1. NO WORDS LEFT

Don’t you know
Why it hurts so much,
When all you need
Is just to keep silent?

Don’t you know
Why it feels so bad
When everyone around
Knows the answer
But keeps it low?

No words left,
Because I don’t want
To open my mouth
Like ashore laying fish.
No words left,
Because my tongue is tired so much
To articulate idle sounds.
Ignorance hurts,
Silence crashes against your walls.

And now I learn to make no complaint,
Make no complaint and wisely think,
To think with words and not with blury images,
Which turned into those damned words.
I myself did not comprehend them
And I wasted to many words
Speaking about nothing.

No words left,
No words left to portray my frightful thoughts.
I can’t analyse them.
No words left.
No more pain, no more fear,
No more grief, no more humiliation.


2. MISANTHROPY

Repulsed by humanity,
Blinded by hate,
I watch my sanity fading away,
Mass torture images,
Global orgy of pain
I observe in my mind,
As I realize
I was born to murder the world!

Towards you all I feel nothing but hate,
Sadistic images my mind creates,
Sickening ways to make them reality
Dark force in my brain demands brutality!
Mutilated bodies, ripped apatr,
Dismembered, saturated in steaming blood,
Spread wide intestants,
Decapitated heads,
No fuckin' mercy for human rats!


3. ESCAPE FROM ONESELF

I see by a splinter of an artificial eye
The shadows of the leaving people,
Which I trusted not long ago.
I toss about on the corridor
Of the cluttered consciousness
And seek for exit from madness,
Seek to oneself for a place,
A chink to escape from oneself.

I tried to help the drowning friends,
But they just laughed
At the extended hand
And sunk into the swamp.

It is repugnant to to bang by the head
Against a wall in hope
That someone will see the bare surface of pain,
Which has overfilled my mind
And asks to let it out.

I’ve lost the way.
How to find the exit from
The endless tunnel of uncertainty?
It’s so hard to realize one’s weakness and uselessness.
To drop on bottom with scream
“Please, hold me back!”