1. FIREWORKS AT DAWN

Fireworks at dawn
As I sip for assistance
This flask keeps me calm
It reflects back my bad image
Of someone who's lost
Getting older by the minute
Laugh lines are like growing scars
Someday they will be finished

I've got so many
Places that I wanna see
And I've got so many
Faces that I wanna be

[Chorus]
So get on your feet
Wipe the dirt off
And get with it
Destiny waits at your door
And so you move on
Cause the past
Can't be your passion
So what if you did something wrong
Find someone who hasn't

I've got so many
Places that I wanna see
I've got so many
Faces that I wanna be


2. LUNGS LIKE GALLOWS

I give blood to prove to myself
That I can matter to somebody else
Is what makes a man the dirt on his hands?
Go put your faith in the desert sand

The wind is always blowing
There are gallows deep inside my lungs
That's where I hung ambition

Is it luck that's knocking right on my back door?
Because I've been breaking mirrors since 1984
I walk under ladders, I spill salt on sores
And I open my umbrella even when I am indoors
Give me seven more!

I give blood, not for the cause
But to slowly give up the person I was
Holding my breath won't help, everything went to hell
So now I steal back pennies from the well because my wishes failed
I am screaming at my own shadow to stop living like a ghost

Is it luck that's knocking right on my back door?
Because I've been breaking mirrors since 1984
I walk under ladders, I spill salt on sores
And I open my umbrella even when I am indoors
Give me seven more!

I don't need you, I'm not that desperate
Come visit me in twenty years, and maybe then
'Cause I'm not done screaming yet
You can call off the intervention
'Cause I don't need your attention!

Is it luck that's knocking right on my back door?
Because I've been breaking mirrors since 1984
I walk under ladders, I spill salt on sores
And I open my umbrella even when I am indoors
Give me seven more!

I don't need you, I'm not that desperate!
I don't need you, I'm not that desperate yet!


3. GARDEN STATE

The Garden State
Has never looked so pitiful and gray
As I awake to the garbage left today
I hope they take all of my old mistakes
'Cause I can't seem to shake them on my own

My eye it spins
When I look at the mirror glancing at the man I see
With anchors for his eyes
I build my castles up in the skies
So when it rains, they melt away with shame

Here I am
Looking down at the bottom of the glasses
It's all my fault that
I need a sign, like shooting stars
To help connect the dots
And turn my cuts into scars

All of my fears
Are getting checked by the medicine I take
All other guys just gather rumors of decent
There will be a riot in my heart soon
It wants to be beneath the open sky

Here I am
Looking down at the bottom of the glasses
It's all my fault that
I need a sign, like shooting stars
To help connect the dots
And turn my cuts into scars

My regrets are what keep me still alive,
I need to make up for the lies
My regrets are what keep me still alive,
I need to make up for the lies

Here I am
Looking down at the bottom of the glasses
It's all my fault that
I need a sign, like shooting stars
To help connect the dots
And turn my cuts into scars

Here I am
Looking down at the bottom of the glasses
It's all my fault that
I need a sign, like shooting stars
To help connect the dots
And turn my cuts into scars

My regrets are what keep me still alive,
I need to make up for the lies


4. FAMILY TRADITION

i tried to be the one that everybody loved
Where has that gotten me?
I tear myself to shreds to prove that i'm someone
That I could never be

Now these unsightly marks define me

So help me, please someone come quick
I think I am losing it
Forgive me, I inherited this
From a stranger i'll never miss. . .
I'm sick.

My father taught me first hand how to be set free
Give up and runaway
I wish I could drain out his half of blood in me
But i'd still have his face

I curse reflections everyday

So help me, please someone come quick
I think I am losing it
Forgive me, I inherited this
From a stranger i'll never miss. . .

Here is my own family tradition
Following footsteps into addiction
So is there a way that i can find peace
While still numbing my pain
Is this my fate?
Cause your only son still cant seem to find his way

So help me, please someone come quick
I think I am losing it
Forgive me, I inherited this
From a stranger i'll never miss.

So father where the hell are you now?
I think that you would be proud
Your son who so unluckily
Fell right next to the tree

I hope you're proud of me,
I hope you're proud.


5. WOLVES AT THE DOOR

Last night I found heaven
It's on the tip of my tongue
And it reminded me of
All the times I was young

I'm catching rain in my open mouth
I used to smile till the day I fell down
I have no idea who the hell I've become
It's not who I was, it's not who I loved

I wanna drown, in a sea filled of novacaine
I wanna burn, on a beach where the sand
Has thousands of needles poking at my skin

I lie in bed to the sound, of the wolves at my door
They are speaking in tongues
While they claw at my floor

I never thought it would come to this
I'm more yellow, than my own piss
They're making branches just to even the score
Just open the door, just open the door

I wanna drown, in a sea filled of novacaine
I wanna burn, on a beach where the sand
Is littered with razor blades
Littered with razor blades
Blades
Littered with razor blades

