1. PATTERNS OF REDEMPTION

I built castles mountain high
Devotedly fulfilled
Solid but bleak
From deep inside
My great shelter of nothingness
Marvelous mask for the vile wretched mind
Buried behind these empty eyes
Scourges of the past so sharp
Carving wounds that forever rot
Exterminating hope
From this shattered world
Stabbing another dagger in my profane soul
Lifetime reminder of fortune I have lost
Searching for the ways to connect all the dots
I’m gaining strength to accept the loss

My conscience is forever awake
Struggling to maintain what’s left
Guilty I will serve my time
Guilty I will serve my time
Straying through this maze of life
Exploring patterns of redemption
Stabbing another dagger in my profane soul
Lifetime reminder of fortune I have lost
Searching for the ways to connect all the dots
I’m gaining strength to accept the loss
My conscience is forever awake
Struggling to maintain what’s left
Aware
Lacerations can be healed only if you open wide the gates of your heart
And strive for another chance in this spiteful presence
With the wisdom of awareness
Obtained through the years of sadness