1. TORN

a fading moment of nothingness
and I'm drowned in your pool of wonders
deaf machines stripping me naked
sucking the juice right from my soul

dreaming of wine and blood
spearing my soul to quench the truth
now I'm torn
all these lies godly shame
now I see that you tricked us all
nothing left but fucked up pain
listen Lord thy kingdom sucks

finished up with a sack of guilt
nothing to show for but empty deeds
is it the end or am I just turning?
into a monster possessed by yearning?

you trashed my body
ruined my temple
now it's just a worn-out dress
give me back my voice so I can scream again


2. THE WHITE TUNNEL

alone I walk through the gardens of truth
a twisted path where black water rules
I follow the light but still in the abyss I crawl
reaching out for hands to help me with my fall

soothing light suicide x2

licking traces of borrowed light
slowly sinking in the abyssal walls
a luminous flux is marching forth
leaving me crumbs to help the crawl

drifting minds of the darkest kind
soul-o-tron narcotics set for fledgling minds
hell whispers softly and she makes me yearn
while heaven beats me bluntly to purify my shell

and on I march

falling, struggling, walking, yearning

the white light blinds me all I wished for are a load of lies

believe, believe, believe you can be saved


3. TWINSOUL

two-fold puppets stand in line
sentient gnomes with forfeit lives
ripped away from illusions of choice
pitch-forked demons with a muted voice

it is the moment of truth
now that my soul is divided
spitting on my wounds to try and feed
my crimson beast with shards of light

it's like chasing the patterns of the blue waterfall
when all of your dreams should be painted red
servitor, monochromatic race

two times blessed and two times cursed
living the details of someone's dream
two times dead and two times tricked
born again with both parts sick

faith, to divide the systems of god
to dismantle his three-folded case
embrace both darkness and light
nature and wisdom alike

keep on, stand up and struggle
shatter the shadows

thoughts die inside
neuron feelings
orgasmic psychotron

I am happy
I am sad
I am withered
chained behind
bathed in darkness
choked on light
far from heaven
hell inside


4. SEA OF LOST FACES

hazel thorns touched my skin
shots of pleasure buried deep within

searching for the master of the fire-train

swimming in the sea of lost faces
drowning in the pool of nothing
drink the purple rain
come in my domain now

empty eyes mock my pain
Sunday sermons proved to be all in vain

getting close to the matriarch of loss
purple acid raindrops burning human crops
devious confessions pulling every string
muted merry voices sing

please god save me
please god save me now
master bless me
I‘ll submit right now

Speak oh master how you kill a soul
The chains that bind you here are grim and foul
I beg you master won't you let me go
Immortal bodies need young souls to feast on

-I am damned
I am damned
-Look for the wisdom machine. It is your only chance for choice…


5. DENMAD

I wonder if it's true what they say
in the books of Job for the dead
rotten flesh, so what's next? Elysium is it there?
Or is it all just a deceit?

am I damned? Will I ever be able to go
back where I came from?
tell me someone is it meant to be so cruel now?
solemn thoughts are misused

at last it falls, the grey curtain for my soul
and I feel that I‘ve been deceived
the light of my life is dim
full of lies that will make me bleed

the last time I cried
for innocence unspoiled
I felt that she had to die

dancing lights in my head driving me insane
don't tell me what I should believe
drawn before me the sins that haunt me
a naughty parade of guilt

it was a boring day like the others
when my body was stripped of my soul
the flesh was sore and the mind was twisted
when they decided that I should pay the toll
as I walk through these forsaken lands
where soulless people are sold
all I have is in my empty hands
and I'm left all alone and cold
I wonder if there's a god or a demon devoid of faith
to tell me what did I do to join the denmad?


