Thoughts about Suiside...... As a Safety~valve!?!
You can have suisidel feelings & thoughts regulary or often But that can be mitigated by how much you actually plan Or think through taking actions to acheive that actually happening!?! Seeming as Ive struggled with many life & medical
Issues for a long time suisidal related feelings thoughts & images have been "running like a film" in the back of my mind/self most of my life!?! But knowing that should certain situations occur I wont be left totally trapped it dosnt need to be used Every day month year that Im still here part of me is shocked!! I never eXpected to last/live this long.
Depression every time is like a very slow

kinda Death & it puts me more at
Risk of "Not holding on" or of acting out of character. Generally speaking Im a fighter & had to be from day 1 & Dont want to make it "easy for my enemys"!?!

But there IS a great amount of releif & release in creating the "alternate spaces for more Private & Painfull stuff to go into~along with Music & other Arts=My own "Safety valves"
After All its My life & I know what gives me
Stress & releif.....
He who makes a Beast of himself~gets rid of the Pain of