1. DAWN AS A NEW DAY

She does not answer
Lips are pale and still
Mother can’t feel my arm
She has no pulse, nor will

If I could see dawn as a new day
If I could see past this strife
These patterns in life unchanging
Taunting
If I could usher in a new age
And see beyond today
If I could gather the strength
To move on

Life’s thread was broken
I hear you calling
No waking up now, as this nightmare unfolds
I cannot bear

I don’t belong here
Please don’t go
This world is not my own
Take me home

If I could see dawn as a new day…


2. CLIMB

I am not the only one…

I am not the only one
To foresee the fall of god
I am not the only one
To take pride in all I’ve found
I am not the only one
To feel pain from all I’ve found
I am not the only one
To know faith from all I’ve found

I am not the only one…

Receive a calling
It’s not secondhand
How can I know for sure?
I know I know for sure

Starfire
Shrouds the sky
Desire
Born from lies
Inspire
Breed hive mind
Admire
God on high

(Excerpt from “the shrinking man”)
So close, the infinitesimal and the infinite
But suddenly I knew they were really the two ends of the same concept
The unbelievably small and the unbelievably vast eventually meet
Like the closing of a gigantic circle
I looked up, as if somehow I would grasp the heavens, the universe, worlds beyond numbers
God’s silver tapestry spread across the night
And in that moment I knew the answer to the riddle of the infinite
And I felt my body dwindling

Pupils amass, give all to your father
Give all you’ve got, don’t succumb to greed
It’s not enough, you must do more
Serve me, your spirit be free

I can’t reason with the truth
I was never meant to make it this far

Devise
Design

Mortal decay
Wasting away

Devise
Design
Heresy


3. FLOAT

Flight
Rapture
Escape this world
Beckon spirits
Heathen or no

Without alarm, without a warning
Constricted mass exploding
My path diverging and I wandering
I’ve lost my way and I’m still floating

They told me to repent my sins
They told me to believe
I was wrong, but I won’t take it back
Don’t need you to take me

I won’t do your will
I won’t get down on my knees
I am so far away
Endless space surrounds me

I’ll float for eternity


4. ENORMITY

Where strides behemoth?
Where damage massive dwells
Wake fills with ocean
Level plain with crushing swells

Enormity crashes through the mountains
Avalanche washes over its feet
Fields destroyed

Monstrosity wanders ever inward
Razing the town in single stride
Gaping void

Humongous
I see it
I hear it
I fear it

Turn around and grab the nearest weapon
Pitchforks and torches and the mob is on its way
To kill the beast and mount its head upon a spire
A monument to those who conquered sin

In pieces
Rebuild
We must rebuild


5. GRASP THE APPARITION

Return to conscious
A brief sigh of regret
The events that occurred
Nothing more than a dream

I lie awake contemplating
Watching the hour hand
As it crawls reluctantly
In endless circles
Go through the motions
And brood the sunlight
Waiting for night to arrive
So that the next musing can begin

Falling forever
This world is not real
Run from your fears
This world is not real
I hope it’s not real

Wake up startled
Sweating, heart racing
Expecting to see everyone
And everything still here
How could something that felt so real
Just be in my head
The realm of reality
Ruled by failure and death

Why even wake up?

Return of the fallen
This world is not real
Grasp the apparition
This world is not real
Why can’t it be real?

This wasteland goes on forever
Every way I look
Endless horizon

Structures change form
The end of gravity
Time shattered the aeons
Faces shift shape
And nothing is real


6. PAVOR NOCTURNUS

A plague of the mind
Phantom glares
The night is young
Can’t escape this hell

I can’t walk
I can’t crawl
I mean nothing
I am nothing

Unable to move
Shadows with disfigured faces
Limbs thrash
A cadaverous shriek

A blight on the soul
Spirits swarm
Apparition dissolves
The visions are dead

A life filled with regrets
An awful burden for such a weak soul
I can’t move
It’s all just in our heads
Even if this sorrow overwhelms
I must move

Slash at their flesh, rip off their limbs, crush all their bones
This world is not real
Burn off their skin, slice through their skulls, harvest their souls
This world is not real


7. BURDEN OF GROWTH

Relenting
Resenting
You are my world

I can’t begin to understand your self-destruction
This must not go any further, but I’m not in control

With black cloud above me, here I stand
Knee deep in the quickened sand

Relenting
Resenting
You are my world


8. GODSON

She said to start the revolution
Spread the word across the seas
Scream our rebel yell in protest
Bring this evil to its knees
We are the chosen ones
At least that is what we’re told
She promised change, a new beginning
To cast aside the ways of old

You go, I don’t

Detractors say the cause is futile
We’ll never stop their evil ways
But we must tip the scales of justice
In equilibrium it stays
I remain ignorant
To this devastating truth
Everything hangs in the balance
And we have everything to lose

You go, I don’t