss or emptiness

Older...
Wiser...
Sadder...
Trust has abandoned me long ago
Stolen by careful dishonesty
I have forgotten how...
I have forgotten how...
I have forgotten how... How to believe
Stop me from loving to destroy
Stop me from destroying all I love
Stop me from loving to destroy
Stop me...

The death of youth breathes life into this fear
Suffocating confidence
I die each day so I can save myself
Close my eyes, ignore the truth, and try hard to pretend

So afraid... so afraid... so afriad... of myself...
Stop me... stop me... stop me... what's wrong with me?
Stop me...
What's wrong with me?


2. TERRIFIED

Misted eyes perceive
Thoughts I can't believe
Emotions that run free
Never let me be
Self-inflicted pain
It's a loss without a gain
Lost in myself, I know not why
I can't escape, all truth a lie
I try to run, I cannot hide
I'm so afraid, I'm terrified

Mirror's hollow stare
Reflecting my nightmare
All I see pure hate
Soon I'll suffocate
Confusion taking me
Eclipsing all I see
Lost in myself, I know not why
I can't escape, this fear inside
I cannot run, I cannot hide
Lost in myself, I'm terrified

Silent are the waters
Of life flowing free
Born through illusion
From the depths of me
Engulfed in the current
Of many tears
It carries me to serenity
To serenity...


3. NOT FORGOTTEN

Your ambition has been disrupted
Young minds so easily corrupted
The system is fighting itself
A fatal blow shall be dealt

Thrown into the tide of uncertainty
Have your dreams smashed completely
The norm dictates your future for you
Hopelessness and despair
Face the grim reality
Individual concerns
Eclipse the world's humanity

Corruption won't dissipate
It's standing in your path
Our leaders chase their tails
Frightened by subversive wrath

Thrown into the tide of uncertainty
Have your dreams smashed completely
The norm dictates your future for you
Hopelessness and despair
Face the grim reality
Individual concerns
Eclipse the world's humanity

Redemption is at hand
Your scheme has taken form
We will take the final step
And instigate reform

Thrown into the tide of uncertainty
Have your dreams smashed completely
The norm dictates your future for you
Hopelessness and despair
Face the grim reality
Individual concerns
Eclipse the world's humanity

Looking the other way
Solves nothing of our problems
Take the step and unite
Tomorrow will not be forgotten
Tomorrow will not be forgotten


4. WRONG

Wrong, all that we are
Living, breathing lies
Wrong, all that I feel
All compassion dies

Once hand in hand
And now detached
Befriend the pace
The lonely trance... detached

Wrong, all that I see
Something inside denies
Wrong, all that I feel
Something inside me cries

Once hand in hand
And now detached
Befriend the pace
The lonely trance... detached

What can I say when there are no words?
I can't explain what I cannot understand...

Wrong, all that we do
Dismiss the things we've said
Wrong, all we become
We stumble misguided

Once hand in hand
And now detached
Befriend the pace
The lonely trance... detached

Something in you, something in me
We're trying to control
Something in you, something in me
We're trying to overcome
Something in you, something in me
We're trying to understand
Something in you, something in me
We're trying to break out

What can I say when there are no words?
I can't explain what I can't understand...

Wrong
Wrong
Wrong
Wrong?


5. SILENT CRIME

It's running rampant in our streets
It's lying dormant in our homes
This silent crime we are guilty of
Is enough to sentence us to life or death

It's running rampant in our streets
It's lying dormant in our homes
This silent crime we are guilty of
Is enough to sentence us to life or death

Deny the future
Reject technology
Protest advancement
And you'll shroud the world
In rags of failed ideals...

The fear of change has bound us all
Silent, we watch our world decay
And we'll return to the Dark Ages...
Again... again...

Deny the future
Reject technology
Protest advancement
And you'll shroud the world
In rags of failed ideals...

Stilt the growth and progress dies
Watch our once-spinning world stand still
And in this, the Age of Stagnation, we'll remain

Deny the future
Reject technology
Protest advancement
And you'll shroud the world
In rags of failed ideals...


