1. THE THREE MARKS OF EXISTENCE

How does the rose open its heart and give the world its beauty?
It bathes in the light, the love of the sun encouraging its blooming
You be the ground where nothing is sown and plant the seeds of love to grow
Cultivate the change you seek. Love is not a song sung by the weak

When in the trap of doubt
Remember it's a cloud
This too shall pass and fade
Impermanence to pain

What is the body but a shadow of a shadow of our love
In which the whole universe resides
There is only wind in that well
And there have always been keys in the cell
It takes compassion to confront your pain
It takes strength to be vulnerable enough to float on the rivers of shame
Be ground, be crumbled, you've been stoney for too long

Let wild flowers grow where you are
Let your heart burst, let it explode

Let wild flowers grow where you are
Let your heart burst, let it explode

Let wild flowers grow where you are
Let your heart burst, let it explode

Go


2. CARRY THE WEIGHT

I used to want to die but now I believe
Not in a distant god, there's a love I found in me
I’d rather be awake and in pain than asleep
Singing as if no one can hear takes more courage than you think

I carried the weight in the only way I knew
I carried the weight in the only way I knew

I was scared enough to lie and say that I’m okay
When inside I was dying, so confused, so alone, so afraid
I hope you never know what it’s like to hide a piece of yourself inside
Or to be so fucking ashamed you’d rather kill yourself than be alive

I want to be alive
I carried the weight in the only way I knew
I want to be alive
I carried the weight in the only way I knew

I'm still scared but I’ve got courage to be
More vulnerable and one day free
Now my heart isn’t covered in concrete
I breathe, I breathe
No longer scared of the vulnerability
No longer scared of the person that I see


3. THE COURAGE OF AN OPEN HEART

Sometimes I get so silent
I can hear my heartbeat
Sometimes I get so silent
The memories come back to me

But now I know, there is suffering no one should have to feel
Hiding the truth, because it wasn't safe to be
Open with who I was, it left me in agony
The shame, the sadness, the darkness surrounded every part of my being

I had no compassion, no love for myself
There was no relief, except in thoughts of death
Except in thoughts of death

I have learned to love myself, I have learned to care
I have learned to make peace with the sadness and despair

I had no compassion, no love for myself, there was no relief
Except in thoughts of death

Oh

So alone, buried in sadness, love dragged me out of it
So alone, buried in sadness, love dragged me out of it

I want to love, I want to love with, the courage of an open heart
I want to love, I want to love with, the courage of an open heart

I want to love, I want to love with, the courage of an open heart
I want to love, I want to love with, the courage of an open heart


4. WOUNDS

Fear, I was so afraid to face the truth and open wide
For fear that I would float away and not been seen

There is a beating in my heart and it is the scariest thing I have ever felt
To know that the difference between joy and sadness is such a small sliver
There is a welling up of emotions inside me that I just can't bare; tears stream down my face
There are moments of extreme joy, there are moments of love, there are moments of madness
And this is life; we cannot change what arises, only how we greet it

The pictures they fade, my horrible memories fade
They burst into fire when I chose to let love be my guide
Depression, anxiety and shame, they almost killed me
Obsession, addiction and pain, they almost killed me

The wounds that never heal are the ones you refuse to see
The wounds that never heal are the ones you refuse to see

Be the change you seek
Be the change you seek
Be the change you seek

The pictures they fade, my horrible memories fade
They burst into fire when I chose to let love be my guide
Depression, anxiety and shame, they almost killed me
Obsession, addiction and pain, they almost killed me

Fear, I was so afraid to face the truth and open wide
For fear that I would float away and not been seen


5. TAKE REFUGE

I was born with wings yet I chose to crawl
Through my mind like a desert void of anything
Anything good at all
Now I hold my head up high
Hang the noose up on the wall
Love help me seeing the invisible
Compassion set me free

Just let go, just let go
Just let go, just let go

May I forgive myself for the person who I think I should be
And may I love myself even when it feels like I don't deserve to breathe

What you seek is seeking you
What you seek is seeking you
What you seek is seeking you
What you seek is seeking you

Just let go, just let go
Just let go, just let go
Just let go, just let go
Just let go, just let go

There is no agony like holding on to an untold story
Inside of you, poisoning the truth

Do you want to break the chains?
Do you want to break the chains?
Do you want to break the chains?
Do you want to break the chains?

Take refuge (Take refuge)
Take refuge (Take refuge)
Take refuge (Take refuge)
Take refuge


6. SURRENDER

My heart breaks, it's quivering
When I stare into the sky and I know that I am part of this
Unfolding into beauty, my eyes steam with tears, rainbow ribbons grace the ground
I have died a thousands times, I have breathed a million breaths, but it has taken me this long to be present
It's taken an eternity to see this evidence
"Wisdom tells me I am nothing, my heart tells me I am everything
Somewhere between the two my life flows"

There's a beating in my heart I haven't felt in years
Thirst drove me to water where I drank from the moonlight
And now I'm free

My soul is from elsewhere, I'm sure of that
Surrender and empty myself of the past
Cause refuge is waiting in the moment

