1. VOLITION

My whole life
I would watch as you burn
That last drag, a storm fills your lungs
Rotting your core
As the ashes fall off your tounge
Too tough to feel the heat
This genocide stick you feed
Corrupting the minds
Of our Brothers
Our Mothers and our Fathers

It's times like these
That keep us alive
Building us up
While our world dies
It's days like these
We need to survive
Building up the world
With our own cries

Breathing in the bullet
Bleeding out the agony
Letting go is cold
When you're rotting away
Release these shackles
Binding your lips to the thought
That you can't live without
Your life never felt so selfless

It's times like these
That keep us alive
Building us up
While our world dies
It's days like these
We need to survive
Building up the world
With our own cries

Keep us alive
While our world dies

We can't blame you
We can see you
We know your intentions
We can see through the tension
We can see you fighting
We can see you trying

We all die
Maybe from our own volition


2. ROT

I need my soul
To part from my body
I want my teeth to disintegrate
Let my skin wither away
My heart must be ripped from my chest
Through all the ribs and bones
And split into the nothing it is
Pour my guts out for all to see
This body is now obselete

Crack my skull
Pick apart my brain
That's the only way I'll feel again
Maybe I'll be with him
There is no more pain

No sickeness can reach this high
No heartbreak
No mind will go to
The darkest corners to sit and rot

In death there is happiness

Push my thoughts
To the back of my mind
Only to feel rest again
Searching for something
But always hiding

Drowning my pain
In a pool of grief
Lay to rest this boyancy and sink
Be submerged
In the thought of complacency
Life is about the moments
Bathe in it
There's no second chance

I'm already half way down the road
And there's no turns
I still can't see the end


3. DESTROY (A MOTHER'S BEAUTY)

Living behind a pew
I went searching for sin
When it's right in the room
My vision was foggy
Never seeing
The people that needed me
How could I not see
I lay a waste for mother
Who is too strong to scream
And I am too strong to believe
I fix my eyes
Toward this window to my soul
I was so cold

I lived a shameful life
Spreading hate with judgement
I never lived until it was over
But then it was too late
It's never enough for me

My cup filled with tears
From my mothers pain
That's not what I wanted to believe
She's beautiful and free

I drink this cup on Sunday
Searching for peace
Without understanding
Searching for religion
As a form of release

God's hands were clean
I stuck the needle in my eye

We live in a world of hate
A broken bone for every home
It's not enough we want more
Let's take this crown
Put it on and make it our own

Trying to forget the things I've seen And destroying the hope of beauty
The love for my mother
Was everything I couldn't be


4. ADVERSARY

You're keeping secrets
How convenient
Well my hearts gone numb
There's no starting this up again
Looking outside has never brought Such a heavy burden
It weighs me down like the black soul
That's rotten inside of me
This dead weight's suffocating me
This burning hate inside my brain

Has never
Been let out

It's fierce and dark
With nothing to control it
The devil sings
To me while I lay silent
Hoping for this hell to end at any moment
It's like time is moving in slow motion
It's fierce and dark
But I'm learning to control it
The devil sings
But I refuse to hear it
Knowing that this hell will end at any moment
Frame by frame
I have my eyes wide open

My grave and all it's entirety
Is everything I'll ever be
A walking theif
I wouldn't trust me
I'm everything you shouldn't be

I blame myself
I was selfish and lost
After everything you given me
I was still too busy
Blinding myself to the reality
Living in the fantasy

I couldn't stand to see you like that
I'd hide it in the back of my mind
Hoping I wouldn't find it
I never buried it deep enough
It would always surface
It chews up my heart
And spits it out
Like it wasn't worth the flavor

I'm sorry I wasn't there for you
Like you were there for me
I'm sorry I didn't care for you
Like you would've cared for me


5. 3/10 (A FATHER'S PAIN)

I was there that night
Waiting for the dark cloud to come
Trying to ignore the doubt
He was resting
After begging for more relief
In a coma of symphonies
I'd like to think
He went to meet God
To make sure we were taken care of

This can't keep me
From being the man you were to me
Never feeling anthing short of a miracle
In this dark pit of the world
Passing on your legacy

Now I'm stripped bare
Sick of my skin
And I'm done with my head
This cancer eats at him
As it sneeks
Through the halls of our home
A Father's pain is priced too high
Those months would never be enough

His side of the bed is still indented
From the love
That's bearing a hole to the floor
I can feel him amongst these rooms
Of grief and disbelief
Making his way
To the hearts of his family
Some were born to be fathers
You outshined it

This can't keep me
From being the man you were to me
Never feeling anthing short of a miracle
In this dark pit of the world
Passing on your legacy

Rest your eyes
You deserve it
We're never going to end this fight
But it's time
And I don't know if I'm ready
How could I be
There's nothing about this that is easy
Those seven pounds are still beating

Paralyze the hands on that clock
Before that last gasp is shot
Out of his lungs
But how selfish can I be
Live in suffering
Or die in peace
Let that breath be filled with love
Hold it in, hold it in