I can't hold on, the path is clear
I can't ignore, what's been building for years
There's wolves at the door, I won't hide here in fear
Wolves at my door, wa!
I look at myself and the things that I've done
Step away from the mirror and into the sun
I forgive myself for all of my mistakes
When will I learn when will I, when will I burn

I wanna drown, in a sea filled of novacaine
I wanna burn, on a beach where the sand
Is littered with razor blades

I gave up on myself a long time ago
The black clouds have swallowed
And spit me out whole

Sometimes it feels like I'm losing my soul
At least that means I still have a soul left after all


6. HAIR OF THE DOG

Empty frames on the floor
there's nothing left to prove who I was before.
I'll burn the pictures before I leave
and wipe my prints off from the scene,
The embers will help me to grieve.

I need a drink to take, to take me through the day
Sometimes I lie awake and think of my mistakes.
Was there ever a time we weren't dying
and I wasn't lying?
I know I fucked up the last two years of your life.

Empty boxes by the door, I'm throwing out all
the clothes that I once wore.
They just don't seem to fit my shape right now.
My appetite for holding on has been washed down.
I'm on a liquid diet of cheap beer and wasted love,
tomorrow I will pay the price.

I need a drink to take, to take me through the day.
Sometimes I lie awake and think of my mistakes.
Was there ever a time we weren't dying and I weren't lying?
I know I fucked up.
This is my last goodbye,
I've hurt you enough.
I know the morning's going to hurt
But fuck it cause I know this works,
"So just take out another glass and pour."
Send the shivers down my spine,
calm the shakes with rotten wine.
If I don't get out of this house I'll die or waste more of my life

I need a drink to take, to take me through the day.
Sometimes I lie awake and think of my mistakes.
Was there ever a time we weren't dying and I wasn't lying?
I know I fucked up.
This is my last goodbye,
I've hurt you enough.


7. FOUR YEARS

I take a shot of Jameson or Jack to start the morning off with old friends
I'll celebrate like it's the anniversary of the day that we first met
I've been practicing our eulogy, separated all our things
I took my name off of the lease, I'm leaving

'Cause dear, four years hurts less than five (It's never a good time!)
I am sorry for all my crimes, and the wandering gaze of my unfaithful eyes

Now I wonder, as I'm sliding under, thus under control of the drink
If I have enough left in the bottle to say all the things I'm thinkin'
I've been practicing my exit plan, nervously checking time
I still don't know how I'll survive

Because dear, four years hurts less than five (it's never a good time)
I am sorry for all my crimes, and the wandering gaze of my unfaithful eyes

It's clear, I am an awful mess (Get this off my chest!)
So the only thing I'll have left, is your memory and promises never kept

When she came home I made her sit
My feet tap out a rhythm as I draw breath in
To hurt the only one I've loved
This is so damn hard but I am giving up

The person that you love is dead
I flooded him out with a Jack and Jameson
So happy anniversary
The best gift I could think to give you was to set you free

Wake up, you're sleeping
Wake up, you're sleepin' behind the wheel

Wake up, you're sleeping
Wake up, you're sleepin' behind the wheel
Behind the wheel


8. ALI FOR CODY

I’m giving up all expectations
That I will live a meaningful life
I once was filled with inspiration
That lion heart has lost his pride

I’m not the person that I thought that I would be
I keep tripping over the same steps
The stars aren't beautiful
Advice is never useful
And I still walk the line held tight with my regrets
I’d rather die than live like this
I've got to give up giving in

Some people never will go crazy
What horrible lives they must lead
I’m gonna try and paint new scenery
And build a window to help me see

I’m not the person that I thought that I would be
I keep tripping over the same steps
The stars aren't beautiful
Advice is never useful
And I still walk the line held tight with my regrets
I’d rather die than live like this
I've gotta give up giving in

I have got my eye lids stapled shut
I have failed but I'm used to it
My past is just that
It's a sunken old ship
There will be moments
I pretend that I can raise it up
Up out from the depths

Who the fuck am I kidding?
I was born with the curse of always giving in
Every day is another chance to make peace with myself
But I would rather play dead

Sure it looks easy when it's through borrowed eyes
A hero has a thousand faces, none of them matching mine
Fuck the world, fuck the stars, fuck the person you are
But nothing will matter if I don't give up folding my cards

I keep tripping over the same steps
The stars aren't beautiful
Advice is never useful
And I still walk the line held tight with my regrets
I’d rather die than live like this
I've got to give up giving in


9. YELLOW ANGELS

As the car begins to roll
I smile as I lose control
This weightlessness is such a gift
'Cause gravity has lost its hold

I see the sky, and then the ground
Kaleidoscope of light and sound
Catching flashes of my life
Just then, the house-lights all went out

I want to know
Myself so bad it hurts
I am a shelf
Holding unread words

I've said goodbye so many times in my life
I'm surprised it's still so hard for me
To see that I should start living my life
Or I will die unfulfilled and empty

I come to, still in the chair
As yellow angels step with care
My spinal cord's still sending shocks
But my life's in need of repair

There's got to be more than this
I don't want to just exist
As a hollow house for bones
More alone every minute

Is there a place where I can start again?

