1. FADING VS WAITING

Time, I’ve asked you to leave me for a while
I need some space but you’re just pushing forward
All the time

Mind is fading, heart is waiting, mind is fading, heart is waiting

Time, everything is focused on the future
Well that’s not me
I set my own pace
It’s my life

I’ll temporarily depart this life
While this world
Moves on without me
I’m full of expectations
But I can’t be bothered now
Not for a while

Time, I’ve asked you to slow down for a while
I’ll hide for you
I can’t have you near me anymore

Mind is fading, heart is waiting, mind is fading, heart is waiting

I’ll temporarily depart this life
While this world
Moves on without me
I’m full of expectations
But I can’t be bothered now
Not for a while

Mind is fading, heart is waiting, mind is fading, heart is waiting


2. KILLING TRUTH

When you take a little look from the side
Do you believe if you speak in words of guild?
Trying to convince yourself
It might blind you from the truth

Release me from these mind games
Against myself I’ve been playing too long
I’ve been trying so hard
Not to lose the trust I had in you

Can’t seem to get my mind satisfied
When this is all there’s left
You’re killing me with these moments of truth
Do you believe?

Can’t seem to get my mind satisfied
You’re killing me with these moments of truth

Can’t seem to get my mind satisfied
When this is all there’s left
You’re killing me with these moments of truth
Do you believe?


3. BLACK ROSES

See me standing here
With my dreams, my tears, my pain
Where the black roses grow
Nothing ever stays the same
My name is suffering…oh suffering

What’s your name, my beauty?
I’ve painted all my roses black for you
Is it to impress you, to make you see me

Let me take you with me
To the place where dreams are made
We’re going deep sea diving
There nothing ever stays the same
My name is… oh suffering

What’s your name, my beauty?
I’ve painted all my roses black for you
Is it to impress you, to make you see me

I want to meet true beauty in light
I’ll walk into your world...
For a moment
I’ll be on your side
I’ll walk into your world
For a moment
I’ll be on your side

My beauty, I’ve painted all my roses black for you
Is it to impress you, to make you see me

See me standing here
With my dreams, my tears, my pain
Where the black roses grow
You were the deep red dream
I’ve painted black now


4. DEATH OF HEARTS

Distant voices are... distant voices are... distant voices are...

Your words pass my skin
As they were kept in an ice cold room
Now my heart is waiting
And I feel it’s all fading
Let’s cut this conversation
It’s closing time again

Distant voices are... distant voices are... distant voices are...
Distant voices are wrong!

I open my mouth
And breathe in your name
The air I breathe seems too far away
My heart’s still waiting
Anticipating
Let’s cut this feeling
It’s closing time again

Distant voices are... distant voices are... distant voices are...

Your words can’t touch me
And I’ve reached the end of the line
Cause when my heart is waiting
And I feel it all fading
I ask my heart to speak to me
It’s closing time again...


5. LET'S ESCAPE

Feeling is believing
Still, I ask myself why
Again I’ve lost control
My feelings, they spoke to me
I’m digging deeper
Towards my soul

Release me! Free me! I’m stuck!
Get me out of here! Free me! I’m stuck!
Let’s escape!

I guess now that we’re lost here
Still you don’t want to know:
We must have seen the dark
Before we can appreciate the light

These things will fade in time
Now it’s a frozen memory
In which I hide my lies

Release me! Free me! I’m stuck!
Let’s escape!

I guess now that we’re lost here
Still you don’t want to know
That we must have seen the dark
Before we can appreciate the light
Appreciate the light

Exit sign: gone into shadows
To escape while dancing slowly
To wipe away the tears
And in here I feel it’s all fading
Did you ever try to find a door in the dark?
Screaming sounds
Clinging through my head my home
Where I’m lost again

Get me out of here! Free me! I’m stuck!
Let’s escape!

I guess now that we’re lost here
Still you don’t want to know
That we must have seen the dark
Before we can appreciate the light
Appreciate the light


6. MY SHADOW'S MEAL

Life gets so hard to live, sometimes...
Life gets so hard to bare, sometimes...

Life gets so hard to live
With countless tears behind my eyes
I can’t tell why I lose control sometimes

When will the next breakdown catch up with me
Sooner or later, I’ll be my shadow's meal

In need of someone’s arms
To shield me from the rain
In need of someone’s arms
To shield me from the torrent rain
Sometimes I can’t take it on my own

When will the next breakdown catch up with me
Sooner or later, I’ll be my shadow's meal

Time is flying...
Live your life!

