1. INTRO / AWAKANING OF...

(Instrumental)


2. UNTITLED MELANCHOLY

Sudden was onset…
Anhedoina…
Visions of greyscale…
Leave me all alone…

Black sun squeezed me in
Dysthymic claws…
Abouliac dreams
Behind locked door…

Desperation draws
Patterns of my life
And my dying world…
Empty is my mind…

If I should go out
Same-faced furious trash
Will stand back to my
Rotting poisoned flesh…

Determined is my way.
I’ll be screwed again
Like my every day…
Only outlet…

(I won’t go out! Get the fuck off! I’ll lock my door!)


3. APATI DREAMS THROUGH RAINFALL

(Instrumental)


4. OPRESSIVE LIE

Why they are feces covered scum?
Friendship is spitted from my mind.
Tell another your gentle words.
Someone will trust you, have to know!

So called friends look nice and warm,
But they are shit covered clowns
Starving for my tortured throat
Like the better part, I know!

Captured in your two-faced laws!
I deny your every call!
Yesterday being close to me,
Now they’re only grayscale blicks…


5. CRYING FAKE SOUL

Dear friends, could you visit me,
Could you try to feel my fear?
Would you tell me ‘bout your love?
Will you gossip, when I’ll go?

And what if I could
Break these two-faced rules?
I’ll tell to your face
My thoughts without grace.
Thus, would I betray
And wear Judas’s name?
Judas is your task
When you wear your mask.

In your eyes I’m surrogate
Fuck it! You won’t understand!
Am I fake soul? Am I not?
Fake life is all you’ve really got!

My beloved friends,
Would you be here soon?
Oh, I see, you’re here
Knocking at my door!
Lol, I left my flat
Just two minutes ago!
I know, we should have
Met, but we did not.

Oh, continue, please!
Never will I return!
So I drive my car
Into the unknown.
I had lethal dose
Of phenazepam
And two liters of
Whiskey mixed with wine.

Drunken driver? Please!
Get the fuck of me!
I will crash my car!
Police won’t stop me!
In this accident
I won’t die alone!
I will take to hell
Rednecks – three or four…


6. FAIDING LIFE LINE

It is so easy
I have reached your apogees
Subterfugous life non-meaning
Then the only degradation

My life's pretending
Useless business and time-waste
To live dead or to die living?
That's the question for myself.

It's kind of painful
Then my pain will fade in time
It is most important moment
Of my so-called path of life

I'm only living
By inertia to avoid
Changes which I fear. I’m sealing
My only ability.