1. THE DEEP END

Everything's the same
My own reflection's lost in staring at the frame
Of who I used to be
Rebuilt to place the blame
On someone else's shoulders
How does it feel?
Oh, God it used to smother me

Head full of mistakes
A cloud of my regrets
A human thought grenade
Don't make me pull the pin
And it blows my mind
Feelings are left behind

Heavy hearts are weighed down from the inside

Do I even need to question
Where you hide the life you give me
The breath you take when leaving
Are you even trying to find me now
Can you tell me where I'm heading
Drowning in the deep end

The cracks I count on these lonely walks home
Have caught my thoughts and seen the bottom of my soul
And the place that I lay my head to sleep
Is sure to catch the rest of me
While I dream of what it feels like to be whole

You know it's hard to wake up whole in an empty bed
Taking its toll sinking me slow instead
Hard to wake up whole in an empty bed
Taking its toll sinking me slow instead

Drowning in the deep end


2. PERFECT WORLD

In a perfect world, you're crawling back to me
But that's absurd, cause it'll never happen

You broke away from it all, need a little space to breathe
But you were jumping the gun, took another shot at me
I've been so inclined to tell you, all the places
I've been going without the weight,
of a self destructive waste you were to me
You're lust fades away with each lie
Well my minds made up, you can't have it all

In a perfect world, you're crawling back to me
But that's absurd, cause it will never happen
Wait my turn, I know you're gonna get what you deserve
It's too late to make amends from what I've learned,
by every bridge you've burned

I have to give it to you, you play the part so very well
You live to lure the ones too pure,
the difference they can't tell
But no mistake about it, you're a trouble
I can't seem to put to bed
While I've got you tangled in my head
You're lust fades away with each lie
Well my minds made up, you can't have it all

Stay away from me Stay away from me
Well how many times will you lead me to think?
That this could be something, I'm not listening

In a perfect world, you're crawling back to me
But that's absurd, cause it will never happen
Wait my turn, I know you're gonna get what you deserve
It's too late to make amends
In a perfect world [x4] But it will never happen


3. POISONS

Take a breath and a break to clear this bitter taste
that's in my mouth
To fight the fear of all we've thrown away
Still I lie here awake, with a chest so vacant
Sense of hope that our loves just latent
And I'm tired of just pretending,
we'll ever have a perfect ending
How could you give up on us, give up on me

And its killing me, how you willingly
You found somebody else along the way,
and you know that it's true

If you wouldn't suffocate your head
with what your heart misread, you'd see it all so clear
Swallow those lies, til it dies of the same old causes
Hope to God, that I cut your losses
But I swear, I'm done pretending
Its never going to be the same, again
We clench our teeth to hide the truth,
our tongues can taste the words they fail to speak
Fail to speak the truth

Maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm selfish
Say that I lose the things I love
Drown it all out, leaving me breathless
Keeping me safe til I wake up
Say what you want, you did this for fun
I know what you've done

And its killing me, how you willingly
You found somebody else along the way [x3]
I know that it's true


4. WON'T YOU LISTEN

Have we been blinded by the sights you sought to see?
Or maybe buried underneath a vision;
the person you thought you could make us be
The foresight of our life, caught between a rock
and a hard place, it leaves a bitter taste
Of tongue tied words you spoke in vain,
we hear nothing, nothing but promises

Saw you never face it But you could never shake it
You left the only thing that ever mattered at all
Alone you'll never make it Forever forced to fake it
You left the only thing that ever mattered at all

Are you happy? Do you hear me?
Did you feel our hearts breaking slowly?
Maybe all you care for is all you see,
shut our hope in a bottle and cast to sea
It's perceptions of what could have been,
what might have been, what should have been
Through these veins, out the pen
Stain the canvas every night
I'd be lying if I said I'm fine somewhat
It's hard to breathe when it's tight sealed shut

The foresight of our life, caught between a rock
and a hard place, it leaves a bitter taste
Of sorry slipping through your teeth,
and I know you know that, I'd be lying if I said
I'm fine somewhat I'm breaking free, today you'll see
that your words weren't enough