When will the next breakdown catch up with me
Sooner or later, I’ll be my shadow's meal
My shadow's meal...
Sooner or later, I’ll be my shadow's meal


7. EVER UNFOLDING SECRET

In here, the small things
Will help you carry the burdens of life
The healing of a smile, an up tempo rhythm
Both of us in need of something yet unknown

A journey of a thousand miles
Yet it all seems so close to me
The tranquility of nature
Set against the speed of life, of my life

In here, the afternoon
To me, it could last forever
In the warmth of the sun, all everything is different
I wish I could stay
In this life unknown before
Lots of hidden beauty surrounding me
It’s like an ever unfolding secret
This masterpiece of nature reveals it bit by bit

A journey of a thousand miles
Yet it all seems so close to me
The tranquility of nature
Set against the speed of life, of my life

Both of us in need of...
These are my memories
Of a time that is dear to me
These are my memories
Of a life of tranquility and peace

A journey of a thousand miles
Yet it all seems so close to me
The tranquility of nature
Set against the speed of life, of my life


8. DISORDER

Here she is again
The drama queen inside of me
Next time better be prepared
Wrong choices, distances
Empty days are passing by
They leave me grasping for some air

Wrong choices, distances time can’t combine
Useless days are passing by
The bitter ones numbed my heart

Time has to take a hold for me
I’m bleeding out inside
Struggling to find out what troubles me
How this affects me so much, affects me so much

See I messed it all up again
There’s a war going on inside of me
In my own reality
Tears that turn out to be my own mistake
Silently I am going insane

Time has to take a hold for me
I’m bleeding out inside
Struggling to find out what troubles me
How this affects me so much, affects me so much

I messed it all up again
There’s a war going on inside of me
Please show me a way
Cause silently I am going insane

Time has to take a hold for me
I’m bleeding out inside
Struggling to find out what troubles me
How this affects me so much, affects me so much


9. A BURDEN

From shielding arms, to a frightened heart
Trapped because of the rage I feel
Ignorance has always stood so far from me
But it’s now what I need for me

Open minded but always conscious
Think of every step I take
My trust turns into insecurity
What’s my truth? And what is fake?

I’m a burden to me
A burden to myself
A burden to me

When I find my peace back again
Can it maintain its hold on me?
Cause when body and soul don’t have one mind
It creates an obsession

I’m a burden to me
A burden to myself
A burden to me


10. MY GIFT IN DEEP RED

Don’t speak of fear
Go live your dreams, know what it means
Wake up from your thoughts
To live a life in deep red

There’s no comfort to find in silence now
So much is left undone while trying not to care
Forcing the darkness to be silent in daylight
To cover up what really lives in here, in here
It lives in here!

Don’t speak of fear
Go live your dreams, know what it means
Awaken from thinking
To lead a life in deep red

Handing out a gift to tear apart right now
A life to live in deep red
Understand its meaning, go live your dreams
Find the person you were meant to be, to me
Meant to be!

Don’t speak of fear
Go live your dreams
Awaken from thinking
To live a life in deep red

Captured by this colour of faith
But unable to face it
Forcing all colours to be red this lifetime
A gift to tear apart, carefully...

Don’t speak of fear
Go live your dreams
Awaken from thinking
To lead a life in deep red


11. TORTURED

It’s a torture
To ruin myself when feeling down
Why is my mind drawn to self destruct?
Why does my mind sink away so deep?

This is our highest level

This is the fierceness I so need
But where did I sign
For the destruction of my mind?
This is my fear of reality

This is our highest level

In these hours I’m longing for...
Oh I want to pass the torture
The joy you bring to me
Turns into chaos
When it’s struck by reality in my mind
Feel the force of us together
It hits me deeper and deeper
So sorry that I’ve pulled you into this

It’s a torture
To ruin myself when feeling down
Why is my mind drawn to self destruct?
Why does my mind sink away so deep?

This is the fierceness I so need
But where did I sign
For the destruction of my mind?
This is my fear of reality
This is our highest level

This is our, this is our, this is our highest level
This is our, this is our, this is our highest level


12. BLOW

I watch your every movement
Will catch as much warmth
As I can get
Blow me into your open arms!
Allowed to enter
Focused on what’s more to come
Blow me into your open heart!

Then let your words surround me
They have the power to...
To make me, take me, break me

I watch your every movement
Try holding me as close
As possible
Blow me into your open arms
The touch of your hands
I wanna keep your every movement in mind
Blow me into your open heart!

Then let your words surround me
They have the power to...
To make me, take me, break me

Make me! Take me! Break me!


13. SHAPING TIME

We create the wish
To reign the world and shape the times
Our heart has an expectation of the future
But it’s frightening me
How we are put in line
My expectation of the future

We have a need for time and speed
But it’s an ultimate struggle
To gain control over our lives
I can’t keep up, no more

Rhythms of time penetrate human lives
It seems to control our whole existence
But true time is of ourselves
It has to be measured by the rhythm of our own existence

We have a need for time and speed
But it’s an ultimate struggle
To gain control over our lives
I can’t keep up, no more

Slowing down my pace...

We have a need for time and speed
But it’s an ultimate struggle
To gain control over our lives
I can’t keep up, no more

We create the wish
To reign the world and shape the time