1. PREDESTINATION

(Instrumental)


2. A LIFE'S TALE

Married during World War Two
Nobody could see
Limitations, fear and pain
Strong together, you and me

Liberation
A brand new start
Our first baby
Babies will be free

Seasons passed and children grew
Everything seemed fine
Our whole world turned upside down
When your heart stopped so did mine

Doctors rushed and saved your life
Blessed be their work
Their work divine

I can’t be on my own
Please, don’t go without me
Don’t you leave me alone

Decades passed, retirement
We’re still going strong
Friends and siblings have turned grey
Quite a few have passed away

Loss and grief are part of being old
Being grandma
Grandpa compensates

I can’t be on my own
Please, don’t go without me
Don’t you leave me alone

After all these years
We have seen it all
Another generation
Born into our family
But we don’t feel the joy
We are so fed up
We’ve already had enough
Let us become the memory
That remains

When will out time come?
Who will go first?
Don’t let it be you
Don’t let it be me

I can’t be on my own
Please, don’t go without me
Don’t you leave me alone
Please, don’t die without me


3. LOVTRED

How afraid I was
When I smiled and said I do
And I waited to accept it
‘Cause I knew, I knew I didn’t love you

Love the heart and other crimes
Memories of sinful times
Dreaming of one silent kiss
‘Cause with you the warmth I miss

Did you ever wonder why?
When I left and said goodbye
For what else could I do?
Loving her instead of you

Deep inside I knew
You were not the one for me
Drifting apart every day
If only you could see

Did you ever wonder why?
When I left and said goodbye
For what else could I do?
Loving her instead of you

Another woman in my life
Is what I was looking for
I wish I could explain this to you
Just once more

You’ll find another
To please you in your ways
A love to hold you tight
Until the end of days

Did you ever wonder why?
When I left and said goodbye
For what else could I do?
Loving her instead of you


4. DEPTH OF ILLUSION

Acid rain drops from my eyes
Flowing tears when I hear from you
For a life you live with lies
Wasted feelings pull me through

Living in depth of illusion
I try to pull my way up
But still there is no solution
The hurting never stops

Why do you want to live this way?
Hate these feelings, your masquerade
Trying to do it anyway
Your soul is gone, you fade away

Looking through your hatred maze
Feeling for your desperate cries
Anger rises, never dies
All emotions fade away

Living in depth of illusion
I try to pull my way up
But still there is no solution
The suffering never stops

Why do you want to live this way?
Hate these feelings, your masquerade
Trying to do it anyway
Your soul is gone, you fade away

Your soul is gone / Struggling
You feel a pain / Burning
The end is near / Fighting
You go insane / You lost it all

Your soul is gone / Suffering
You feel a pain / Thinking
All you do / Waiting
Is waiting / Until you fall!


5. STRAINS OF SOULS

When I see the leaves fall down
And the light that flows away
In a silent rain it seems
The world is altering

In a flash of light you appear
And the wind is circling
Floating all around you
Adding to my fear

I see you
And feel two strains of souls
This bond is never to be broken
But still it calls

In my fantasy and mind
You hold me with your enchanting spell
I can’t break loose
It’s turning to hell

When the storm that lives in me
And the thunder rise up
That is when the pain begins
Oh! How can it stop?

There is not escape for this hurt
Mystery lies everywhere
Torture fuels this crazy hunt
Unifies this bond

I see you
And feel two strains of souls
This bond is never to be broken
But still it calls


6. ESCAPE FROM REALITY

Now the end is near
This black hole inside of me
A teardrop is falling
On the bottom of my heart

I wonder how this happened
And why this is happening to me
Maybe someday somehow
I’ll understand it all

I want to run
I want to hide
Escape from reality

I want to cry
I want to die
Escape from reality

Now your end has come
A last word to you
You’re in my mind forever
And forever I’ll love you

I hope you’ll find rest and peace
Please, let her spirit be free
I know that she is alive
In my own world

I want to run
I want to hide
Escape from reality

I want to cry
I want to die
Escape from reality


7. DESIRE

This is not how I felt before
Not what I’d been looking for
Many times I thought I was too late to do
The things I always wanted to do

Can’t control my feelings
I want to go somewhere else
No daily work, no financial fuss
I want to know where to go

This is not how I felt before
Not what I’d been looking for
Many times I thought I was too late to do
The things I always wanted to

Let’s face the truth
There is nothing more to do
I have settled now
And I spend my time with you
That is all I ever wanted
Feel my heart, it’s burning:
Desire’s taken over me!

