1. REVERIE

(Instrumental)


2. FIGHT THE FUTURE

In the blink of an eye I knew it all had changed
To my surprise everything felt so strange
With the sound of the words that cut me
You took it all – the frame that held my sanity

Now I feel that I can’t breathe (can’t breathe)
Disbelief overcomes me – this can’t be happening
Now I feel that I can’t see (can’t see)
Anger consumes my mind and is overloading me

How could I know?
How can I trust?
How could you go?
Face it I must, oh...

Like a brick it hit me, without a sound
Like a hand that slapped me to the ground
Anger pushes the pain and fear aside
Like a bomb went off with nowhere to hide

How to turn back this time (this time)
Just one more word, I think I’d know just what to say
How to turn back and rewind (rewind)
Just one more day with unspoken promises known

How could I know?
How can I trust?
How could you go?
Face it I must

Guilt could change what’s lost and gone (lost and gone)
The urge to fix this mess is all I see
Can’t move on

One more moment to hold in my hands
The only moment to know where my fate stands
Can’t fight the future of choices I can’t make
Can’t fight the future of roads I can no longer take

Holding on
Holding you
Holding out for the ending
I want to be true
Holding back
Never being free!


3. IN THIS VOID

(Instrumental)


4. DROWN ME

Stumbling through a twisting maze
Struggling to see through this haze I know
Around I go
Fleeing from an unknown bind through twists and turns
I look behind in doubt
Can’t live without

(Slipping off the edge)
Slipping off the edge
Leaning from the ledge
(Leaning from the ledge)
Of what is taunting me

My mind feels like an open book
The mystery ending that took you away
Now I pay!
Adrift upon a shoreless sea
Of fear that’s slowly strangling me inside
I can’t hide

How can I see?
How can I clear my view?
When these visions haunt me like a twisted dream

Afloat but barely gaining ground
My soul is shattered
My heart rebound and frayed
Feeling betrayed
A cage that’s locked – can’t find the key
It’s feeding my insanity inside
This raging tide

(Floating through a dream)
Floating through a dream
A nightmare as it seems
(A nightmare as it seems)
And still it’s haunting me
(There must be an end)
There must be an end
And yet I play pretend
(And yet I play pretend)
Inside my fantasy

How can I breathe?
How can I reach the shore?
When the waves are climbing high above my head
The water’s circling around me now
And these waves that surround me
Are the waves that will drown me

Should I?
Could I take the fall?
Should I?
Could I?

I will believe that there’s hope
I can learn to change my destiny


5. SIGN OF LIFE

A light has entered my mind
From somewhere undefined
...It’s... fading and I’m far behind

Been hiding
Dead inside for too long
This can’t be where I belong
I’m shedding all the weight of my doubts
This pain I could do without

Grasping to hold on
Just to lose it all
Desperate to let go
Watching me fall

Only to heal the wounds of those promises (only to heal the wounds)
Walking through fields of failure to find a sign, sign of...

Hope beckons, calling me to begin
This darkness might not win
More colors, finally shades of gray
Yearning to walk away

Blackness or total white
With no end in sight
Blackness behind a wall
That’s hiding the light

Only to heal the wounds of those promises (only to heal the wounds)
The pieces of hope to resurrect me (pieces of hope)
Lighting the fire that may have seemed to die (lighting the fire)
Walking through fields of failure to find a sign, sign of life!

Feeling the eternal fear
That the pain is near (pain is near)
Questions in the back of my mind
Nothing is clear

Only to heal the wounds of those promises (only to heal the wounds)
The pieces of hope to resurrect me (pieces of hope)
Lighting the fire that may have seemed to die (lighting the fire)
Walking through fields of failure to find a sign, sign of life!

It’s my sign of life...
The sign, the sign, the sign of life!


6. ABANDON

I’ve hit a wall (I’ve hit a wall)
I’m on a cliff staring cautious at my abyss
One more vision, one more night to see the vivid dreams
My confidence can’t be what it seems

Holding my head up high
Yielding to desire

What can I see when I feel too much to comprehend?
How can I face this reality alive when I’m desperate to hide?

I’ve lost my grip (I’ve lost my grip)
It’s all a haze
Falling backward toward the crippling maze

One step forward
Now I’m running, taking ten steps back
These apparitions force my mind off track

One day this will go away
Though the memories will stay

What can I see when I feel too much to comprehend?
I can push this destruction aside if I leave it behind
Leave it all behind

Running just to stay ahead
My sanity in shreds

What can I see when I feel too much to comprehend?
How can I face this reality alive when I’m desperate to hide?

Hide!


7. SANITY'S COLLAPSE

(Instrumental)


8. ONE MORE MOMENT

Staring out at the edge of the dream
Colors weak and fading
Nothing’s what it seemed
So hard to describe it
To write the final line
So hard to define it
The blame that’s mine
I’ve been searching
And I feel that it’s time... yeah, yeah...

One more moment to hold in my hands
The only moment to know where my fate lands
Can’t fight the future of choices I can’t make
Can’t fight the future of roads not there to take

To paint the picture
Portray the scene some other way
I can’t erase and I’ll always chase
That second chance
To light the shadows
Add some color to the gray
Though nothing’s changed
Can’t rearrange
It ends the same

I’ve been waiting for a sign
Some final leap of faith
To heal this pain, to right the wrong
Now I’m falling down to the ground
I’ve reached the end of the road
I’ve finally lost control... yeah, yeah, yeah...