I've said goodbye so many times in my life
I'm surprised it's still so hard for me
To see that I should start living my life
Or I will die unfulfilled and empty

Wake up, you're sleeping
Wake up, you're sleepin' behind the wheel
3x


10. CHANDELIER

This head is haunted by a Chorus in the sky
The voices aren’t mine
I kiss the darkness as I see the whites of their eyes
They’re crawling up my spine
They bloom at midnight in the middle of the moonlight

Strike a match!
Light the Chandelier!
This bedroom is a ballroom now
Strike the band and make the dead dance
This room is filled with corpses in costumes

My guests dress in black and blue
I raise a toast to the few
The orchids are in bloom
There’s a dead note in the choir of the garden
The sun will kiss the gloom
The warden’s giving pardons soon

Strike a match!
Light the chandelier!
This bedroom is a ballroom now
Strike the band and make the dead dance
This room is filled with corpses in costumes
Strike the band and make the dead dance
(I kiss the darkness as I see the whites of their eyes)
Strike the band and dance, dance.

“This is your last night.
Do you believe in what you write'
We open the sky and we hope you see light.”

Strike a match!
Light the chandelier!
This bedroom is a ballroom now
Strike the band and make the dead dance
This room is filled with corpses in costumes
Strike the band and make the dead dance
(I kiss the darkness as I see the whites of their eyes)
Strike the band and dance, dance
(This room is filled with corpses in costumes)


11. MAP THE STREETS

If I fall or trip back into love
I’m gonna bring a ladder and gloves
So I can climb right back out
If there is ever even a shred of doubt
I’m gonna bring a flashlight too and
Leave a trail and stick to the plan
You can get real lost down there if you’re not sure
Of the foreign territory
There are times when the path gets blurry
And the wrong turn feels right

But who would want me anyway?
I’m a lush with broken parts of paper mache
I have nothing left to give
I don’t think I ever did

There are times when I wish that someone
Would help me find the person I was or give me
A detailed map of the streets
Spelling out the traffic pattern in beeps
I am finding safety in lines
They are painted so they can guide
Empty tanks and broken wheels take me home
Right now I find myself dangling
On the edge trying not to fall in

Back to where I came from

But who would want me anyway?
I’m a lush with broken parts of paper mache
I have nothing left to give
I don’t think I ever did

Because I dove in way too deep with rocks tied to me
I should have, had a plan, cause now these ropes won’t come free
I do not have faith, If I did then I would feel safe
I would wait, here for fate, but it’s conveniently late
The bottom is a place that I know too well

So who would want me anyway?
I’m a lush with broken parts and I’ll never change.
And I have nothing left to give
I don’t think I ever did
I wish that I could find the person that I was,
I always thought that I’d be happy if I was loved,
But I have nothing left to give.
I don’t think I ever did


12. BLACKOUT

I just drove under the Lincoln sign
To where New Jersey meets the New York line
And through the tunnel for the last time
With everything crumbling behind

I stood still until I felt the shakes
of two bodies that were parting ways
I didn't want to be the one to say
I know this hurts but it's time to break

In two pieces
The fault line's not secure
A boat or bridge is needed
To get back to her

I feel like I'm paralyzed
When I look at the extra space
Left in my bed
(And think about all the things we did)
At least I'm feeling more alive
But I still have some old weight that
I've got to shed
Before I find happiness

I make mountains out of my worries
And I plant pain instead of sturdy trees
I have got to wash these old sheets
So I can fall asleep

There are times
There are times I reach for the phone
To tell you that there might still be some hope
Holding on
Holding on to the slack rope
But that's the whiskey talking so

I hope that you can find some peace in life
Can you survive without me?
Cause I thought I'd be fine
Now I am slurring every single line

I feel like I'm paralyzed
When I look at the extra space
Left in my bed
(I think about all the things we did)
At least I'm feeling more alive
But I still have some old weight that
I've got to shed

I've got to move on before
I can't find happiness

This isn't fair
Nobody taught me
(How to let go)
Just be here now
And you'll be set free
(from sorrow)
But at this time
I don't see clearly
(How will I know)
What is the point?
What is the meaning?
(I should let go)

Now I'm struggling
I black out so I can't dream
But I still see you sneaking
Through my weary head
I suffer from a drought
Of medicine to dull self-doubt
I just want to drown you out
With southern poison

If I had a drink
For every God damn time I think
About your pale skin dressed in pink
Then at least I could sleep
If I had a shot
For every God damn time I thought
About your face and what I lost
At least I'd get some

Sleep
Sleep
Sleep
At least I'd get some
Sleep
Sleep
Sleep
Then at least I'd get some sleep