1. TRIPS

(Instrumental)


2. ABOVE & BEYOND

You have taken your expectations
From the crypt of darkness and fear
You have taken them to the surface
And now the hour draws near
Now you must take them just one step further
To where all of your thoughts are so clear

Be severe, choose to be strong
Don't abandon the core of your self
Believe that you are fit
To deliver the pearl from its shell

Scared to be an intimidation
To the ones who surround you in life
You have bowed to assimilation
As if she was a queen in her hive
Now you must stand by your aspirations
And the things for which you truly strive


3. BACK WHERE I BELONG

I saw your shadow in a dream
You were so close to me it seemed
But I awoke to the blazing sun
And what we had I knew was gone

Dangerous powers with which we toyed
An honest friendship to be destroyed
Every word fired a special spark
That before was in the dark

Please pretend everything's alright
Don't go changing your mind
Please be there for me
As I will be
I can be anything you want
Anything that you need
Please be there for me

You're on my mind
Might always be
You've been shoved in a corner of my mind
I'll pull you out
Sometimes to see
But I will leave you behind

Now I'm falling
Now I'm falling
Now I'm falling
Right back to you


4. MISGUIDED

Staring at a field of fire
In the light shed by the moon
I’m feeling strangely dire
In the light shed by the moon

Over plains and jagged mountains
You never seemed this hollow
You lead us now into the fire
Did you think I’d follow?

I saw you cry
I saw you fall a thousand times
You always got back on your feet
But now I think you’re dying

Standing on a field of fire
I’d never thought we’d part so soon
It was you whom I admired
I saw your light and not your doom

To me you looked so resolute
Your spirit never seemed low
You’re sacrificing life and sense now
But did you think I’d follow?


5. ALL I AM

All I am
I am because of you
Everything's been shaped by you
All of my achievements
I achieved through you
Now I fall behind
You always pulled me through

All I am
All I do
Everything's been shaped by you
This isn't me and now I see it
Your dressing me up felt like I was your plaything
Going your direction made me trip and fall behind
You must let go because you're strangling me but
Now I breathe fresh air

This why I'm breaking free from you
Just to know what’s real
I'll walk the rocky road and feel
The wind beneath my wings

Can't you see
I'm trying hard to be
Everything I ought to be
But I seem to fail you
Time and time again
You still ask of me
All that I can bear to lose

Can't you see
You are keeping me
from being what I ought to be
This isn’t me and now I see it
I am not like you nor do I ever want to
I have my own premises and plan to live by those
You kept me long but now I’m tearing free
And now I breathe fresh air


6. MY APOLOGY

Take your sneaky eyes away and let me move at ease
Take your judging mind away and let me live in peace

Sorry that you thought I was supposed to be like you
Sorry that you think I really never had a clue
I don’t believe I know it all
Sorry that I disappointed all your hopes in me
Sorry that you think I am not all that I could be
I just have to be me

There’re too many things inside me
Too much chaos in my head
I just can’t adapt to your way
Accept as truth the things you say

Sorry I don’t fit your picture of integrity
Sorry that I question vital parts of your believes
Just let me live my life
Sorry if your bliss lies in your mediocrity
Sorry if I don’t agree with that philosophy
I just can’t agree

Take your rules and apply them to yourself
I don’t need your guidance and I don’t need your help


7. AND I YOU

Out of reason
Out of strength
We’ve forgotten all
That we used to have
All those hours
Spent together
We were convinced it
Would last forever
I saw your face
You saw mine
Did we ever
See the soul behind?

We thought we could effortlessly
Carry on this way but
I exploited you
And you exploited me

I thought I knew you
And you thought you
Knew me as well but
All we knew was
A reflection of ourselves

Out of reason
Out of strength
We avoided
And we talked at length
We grew into
Distant people
Were unable to
Reconcile ourselves
You were hopeless
I was not
I’m still grieving and
You’re still in my thoughts


8. STAY (ALBUM VERSION)

You don't know me
You don't know me at all
You haven't seen a thing of me yet
You cannot see
That which I do not expose
So you don't know
What a mess I am

I don't want you
I don't want you to know
How I feel inside because I already know
You wouldn't care
For you would not understand
How deep inside
This shit's suppressed by me

I turn around to you, babe
Can you see me
Or your vision of me instead?

Stay in your state of bliss
Stay you don't want to feel like this
I'll stay away from you
Or I'll devour you

I can't see you
I cannot reach out to you
From where I stand and so I stand still
But when I see you
Reaching out of your realm
I yearn for you
Wish I could trust in you


9. SHALLOW

You cut your clothes, you dye your hair
To show them you’re so damn unique
You make believe that you don’t care
You get lost in your mystique
Everyone’s oblivious
so you decide to make them stare
Make them realize your pain
And that you are a scare

You wallow in self pity
You wallow in your outcast state
You wallow in your thoughts alone
You’re shallow to the bone


10. THE IRRESISTIBLE FEELING

The irresistible feeling
Just comes alive and gets stronger
It’s way too tempting to ignore it
I can’t control
I’m giving in to it and let go
Oh what a rush to my brain
I fear I’m losing my sen-ses
But I can’t complain

You’ll forget your good intentions
I tell you what is true
I’ll take you to a world you have never known
Made of sin
Cause you’ll forget when I captivate you
What is burdening you
Don’t try to fight it
Don’t lie and hide it
I’m complacency to you

I escape into imagination
I can feel my dreams become real
I’m only here for satisfaction
Then I’ll be gone
The key is my determination
It needs a turn to steal me away
Through flaring flames and seas of sickness
I walk and grow so tall

I can’t look into my own eyes now
I need to hide in disguise
My needs are chasing me somehow
I can’t deny
You’re saying everything’s alright now
Just give in to me and you’re fine
I’d never dare to turn against you
My love divine


11. DOWN IN THE DARKNESS

Come on baby
Take a ride with me, baby
And I still wait for someone
To see my life’s not yet begun
And take me on

Out of control
Still I'm here
Where can I go
When I'm stumbeling?
Down in the darkness
Where my life waits to be found
Down in the Darkness
Alone

Come on baby
Take a ride with me, baby
For I refuse to believe
My life’s the best it can be
presently

Losing my soul
Still I'm here
I scream your name
It's so humbeling
Down in the darkness
Where my love waits to be found
Down in the darkness
With you?


12. MUCH AFRAID

There’s always someone else
Someone better than myself
Someone who lives my ideal
Doesn’t matter how
Or which path I choose to go
I always turn to find
Someone stepped beyond this door
Nothing left here to explore
Someone’s done all this before
Better than myself

I am so sick of my own mediocrity
I could be anything that I choose to be
Yet I belie all of my capabilities
I’m just afraid that I will fail miserably

There’s always something that
Will allow me to be small
Something to hide my failures
Doesn’t matter who
Or what makes me imperfect
I must convince myself to
My fears and inhibitions
Learn to trust in my decisions
And finally grow to be
Better than myself

I could be anything
That I choose to be
I’m just afraid
That I will fail miserably


13. RISE

You’ve taken more than you have promised
I’m left to linger on my own
I’m trembling, crumbling, crawling on my knees
In remnants of our broken home

Despite your vicious words I’ve risen
From bleeding hands and brui-sed feet
Despite the fear and doubt you planted
I’ve overcome your foul and sickening seed

In my soul there’s an o-cean
made of faith and fortitude
In my soul my de-vo-tion
Left me rage and solitude

You blinded me with words enchanting
You swore you’re firmly on my side
You’d comfort me again. I made believe
When I already lived in misery