1. SURVIVOR'S GUILT

An eye for an eye
Leaves the good men blind
I'm the last one alive,
But I'm burdened by the night.

I wish I had something
To say to make it better
Another notch to the rope,
Another burden to my crown.

(Depraved, disengaged)
There's nothing here to stop me from an early grave
(Tie the noose, follow through)
It's either join the ones I love or suffer as the Devil's muse.

An acquaintance of the hangman came to see me today;
Naïve to disarray.
You should've seen the look in her eyes
When she saw I lost the light in mine.

Clara my dear, I'm not a man filled with many regrets
I'm not a man filled with many regrets
But I wish I had taken my life instead.

Hated to the bone,
Yet she sees through my breaking nerves.

I opened my heart to a stranger.
Connected through woe, tormented angel.
She came to terms with who I am,
I won't let this become my final number.

Their weight comes crashing down
It's like I bear their conscience atop my crown
That sits so badly on my head
Fuck it, take me now

I watch their roses bloom and wilt
I wish to join them; this is survivor's guilt
Let me bleed like a weeping wound.

Take me instead,
I'd give them all their lives back for my death
Everyone I've ever loved, the dead in the mud.
Father forgive me for the damage I've done