I’ve lost it all
My back’s to the wall
The final step has made me fall
The line defined
I’ve turned the page

On me, on me


9. TWISTED DREAM

Struggling to open my eyes
The feeling I’ve long despised
Desperately feeling the walls come crumbling down
I played the game and held this back
I always feared my will would crack
And the shame would fit me like a perfect crown

The shame I felt
I buried it deep inside
Consuming me

How can I breathe?
How can I see an end when regret consumes and overloads my mind?
How can I move?
How can I start again when these visions haunt me like a twisted dream?

Wearing the past like a weight
Keeping me held in this state
Relapses hitting me one by one in line
I’ve reached the point of no return
I always thought my heart would learn
To fight the urge to drag me down another time

The pain I felt
It’s all rushing back to me
It just won’t end

How can I breathe?
How can I see an end when regret consumes and overloads my mind?
How can I move?
How can I start again when these visions haunt me like a twisted dream?

(Thought I’d conquered)
The deafening silence
The ticking of the clock
(Mind it wanders)
Back and forth
Between what’s real or not
(Pain it hurt me)
Over and over
I’m feeling it flooding back
(Over and over and over again)
Pulling me under again

And now it haunts me in my dreams
(Dreams and nightmares)
Nothing’s really ever as it seems
(Seems it should be)
I thought I put it all to rest
(All to rest now)
But now it’s taken me over again

How can I breathe?
How can I see an end when regret consumes and overloads my mind?
How can I move?
How can I start again when these visions haunt me like a twisted dream?


10. TRUE REFLECTION

Thinking out loud
My conscience is speaking
It calls to me, in a distant voice
I’m finally listening

It’s finally time to see the writing on the wall
I can’t define the guilt, you know I feel it all
I’m forced to see now what I couldn’t feel then
The connection that I can’t ever mend

Shadows they move towards the light
I feel acceptance in my grasp
The realization that I can’t deny or fight
That the pain had always masked

Facing my true reflection in a mirror that holds the key
It’s time to give up on blaming you
And stare into my own two eyes and blame me...

I tried so hard to push the blame into your lap
I played the card
The ace that set up the final trap
The bitterness that suffocates me
I feel it burning inside

Facing my true reflection in a mirror that holds the key
It’s time to give up on blaming you
And stare into my own two eyes and blame me...

Holding on
Holding you
Holding this when everything turned out wrong
Holding back
Holding me from ever being free...


11. SHATTERED SELF

Why?
Why did this have to be?
When will I see an end?
I think I’m finally losing the will to fight

When fighting is all I’ve done
Fighting to not move on
Fighting to keep my head above the waves
Of depression and pain I felt
It’s eating me up inside
The end of suffering was only a lie

A lie that I had to live
A lie that controlled my mind
My mind left me buried behind a wall
Of sadness I knew I’d built
I know that I won’t go back
I can never face this all again

Blaming someone
Not to face my own guilt
The faults I didn’t want to see
Running from the past to keep this mask on
I should’ve stopped the pain for me

I’ve reached the end
The final breakdown
Fragments of a shattered self
A broken dream
Now I feel nothing
But regret for everything


12. RELEASE

Thought I knew how I ended up here
Thought I knew how to make the picture clear
The shame I felt to realize that I was wrong
So difficult to see that I was guilty all along
Thought it was you who led me down this road

To comprehend doesn’t make me free to understand
This wall was built and strengthened by my own hands
The pain and misery was an illusion in my own mind
It’s not for you to help me leave the past behind

Forgiveness isn’t owed to anyone
Frustration forced my mind to run
And left me hoping I could force a second chance
The distant memories shouldn’t hold me back
From moving on and taking back control
The sign I waited for is mine
No words can make it right


13. THE PATH TO PERSEVERANCE

To walk the road... and see the paths I could have chose
Is not to say... my will cannot choose another way

I thought I’d seen the signs
But the words were not as they appeared
Now I’ve seen my destiny
What came to be is not what it seemed

Now I’ve begun to see what is and what was meant to be
I can’t run when I need the past to set my future free, yeah

The future holds unexpected tests
To test my strength
The value of my quest
This second chance
Won’t be long for you and I
Walking away
Gave me the chance to try

Now I’ve opened the door
And stepped on through to the other side
To right what’s wrong
Means nothing more than to just move on

Now I’ve begun to see what is and what was meant to be
I can’t run when I need the past to set my future free

I will believe that there’s hope
I can learn to change my destiny

To take a step towards the light
And see the sparks and hope they might
Light the path to change my destiny

To take a step towards the light
And see the sparks and hope they might
Light the path to change my destiny

To take a step towards the light
And see the sparks and hope they might
Light the path to change my destiny

And now I’ve turned the page
And the words are mine to redefine
And I can see again
Perspective on what is and might have been

Now I’ve resolved
The pain I caused and fought to justify
Redefined everything and what it meant to me

Now my resolve
Fuels the fire that burns to light my way
Down this road
I walk to face the future
Come what may

And who I am won’t be defined by my mistakes
But the resolve of my will to overcome!