1. WASTED YOUTH

How long can i carry on like this?
Hiding in clouds of smoke, Where is the real you? Where is the courage to face these days without putting your mind in a cloudy haze? We all need an escape from time to time, but I've been running forever. So I'm drawing a line. Starting to to ask myself why?

Why do I have to get high just to feel normal? I hit the bottle 'cause it helps me to get by. I drown my sorrows 'cause it's easier than staring down my demons, but

I'm running out of excuses, I'm running out of reasons.

Shot after shot you go straight from the bottle. The world can wait while you poison your mind. Stumble around like there will be no tomorrow, 'cause each day's harder than the one before.

Some drink for approval and some to forget, but it's been weeks since you've been sober and you're starting to sweat.

Why do I have to get high just to feel normal? I hit the bottle 'cause it helps me to get by. I drown my sorrows 'cause it's easier than staring down my demons, but I'm running out of excuses, I'm running out of reasons.

You're facing the truth and it's harder to swallow. The consequence of being selfish and shallow.

Feels like I've wasted another day. Another night out getting wasted. Another day stuck in this room, not wanting to leave my bed. I've got a head filled with drugs, a heart filled with hate. I need to change my ways before it's too late.

Why do I have to get high just to feel normal? I hit the bottle 'cause it helps me to get by. I drown my sorrows 'cause it's easier than staring down my demons, but I'm running out of excuses, running out of reasons.


2. LIE TO ME

I'm always justifying choices, always second guessing myself.
It's getting harder each time I leave now.
Why do I put myself through this hell?

How much more do you expect me to give? I've put my life on the line for this
and I'd give so much more if only I could
but I've given my heart and my soul as it is

So lie to me, lie to me.
Tell me everything will be ok, 'cause I can't handle the truth anyway.
Lie to me, lie to me. Tell me that you won't give up on me, 'cause I believe every word that you say.

Can anyone even hear me?
I've been screaming at the top of my lungs. I've gone blue in the face but you won't turn away and I'm holding back what I've wanted to say.

How much more do you expect me to give? I've put my life on the line for this
and i'd give so much more if only I could
but I've given my heart and my soul as it is

So lie to me, lie to me.
Tell me everything will be ok, 'cause I can't handle the truth anyway.
Lie to me, lie to me. Tell me that you won't give up on me, 'cause I believe every word that you say.


3. THE WORST PART (HERE'S TO YOU)

You're moving further away.
Going down a road I just can't take.
I wish that I could say I didn't need this change, but I needed this break from you to see.

The worst part of me was always you.
I can't believe all the things that I've let you put me through and all the times I let your shitty mood affect my outlook too. The best thing I've done for me was letting go of you.

You're only pushing me away. I don't care about your reasons, I'm over you.
I wish that I could say I didn't need this change, but I needed this break from you to see.

The worst part of me was always you.
I can't believe all the things that I've let you put me through and all the times I let your shitty mood affect my outlook too. The best thing I've done for me was letting go of you.

I've had enough for a lifetime of your negative attitude. I need a break for my sanity. I need to stay away from you.

I wish that I could say I didn't need this change, but I needed this break from you
to see the truth.

The worst part of me was always you.
I can't believe all the things that I've let you put me through and all the times I let your shitty mood affect my outlook too. The best thing I've done for me was letting go of you.


4. STAY TONIGHT

It's been a lifetime since I've seen you,
forever since I've felt free. So many things I never told you. That might've changed our history.

I'm just getting by now. Just living day to day. You're the comfort that I hate but I keep coming back to you. There's so much I never told you. So much I need to say.
I know I made mistakes. I wish you hadn't walked away.

You know that I'm not perfect, not everything you need. I'm no prince charming but you're everything to me.

You know this isn't healthy, the way we lead each other on. I want to cut you off but this is better than being alone.
I can't keep doing this. All you do is walk all over me. This isn't what I missed.

You know that I'm not perfect, not everything you need. I'm no prince charming but you're everything to me.
I know it's late, but I don't want you to leave. I'm not asking for forever, just stay tonight with me.

It's been a lifetime since I've seen you, forever since I've felt free. So many things I never told you. That could've changed our history.

You know that I'm not perfect, not everything you need. I'm no prince charming but you're everything to me.
I know it's late, but I don't want you to leave. I'm not asking for forever, just stay tonight with me.


5. CAVE IN

This wedge between us
seems like its growing by the day,
I know you’re sick of hearing
These empty words & living this way.

But Don’t give up on us
Don’t you dare give up on me
I’m still the one you swore you loved
And you’d never leave

I hate who I've become
Ever since you left I've been
picking up pieces & falling apart
But you'll be the reason I cave in
You'll be the reason

everything I was has been stripped down
I’m just a shell of who I once was now
I can barely breathe, I can barely see
Oh my god, what’s becoming of me

Will I find my way back out
Or will I stay here & never grow
Will I learn to stand on my own
Or burn out in this house alone

I hate who I've become
Ever since you left I've been
picking up pieces & falling apart
But you'll be the reason I cave in
You'll be the reason

You say you barely know me now
I’m never home
I’m never there at all
We’ve been clinging to what we used to be
And I know it isn’t fair
I can’t expect you still to care

I hate who I've become
Ever since you left I've been
picking up pieces & falling apart
But you'll be the reason I cave in
You'll be the reason


6. TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN

You always said I could be anything.
So I followed my dreams, but you couldn't understand, couldn't see past what it seemed. Your perspective is twisted. You only see what you know. Never looking past the struggles to see the ways I've grown.

Now all that I've worked for has come to fruition, You still stand in my way
like I need your permission.

You're two faced and a fake. You only stood in my way, but I'll be fine. I'm ok.
I never needed you anyway. I've given everything to live out this dream to end up with nothing but memories.

You never showed you believed.
Never listened when I told you, this is not just a dream & I won't let you control me.
The only family I need is the one I made for me, full of people who believe in and appreciate me.

This is my warning, my final goodbye.
When I leave you'll never see me again and now you'll know why.

You're two faced and a fake, you only stood in my way, but I'll be fine. I'm ok.
I never needed you anyway. I've given everything to live out this dream to end up with nothing but memories.

If I could make you see why I give up everything, you wouldn't turn your back on me.


7. EVERYTHING I KNOW

No, I won't give up until i have the life I know I want and I won't let go, holding onto everything I know.

I've been hanging on for what feels like a lifetime. With every step I took and all the strength I could gather. I still felt like I was failing. I'm still a disaster. Still the same old kid that never would grow up, but I knew that I was meant for so much more so I kept singing.

No, I won't give up until i have the life I know I want and I won't let go, holding onto everything I know.

Feels like I have to run so far away to escape mistakes that I made from yesterday. You could say, I'm still a disaster. Still the same old kid that never would grow up, but I knew that I was meant for so much more so I kept singing.

No, I won't give up until i have the life I know I want and I won't let go, holding onto everything I know.

I won't let you stop me.
This is everything.
I won't let you stop me.
I'll find a way again.