1. CREATURE AND I

Under dominant influences
Misled by an invisible force
Creeping to the ancient mirror, I saw

The image of a red-horned creature
Surrounded by a dark presence
Not from this side, rather beyond the glass

It feels as it's crowded in here
But I am all alone, no reason to be scared
The pride that I am strong, no need for help is about to fail

My body-skin, my outer shell
Is about to boil, I have reached the limit for melting
Not used to see myself like this

Is this becoming my reality
When I go my own way, but the evil I think I saw
Is he real? 'Cause the creature was me!

Empty expressions no more
Flames lit my eyes, make my grin to a weapon
I am alive, not buried in failure
Not dying, I'm the first borned lightbringer

My body-skin, my outer shell
Is about to boil, I have reached the limit for melting
Not used to see myself like this

Is this becoming my reality
When I go my own way, but the evil I think I saw
Is he real? 'Cause the creature was me!

Is this my reality or is this just a dreadful dream
I must have dreamed this, this can't be real

Taken beyond, what's now
Into a parallel world
Where I am something else
Into a world where I am accepted
Travelled through mistakes and deficiencies
Into a world where my sins are sanctified

No guidance
No tears inside
No need that I have to give
No solitude, I'm not alone
The creature and I are entwined

Enchanted by my own morbid deeds
I can rest in that I don't need others to feel whole
In nocturnal escapades, we work in the shade of you
From early hour to evening fall


2. UNGRATEFUL

God the creator and master of the universe
I'm the weakest lying at the bottom
I'm forgotten, hidden, no longer in your sight
Pushed over the edge so I, so I can't breathe

Why do you ignore my prayers, you never answer me
I believe in you, why can't you believe in me
I feel that I'm nothing, only dust!
I know the taste of bitterness, in this sinister relationship

You don't warm my heart when it's needed
But you don't freeze it either

I am left behind
You're in front and I'm at the end
I'm last, last, last
Away

Why do you ignore my prayers, you never answer me
I believe in you, why can't you believe in me
I feel that I'm nothing, only dust!
I know the taste of bitterness, in this sinister relationship

I am here, standing right in front of you
Not behind a wall, I have opened a door

Using your heart and spirit might be poetic, but I am waiting for a purpose
Maybe you'll think I should deny my life

I am left behind
You're in front and I'm at the end
I'm last, last, last
Away


3. INTRO

(Instrumental)


4. A GIFT TO MY GOD

Cut with a paper, knife forgotten
Blood is dripping, down to the floor
A newborn sea is created
Watch for the waves, look for a sign

Wide open, looks like a mouth
A red ocean falls down to the ground
Looks like I'm tortured, carved up
No way, don't you pity me

I give my blood as a gift to my God
Take it back, never belonged to me
I give my blood as a gift to my God
Why did you put me into this world

I smother the fire on my skin
Excited, with hope that life ends
A useless slave, put me in grave
I'll leave this world tonight

You know that sea, newly born
With that shame, that you are too embarrassed about
You wish that someone would drag it out of you
'Cause voluntarily you won't!

Chained, useless slave
Beneath my needs, taking over me
Please, bury me! Throw me under soil
And put a cross through my lungs

You wish that someone could drag it out of you
'Cause voluntarily you won't!


5. REPTILE

Flesh, rotten flesh
Worms in your brain
Dying body
No soul, just a vacuous face
Your life cannot be relived
Sense for someone else you don't have
You are arrogant and malevolent
Just my presence makes you spit and throw up on the cross of Christ!

Your insides have corroded
Your brain has shortened
Your eyes black as night
Your smile mockin' and evil
Reptile

No one loves you
No one miss you
Your wish everyone nothingness
Your heart is black (black and blighted)
The devil incarnate
Unmasked, entirely visible
Your mind, vicious
Like a deadly reptile sneaking silently in the night!

Your insides have corroded
Your brain has shortened
Your eyes black as night
Your smile mockin' and evil

Reptile!


6. THY PRESENCE

You know me even if I don't spend any time with you
Am I really worthy
'Cause true happiness I can't find
Don't know where to begin

But I already know the answer
'Cause all these times I have you denied
We together, to become one!
Without fear or anxiety
I'm weak, might be the weakest, the silver in your perfect eye

I'm nothing, nothing to the world, have nothing to offer anymore
I have done what I wanted, what I cannot, I will never be able to
The silence I was born with have grown as an echo vibrating fast in my head
No one get it, no one understand, I will have eternal life, but my life I have now destroys me

It feels as if the botherations are there in my own shadow
I admit I'm honest now
I feel excluded even though I'm not alone
I envy others for everything!

As a decayed wormy leaf I have fallen down to the ground
Trampled in soil by people with no sense of what goodness is
Damn bacteria they sent has its root in me
Left all alone on the narrow road, no one is coming back for me

I'm nothing, nothing to the world, have nothing to offer anymore
I have done what I wanted, what I cannot, I will never be able to
The silence I was born with have grown as an echo vibrating fast in my head
No one get it, no one understand, I will have eternal life, but my life I have now destroys me


7. CREATOR OF MAN

Slowly drifting far from the path
Forgetting the words I held so dearly
He loves me, but I feel neglected
I'm still a child looking for simpleness
In the name of truth I'm a grown man
Should have learned that happiness isn't everything
Thinking black but the greyscale is wide

You will see!
Chaos to bliss!

Staring with turbid eyes
Looking for someone else to follow
Let this dry worship I have become rippled
Dealing with apathy and sorrow
I mourn the daylight to come
For that matter, life isn't slightless
Thinking black but the greyscale is wide

The good pain that we endure every hour
We suffer as the early servants who was eager to put their faith in front of science

Knowing the Saviour out of the sphere is the creator of man
The solver of patterns, the healer of wounds

When life shrinks, you show us your kingdom
When the strength falters, you give us courage
When emptiness in mind pours out of our concentration
You take us to your fathom so we can rest

I'm leaving the place associated with fear
As a deer in front of the light
I turn left then right, waiting for darkness
Though I can breathe out and return
This voice inside says "Make your own way"
For that matter, life isn't slightless
Thinking black but the greyscale is wide

The good pain that we endure every hour and single day
We are defended, you might not even see it
Not dying inside, blessings will fall upon us
We suffer as the early servants who was eager to put their faith in front of science

The restorer of foundations, the healer of wounds
Knowing the Saviour out of the sphere is the creator of man


8. THE REPOSAL OF HOLLOWNESS

Every thoughts I carry
Emotions in that moment overflows
In silence I cry
Who wants to listen to me?
Perfect but dishonest
You place yourself straight on Father's right side

Born without sin as me
But the sins begin when you put yourself first
Who or what is the Lord over you, over me, over them
Without any humility
You expect as usual magic wonders

He who loves me
Who sees me as his own
Takes care of me, even when the world is crackling
My happiness is in His hands
Luck comes, luck goes
But you remain our Father though
Preserve me from all evil
And from them who threatens me

Every thoughts is all about me
Caring for anyone I barely have
Why should I care
Don't even know why I am here
Perfect but dishonest

He who loves me
Who sees me as his own
Takes care of me, even when the world is crackling
My happiness is in His hands
Luck comes, luck goes
But you remain our Father though
Preserve me from all evil
And from them who threatens me
Allow me to be yours every single day
Like a little and innocent child
This is, this was, this still are
The reposal of hollowness