1. SURREALITY

Life like sand slips through the cracks
My memories drift into the past

Ages pass while seconds die
The screws loosened, unhinging my mind

In dark voids my spirit calls
Into the absymal sleep I fall

The visions of reality
Are now denied by my sight
This existence of falsity
Is cast aside...

Awakening my dream soul

Ecstasies echo passionately
My delighted eyes yearn more to see

Endlessly I gaze into beauty
Of ethereal realms, surrounding me

I want to stay forever
For eternity
Indescribable pleasures
Have too long denied me

Images begging to swirl
Astral scenes not of the world

Light cascade within my mind
Coalescing, growing bright

Mirrored forms begin to melt
As shadows dislodge and fade

Reality an evolved fantasy
As my sanity is now peeled away

Enslaved by my subconscious
From my twisted dreams, I'll not escape

My thoughts supressed I cannot wake


2. EVE OF ECLIPSE

Captured by the unholy divine
Branding her breast with sign
Intensely torturing her body
In carnal lust, raping sodomy

Unto you a whore appease
To procreate the demon seed
Demented minds beyond sick
Spawning evil, wreakers of havoc

Sick demonic priests
Breed the unholy beasts
The birthing of new evils
Turns the world nocturnal

Conjured through the invocation
This savior shall bring our damnation
Evil spells are wove in hate
As the undead dance on parade

Creating maelstroms of fear
The dawn of the new lord is here
Summoned forth by the bishops
During the eve of eclipse

The murky changeling
Starts to augmentate
Within the womb
It effervesces and mutates

Chants all complete
Noxious winds sweep
Expelled from her chest
To seal man's fate

The veil of death begins to fall
Descending shroud consumes earth whole
Spilling like rain down from above
In divine lifeforce creation drowns

Cracking skin begins to peel
Rotting shell now reveals
Crusted blood dried to the slain
Maggots infest grotesque remains


3. DIVINE ENLIGHTENMENT

You spend your life chasing a dream
And say he guides your destiny
Live by the laws of prophecy
To exist in depravity

Why...

Upon your knees
You kneel and pray
Believing you draw strength faith
A dismal end
You know awaits
The emptiness of your cold grave

Can he truly save
Or are you a mindless slave
Will you find the way
Or find you signed your soul away

Yet live for a god unseen
And praise the holy dream
Claiming you have found new life
In the warmth of his migth

I resist and cannot see
The light of your expectancy
I choose to dwell in reality

Preach eternal life
For following blind
Foolishly you'll pay
To insure you'll be saved


4. DREADING THE MARMOW

Standing alone I wait
For destiny to seal my fate

Judgement passed upon
By the breaking of dawn

Exiled to never see
The day when I will be free

I suffer throughout infinity
Enslaved to perrenial agony


5. EMBRACE

As denial envelopes
And expands deep inside
Writhing internally
Disarrying my mind
Contorting my thoughts
Into agony and pain
I estrange and depart
This life I forsake

My will to live on is gone
To die is what I long
Contemplate ways to die
As escape from pathetic life

Forlorn hope
Now slips away
My vitality
Hopelessly fades
My death will se me free
To rest
In serenity

My lunacy debilitates
And reasoning begins to fail
The will to be capitulates
I surrender to my self hate

My mind reels out of control
Dementia has taken hold
Hallucinations take their toll
Upon my withering soul

The blades touch is cold as ice
A flash of light blinds my eyes

I lacerate my flesh and vein
Vital lifeforce now inundates
Blood puddles spray from my wrists
Etched on my face a look of bliss

As I lie, watching time
I embrace the end of my life
Now set free, to journey
Where darkness caresses me

My life gone
Essence withdrawn
Lying deceased a blood stained memory


6. SHELL OF A BEING

Deceived by the unseen forces
That lurked within his mind
Dwelling in the distorting bottle
Changing thy fate for all of time
Personality and intelligence crucified
Crushing all will to live
Never finding the needed escape
Drifting endlessly, his soul to take

Thrust into adolescent perversity
Scars that can never be healed
Many a tale that was never told
The darkest misery takes its hold

Running through life, hoping for death
Seeking an end with every last breath
Temporarily pacifying the dread
With a false and twisted infatuation
Games of the mind bringing it down
High to low within seconds
Brainwashed by the eternal liar
Bringing you to your funeral pyre

The moment of the deepest sorrow
Comes to this shell of a being
The cold black metal pressed to his chest
The evil inside lays him to eternal rest


7. DEAD LIGHTS GLARE

Stricken by my darkest fears
And deprived of my golden years
Condemned by perpetual time
Existence is my only crime

The flames within
Flickering in a latent haze
The exhuasted breath of life dissipates

Benumbing tears
Draining from me eyes
As I lament
Moments before I die

Enthralled by quietudes somnolent hold
As the dead lights seduce my inner throne

My persona soars
Toward the light
Into the aperture
Seeking new life