6. KILLING MY MIND

Aware, yet unaware. Falling, falling, why?
Blind! Ignorance the key, stupidity overrides
My thoughts belong to me, although my mind rebels
Reality, shaded meaning, denial is my cell

Killing my mind

Victimize my own belief
Defy myself! Find no relief
Obtrusive walls cannot reveal
Cast out myself and all I feel

My eyes refuse to se all I must endure
Revealing walls of doubt, reality so obscure
Searching, I'm searching, it's one who's deep within
Beside myself I stand and now I must begin

Killing my mind

Victimize my own belief
Defy myself! Find no relief
Obtrusive walls cannot reveal
Cast out myself and all I feel

The self inside is so sincere
Avoid the truth, the honest fear
Intensify all that remains
Bind it now with self restraints

Victimize my own belief
Defy myself! Find no relief
Obtrusive walls cannot reveal
Cast out myself and all I feel


7. MISSHAPEN INTENT

Wandering aimlessly
Stricken with grief
Self-hatred overflowing
It's eating away
It's eating away
Obstructing virtue
Overwhelming and growing
The enduring might of hatred
Obscuring the strength of love

There are some who live deriving pleasure
From others' anguish
And mental distress
Complete selfishness
Provides a purpose
Compelling us to digress
The enduring might of hatred
Obscuring the strength of love

Tainting the innocent
With spiteful contempt
Tainting the innocent
A shallow, misshapen intent

Oblivious to our hardship
Rehearse the solemn ritual

Oblivious to our hardship
Rehearse the solemn ritual

Wandering aimlessly
Stricken with grief
Self-hatred overflowing
It's eating away
It's eating away
Obstructing virtue
Overwhelming and growing
The enduring might of hatred
Obscuring the strength of love

Tainting the innocent
With spiteful contempt
Tainting the innocent
A shallow, misshapen intent


8. AFRAID TO FEEL

I paint myself on you... the silent wall
My words... my thoughts... my touch... my all
Emotionless... emotionless
So in control of nothingness
This stone-false face you're caged within
Wears thin...

You pour yourself out into me... the lonely thirst
Quenching the emptiness within
But I frighten you... I frighten you...
I take your breath and smother you...
As you fight for your life...
I cling on for mine...
For mine...

So in control... so in control of nothingness

So in control... so in control... afraid to feel
I know you're there somewhere...
Too close to touch
I'm digging too deeply...
You're too clear to see

I frighten you... I frighten you...
I take your breath and smother you...
As you fight for your life...
I cling on for mine...
For mine...


9. CHILD INSIDE

You wear
Like an enemy
A false sense of security
With your bullshit integrity
You'd lose it all for your dignity

And you tell yourself "You're so brave"
Yeah, fight for yours until your dead
Well there's plenty of that already filling holes
Before you use your fists, why don't you use your head?
Sometimes we're overcome by this child inside
We grow, and never grow inside

Well I play games I don't see
Accepting false hospitality
With kind words you disguise deceit
Yeah, I help you and you screw me

And somehow you think you fool someone
Surely someday this mask will fall
You find a strength in one on one
But there's something real in all for all

Sometimes we're overcome y the child inside
We grow, and never grow inside

And you tell yourself "You're so brave"
Yeah, fight for yours until your dead
Well there's plenty of that already filling holes
Before you use your fists, why don't you use your head?
Sometimes we're overcome by this child inside
We grow, and never grow inside


10. VITAL

The gentle embrace of death
Touches my weary soul
I'm closer to the end now
Enough despair! I'm whole!

Destined to make
The right choice
My existence
A constant struggle

Soon I will at last be free
Of my chemical burden
My consciousness is raised
Without society's poison

Destined to make
The right choice
I exist but
I have to feel vital

Helpless, abandoned, relentless attack
Realize my dreams, I can't turn back
Always doubting yet indecisive
Meandering convictions become so pensive

Part of me wants to live
I grope for a reason
Yet I'll be granted solace
Seeming serene... open

Destined to make
The right choice
I exist but
I have to feel vital


11. QUICK TO DOUBT

Was I wrong? Wrong in assuming
That nothing at all, without thought
Would just fall into place?
Was it hope, that something would change me
That led me to see the mistakes
That had gutted my frame?

Was it strength, yearning for purpose?
Or weakness just desperately searching
For something to fix?
To create, from self-induced ruin
To try and rebuild what remains from
What I have destroyed

Why'd I make it so hard?
So quick to doubt?
So ready to fuck myself over...

Was it truth, logic or reason
Disappointment of fear that led me
To question all things
Far beneath self-induced wreckage
I rest in pathetic assurance
That failure is safe

Why'd I make it so hard?
So quick to doubt?
So ready to fuck myself again...

Was I wrong? Wrong in assuming
That nothing at all, without thought
Would just fall into place?
Was it hope, that something would change me
That led me to see the mistakes
That had gutted my frame?

Why'd I make it so hard?
So quick to doubt?
So ready to fuck myself over
So ready to fuck myself again...