Surrender, surrender
Surrender, surrender

Don't let your heart be turned to stone
There is a way out
Don't let your heart be turned to stone
There is a way out
Don't let your heart be turned to stone
There is a way out
Don't let your heart be turned to stone
There is a way out

There is so much peace that you can have, once you see, we are not as separate as you may think
The world's an ocean and you're a wave; we are the ocean made up of intersecting waves
There is so much love and so much kindness
There is so much hope, someday you'll find it
Take the armor off your heart and let it beat


7. DYING WORDS

Be the lamp unto yourself
Shine the light onto the truth

There's so much beauty in this world I just didn't see it
I'm too busy protecting my heart with good reason
Some of us have been so abused, so mislead, so far from love
We don't even know how far we've gone

Why did I stay in prison when the door was left wide open?
What was it that I was clinging to?
I changed the perspective, not just the view

Love has changed me
Love has changed me

What are the stories you tell yourself
That you aren't good enough or shouldn't feel?
The love that you deserve is pounding in your chest
Reach inside and fucking grab it

Be the lamp unto yourself
Shine the light onto the truth

There's so much beauty, there's so much love
If you're willing to give up
There's so much beauty, there's so much love
If you're willing to give up

Be the lamp unto yourself
Shine the light onto the truth


8. THE IMPORTANCE OF THE MOMENT OF DEATH

I was so tired of being alone
I was so tired of listening to the chorus in my head
Telling myself I wasn’t good enough to be happy or proud or loving to myself
What kind of life is that to lead?
Finding the courage to open up my heart finally let me fucking breathe

I want to believe, I want to believe
I want to believe, I want to believe
I want to believe, I want to believe
I want to believe

No one should ever be judged for who they love
No one should ever have to be afraid
There is so much grace in being vulnerable
There is so much beauty in being brave
I learned to love myself, I turpentine away the pain
What I found underneath was a quivering heart ready to beat

I want to believe, I want to believe
I want to believe, I want to believe
I want to believe, I want to believe
I want to believe

I am no longer afraid to die
I am no longer afraid to die
I am no longer afraid to die
I am no longer afraid to die


9. PULL THE THORNS FROM YOUR HEART

I don't want to be afraid of this life anymore
I don't want to be suffocated by the weight
Who was that person I was pretending to be?
Silent compassion break these chains of misery
Scared to death of being vulnerable
So I did everything I could to put the walls up
I locked myself and held myself in a cell of shame
Screaming for a fucking change

Pull the thorns from your heart
Pull the thorns from your heart

I tried so hard to runaway from the truth
I fucking hated myself so I abused
My soul, my heart, my body
For the sexuality I didn't choose

Pull the thorns from your heart
Pull the thorns from your heart

Devastated by shame
I was so entrenched in pain
I found that hell
Is the absence to loving self

I've been looking for a pearl this whole time
It's been right in my chest
I went diving to the depths of hell once
But I only found death
And it said to me
"Don't be afraid of your end
Be bold, be authentic
Be brave enough to love again"
They said

Pull the thorns from your heart
To wander in the fields of flowers
Pull the thorns from your heart
To wander in the fields of flowers
Pull the thorns from your heart
To wander in the fields of flowers

Pull the thorns from your heart

Give up a little
Gain a little piece
Empty yourself
Become eternity
I will not die
I will not die in shame
I will not die
I will not die in shame


10. WE ARE ALL RETURNING HOME

There is something in my heart
Telling me to let go
Put away all of your armor
It's going to kill me if I want to grow

It's a choice that I must make so I can be free
It's a choice that I must make so I can be free

The times that you take to wait
For all the things that you need
Are the times that are wasted
The times that you take to wait
For all the things that you need
Are the times that you've wasted

Reach up from the soil and bloom
Go to the places that scare you
Shine the light on what is it that you're not willing do see
We are all returning home
We think we're separate, so we roam
Searching for something to satisfy this thirst
We must turn inward

Do you hear that roaring between your ears?
Do you have the courage to listen?
Can you make peace with your fear?

The times that you take to wait
For all the things that you need
Are the times that you've wasted
The times that you take to wait
For all the things that you need
Are the times that you've wasted

You can wait for death to come
Or you can take a chance and lead
And be like melting snow
Wash away all that you've known

You can wait for death to come
Or you can take a chance and lead
Into the great unknown
Do you fear what you might see


11. MY FEAR OF AN UNLIVED LIFE

We all struggle to breathe sometimes
We all just want to feel alive

I just get so damn scared at night
That I won't be the person who I should

This life is so fragile, we can break in two
We can face that truth with grace and choose to lose our hardened views

One day I will be gone
But all the things that I have done will remain
They will remain
My actions remain
My actions remain

There is nothing sadder than an unlived life
You cannot run from the things you hide
You must turn and face the fear inside
There is nothing sadder than an unlived life

We are all longing for connection
We are all longing for acceptance
There is nothing that shows more strength
Than meeting pain with compassion
Because we all have wounded hearts
We are all just as blind in the dark
And we all quiver in fear
When the ones we love disappear

But the love they gave us, it stays here
But the love they showed us, it stays here
But the love they gave us, it stays here