This is not how I felt before
Not what I’d been looking for
Many times I thought I was too late to do
The things I always wanted to

My heart
My pain

You took control of my feelings
I always wanted to be with you
You stole my heart, made me blissful
You took away my pain and that is why I love you

This is not how I felt before
Not what I’d been looking for
Many times I thought I was too late to do
The things I always wanted to

Waking up like the day before
Happier, no grief no more
Overwhelmed by the joy of birth
This is just what we need


8. MY VALENTINE

If you want to feel me
Come dance with me tonight
I saw you in my dream
Your spell holds me tight
My Valentine will be
The one who sets me free
But you don’t even know me

I just want to feel you
I touched your leg tonight
You just smiled and kissed me
Twice again this time
I felt so insecure and
Just tried to hold your hand
Again this time I stand alone

If I had the courage
To tell you how I feel
Then I can stop this dreaming
Maybe we will make it real
But I don’t know your feelings
So I don’t even try
Alone I stand and wonder
And let it all go white

I just want to feel you
I touched your cheek tonight
You just smiled and kissed me
Twice again this time
I felt so insecure and
Just tried to hold your hand
Again this time I stand alone
My Valentine


9. AS HEAVEN BLESSED A DYING ROSE

There is an answer
Some day we will know
And you will ask her
Why she had to go?

We live and die
We laugh and we cry
And you must take away the pain
Before you can begin to live again

By heaven blessed
Looking into the lake of hope
To nourish and to soften
The petals of a dying rose

Memories deep inside
Are as pure as the whitest rose
That will bloom
Throughout an October moon

The withering of the rose
Where the angels send to gather
Now you’re by yourself
But some day we will be together

By heaven blessed
Looking into the lake of hope
To nourish and to soften
The petals of a dying rose


10. DEVOTED YET UNABLE

Father used to fix things when I broke them down
Fixed them with a hammer
He’s a saviour with a crown

Mother used to guide me so I could find my way
Took me by the hand so her little angel would not be led astray

Father used to teach me
I listened when he said
Work a little every day to serve wine and daily bread

Why don’t you share your fears?
(She tries so hard to leave it all behind)
Reveal the things that I can’t see
Let them out of your troubled heart
(She gains strength day by day)
Have the courage to make a fresh start

She feels estranged and out of place
Don’t you see she’s in need?

Now I am a master
I work with hammer and saw
But I can’t fix my friend’s heart from behind a closed door

Father, can you guide me?
My friend is in need
Tormented by the memory of the violence inflicted on the street

On a dark winter night she was on her way home
The smile upon her face was quickly erased

She came home and cried and she cries every night
The gun in her face can never be erased

I try to listen so she can feel at ease
Try to wash her fear away so we can live in peace

Never put my best words down
But this time I came close
Sometimes I seem to disconnect
But the truth is that she is still my rose

Why don’t you share your fears?
(She tries so hard to leave it all behind)
Reveal the things that I can’t see
Let them out of your troubled heart
(She gains strength day by day)
Have the courage to make a fresh start


11. WAITING FOR A NEW DAY

Daily news is every day the same
Desperate cries and human lies are taking over
My eyes are closed and my heart is filled with pain
Will no one speak to me or see my future
I’m dreaming
I’m screaming

I’m waiting for a new day
Searching for salvation
I’m waiting for a new day
To let me feel so free

Walls are closing in, take me away
I’m feeling left alone
Why won’t you stay with me?
A desperate search
It’s dark around me
I hope I’ll see the light at the end of the tunnel
I’m hoping
Believing

I’m waiting for a new day
Searching for salvation
I’m waiting for a new day
To let me feel so free


12. AS THE CIRCLE CLOSES

(Instrumental)


13. THE BLEEDING SNOWLANDS

Awakening in pain
She no longer laughs
Forgiveness embraces her
A black rose withers on her grave

In silence I mourn
Emotions trampled
My prayers silenced
Emptiness remains

She’s the only one I loved
But then you came and took her away
The only one I’ve ever loved
With your appearance taken away

Awakening in grief
Her silent shade
Roams all around me
I live my life in mourning

In sorrow I hide
Feeling ravished
Deliriously hoping but
Emptiness remains

She’s the only one I loved
But then you came and took her away
The only one I’ve ever loved
With your appearance taken away

Snowlands are bleeding / The loss of a smile so sweet
Snowlands in mourning / the loss of her godly beauty
Snowlands call her name / Please, come back to me

Awakening in darkness
Reaching out
For a light in the distance
That fades as swiftly as it emerged

In solitude I cry
Longing for warmth
In the place she left behind
Emptiness remains

She’s the only one I loved
But then you came and took her away
The only one I’ve ever loved
With your appearance taken away