6. THE WISDOM MACHINE

now I see
with my soul bruised I walk
crippling on and on
how betrayed we are from our own device

hope dies last in a perfect world
and I keep on dreaming of her eyes
and all that is making me linger on
is someday breathing her hair again

what's this? I can't see
is it a god or a demon?
now it's got hold of me
showing me things that I dare not see

the waking of my life was bathed in pain
dawn was so alone
the coming of my youth was cloaked in fear
as they pierced my will

the entering of pleasures was so blunt
my end of innocence
I looked for the all answers in a glass
better there then in my sober cage

spare me
don't you dare tell me
to whom I should pray
for I am the master of my loss

a river of truth drinks my pain
proving me my dreams were all in vain
and I'm about to pay for deeds foreseen
surrendering my dreams to the machine

still stitching together the pieces of my mind
still stitching together the pieces of my kind
still stitching together the pieces of my life
still stitching together the pieces of my strife

my dreams were sacrificed for all your needs
I craved for space to breathe
the strength to differentiate wore thin
a fight I could not win

the answers to all this became so vague
imploded on myself lost in a haze
it pretty much appeared I chose my path
left hand madness till my last

half of my life was wasted
upon this stupid farce
my tree of life was rotten
had to leave at last

It's clear to me now that I am the exile of dreams
I'm dying alive, a demon with wings
I crave for a conscience that's mute, the judgment within
Forever I'm baptized in the sin of machine
I'm blind, I'm blind I seek for the light
I crave, I crave for redemption and sight

my soul had become veiled
when my mind had prevailed
my image was fading
denying, avenging

we sentient dolls must pay the toll
the age is growing thin on our plastic skin
we‘ll burn for our desire in acid fire
come on let's choke our dreams

I sought for an ending
to stop all this turning
this circle of bleeding
it rapes all my being

so sick and tired of all the silence
I want to feel free I seek to be free
my eyes have been opened
I just long for a chance to see

devoured and wasted from all this hatred
I‘ve played with reason to suffer wisdom
I hear the voice inside
I have to make my choice

wondrous it seems how our life walks before us
in circles we bleed when mistakes walk among us


7. 7H

wings, I feel wings
like the semen of god on my face
here is the proof of his love in my life
stuck like a whore in his brothel of light

bio-constellations of chastity in white
they saturate my voice to influence my choice
enigmatic shards of a crystallized sky
they gave me every reason for feeling blue

faith, I lose faith
to the empty remains of the cross
now I am chained to this circus of death in vain
praying to the emptiness for a mockery of pain

cursed be ye for sowing all this dying
your prophecies will burn for all their lying
oblivion still reigns upon your chosen
it's sad to see them run to meet the fallen

they're still bleeding from your killing


8. LOST

trampling on my dreams
as they die before my eyes
I ‘m stumbling on myself

I dreamt of choice
I dreamt of your voice
calling me as I fell from grace

you‘re leaving me
you‘re bleeding me again
deceived like I'm no-one
in silent waves I crawl

sick and tired of all the silence
come breathe desire into my empty lungs
how I long to feel
devoured and wasted from all this hatred
my rain keeps falling from heaven down to earth

the wheel is spinning fast
my spirit crumbles in its last
twitch before it's all turned blue

no magic carpets here
to make the longing disappear
no tears are shed for those who kiss the rain


9. STROLL OF CHOICE

the open path is cold chilling my spine
I reek of life
if god already died, what am I to do?
I understand

raped my mind, still I choose blind

narrow paths are merging
show me how to reach the pattern's end

patterns upon the wind, did you leave us?
floating oblivion, they mean nothing

the price of ignorance I have to pay now
the choice is hard
pattern's changing fast my life is fading
don't read the lines

useless lives are sold
a universal stroll


10. SUTANATUS

breathe with your heart, sink in the cyan waves
now face the truth, god is an imbecile
slow beating thoughts carry my eyes
as they drift from today, flying to no-where's end

hurry, shadows are building aloud
carry my life in your eye, drink from my dirth

touch the end, just to begin again
suffer the hand, light of redemption's sand
crimson hello's, joy of a baby's cry
bearing a hope, enough to project a smile

now I walk, now I see all the answers in your eyes
human I've become, naked I am born
bound to face the horrors of the world
I ‘m alive, I'm alive
I'm alone, I'm alone