1. RED MEDIC

My thoughts left alone are a dangerous thing
They are hard to confront with dignity
Every conclusion has offered no change
No peace of mind, peace of mind

I've felt outcast and it's kept me distant
It's kept me resistant to the only grace worth giving into
I act on anger and think with my fist
To keep me from feeling like I've lost control

But I've slipped too far to pull my weight
Out of the grave I made my home

I used to look for a hiding spot
This isn't what I had in mind

There must be more outside of
The skin that holds my bones in place
And then I met a man
Dressed in different faces
I recognized him by the hope in the way that he spoke to me

His words suggested purpose
That I started to see in my own reflection
Could it be there is truth in me?
Could it be there is truth in me?

My lungs are coming alive
My lungs are coming alive
Breathing life into the ghost I used to be
I can't remain quiet

We're designed for a purpose
Let where I've been give you peace
Hope is here

And then I met a man
Dressed in different faces
I recognized him by the hope in the way that he spoke to me
Hope is here

There must be more outside of
The skin that holds my bones in place.


2. FORGIVEN NOT FORGOTTEN

Why am I still around?
Why do I even bother?
You caused this darkness in my heart
You created the bitterness of my soul
So what’s enough or is it just too late
He gave you breath of life
But why, no one knows
One last try or should I see myself out?
That’s what the others have done
Everyone has turned their back to you
You asked for this
You’ve run away with your tail between your legs
You’re reaping what you’ve sown
There is a connection that can’t be broken
As much as I want to let go
I’d love to see you come to the other side
Cross this river and be welcomed
You are forgiven
He gave you breath of life
But why, no one knows
One last try or should I see myself out?
Is it just to be an example for what not to do?
I refuse to believe it
I say it’s time for a change
Pray for another direction


3. COME CLEAN

We’re all just sinking ships
We never asked to be this way
But we bring it on ourselves
God’s not the one to blame
The devil has our hand and knows how to work
We calmly gave it to him
Simply placed it in his hand
You noticed way too late
You’re falling further away
Surrounded by walls of misery
It’s time to climb your way out
If you try it alone
You’ll dig yourself deeper
Hold on tight
I want to do right by you
You need all the help you can get
Live your life
But don’t drag us down with you
You need all the help you can get
Live your life
But don’t drag us down with you
You need all the help you can get
Through all the pain you brought
Through all the negative things you’ve sent my way
I still feel the same
It’s time to face your problems like a man
Stop running
Stop running from them and pushing them aside
They’ll come to haunt you sooner than you think
Hold on tight
I want to do right by you
You need all the help you can get
Live your life
But don’t drag us down with you
You need all the help you can get
Grab the rope that’s been thrown to you
You need all the help you can get
Embrace the hope that’s been poured on you
This could be the last chance you get
I want to do right by you
But don’t drag us down with you
Reach out


4. WHITE NOISE

The emotions that keep me down
The feelings that hold me back
When time isn’t on my side
What’s next?
Another disappointment used for distraction?
These past years have been a mirage
Something to keep me from the truth
I’ve put my focus on so many things
That don’t even matter
If I could throw them in a box and burn it
Would I do it?
Bury what has been disintegrated
If I could throw it in the ocean
Would it sink or be a constant reminder?
I’m asking familiar questions
And repeating the same lines
Unsure of what I’m saying
But faith couldn't come at a better time
One of the few things I have not lost
Cause without faith
What leg would I stand on?
The emotions that keep me down
The feelings that hold me back
When time isn’t on my side
What’s next?
With all of life’s obstacles
What’s the next path hold?
Unsure of what I’m saying
But faith could not have come at a better time
One of the few things I have not lost
Cause without faith
What leg would I stand on?


5. ILLUMINATION

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6. THE GRATEFUL PREY

The threats we receive
The torment we endure
The demons that remain steady and resilient
They’re the shadows that followed me
Mocking my every move
I’m not the only one
No one can hide
They hunt us down and tear us apart
Without a care in the world
From strength to fear in a single breath
Within seconds we can feel powerless
You who were once a part of me
I promise you
I will never see that face again
Unable to move
But able to pray
Hopeful and wishing I gave it a try
I took a leap of faith
To make it all disappear
To make it all vanish
The evil that was around me
Took hold and stared me in the face
Sinking in deep
Luckily I was scared into something
I don’t believe in
This unseen realm
Came to pay me a visit
Unable to move
But able to pray
Hopeful and wishing I gave it a try
You, who were once a part of me
I promise you
I will never see that face again


7. DE(V)TAILS

This is a nightmare
And we’re the ones to blame
We’re the ones who need to
Make things change
Lead by example
You've heard it too many times before
Well what’s stopping it from
Sinking in
I followed man’s footsteps
And now look where I’m at
Stuck in a chamber of sadness and regret
Even I didn't know what to expect
What would happen
How things change
Everywhere I look
Something is blurred
Influenced turned to impurity
Happiness turned to perversion
And only God knows how long this will last
I've changed and contorted
My identity
The secrets I hold are finding the light
Slowly dragging me down
It’s like I’m standing in a pit of quicksand
What’s been twisted
Can’t be perfectly straight again
By God, I’ll do my best
So I’m taking what’s on the inside
And throwing it all away
Hoping for some comfort
This is a nightmare
Make things change
Lead by example
You've heard it too many times before
Well what’s stopping it from
Sinking in?
I want to be the light in the dark
Not the weight that pulls you down


8. REPTILIAN TONGUE

What we say is what we believe
So choose your words wisely
And be careful what you wish for
You just might get it
Keep in mind that no one’s words impact you
More than your own
Gather your thoughts
And choose your words wisely
You should know what you become


9. OBSTRUCT

I've taken off my cloak
I've removed this sin from my heart
From my soul from my mind
Where have I gone wrong?
What is the next stop?
I've removed this sin from my heart and mind
I cannot hear you
I can’t hear you
I don’t feel you near
It’s like my eyes have been sewn shut
As if my ears have been covered with the devil’s hands
It’s clear I've lost control
It’s clear I've slipped away
I need your light to show me the way
This is just a lack of communication
I need your light to show me the way
I need to be free of this
I need to be free of the shackles I’m in
What is my last resort
To rip my way out?
I need your light to show me the way


10. SELF-DISCLOSURE

Shelter me, Oh Lord
I haven’t let go
It’s times like these that I seem to
Reach out
You are the guide
I've been asking for
You are the God
I've been searching for
So I've opened my arms
To feel your embrace
I have no doubt
You can change my life
Dig to the deepest darkest part of me
And pull out the filth
Make me whole
I want to be one with You
Let me be one with You
Take away my clothes of mourning
And clothe me with your joy
I’m not worthy
Yet you can do it anyway
Get in my face God
I want to lock eyes
With the eyes of fire
You are the God
I've been searching for
So I've opened my arms
To feel your embrace
I have no doubt
You can change my life
Dig to the deepest darkest part of me