1. ANHEDONIA

Rip my intestines out
Boil and spread my brain
Crush my bones and will
And I will show no pain

Carve your curses onto my skin
I’m a sculpture of yours
I’m a statue, a fucking shell
Paint a smile on my face
Then throw me to hell

In silence I beg for death
In scream – for a purpose
But the eyes forever grey will tell you
Nothing

No more laugh
From sewn-up mouth
No more song
In shade of white

Soul torn apart from flesh
All the painted masks are false
Tears born to become icicles

Someone nailed me to my bed to dream my lucid dream
Helpless monsters in my head
Beyond this veil of reality there’s her portrait I painted
With a blindfold on my eyes

My loss within me, hidden deep
I cannot find the way to leave
Snow once melted became an ocean

Snow once melted became an ocean
Winter forests sink into loneliness
Dead man lying over the parchment
Waiting for the breath of life to take
…to take him away